I was trying to fall asleep while staring at the ceiling but was having trouble. I'm bothered by how much I have to think about. How helpless I am. How was it possible for Zamiel to make my heart beat unusually quickly? Gosh! He is driving me insane. I was unable to think clearly. That passionate kiss we shared is just so upsetting to me. How was I just given a quick, passionate kiss? Did he ever consider that I might not feel at ease with him kissing me? Gosh! Nicole, put that kiss behind you. You are only bothering yourself and coming off as foolish! Okay fine, I need to erase that thing. But how could I? Goodness!
There was some silence. I closed my eyes, but I was still unable to fall asleep. I believe I am fully awake. I made the decision to get up and leave my room. I'm not sure why
