A wolf's cry for love

A wild horse

When I walked into the dinning hall my husband was sitting at the end of the table with Misha on his lap, that took a bit if my happiness. Until he looked teasingly at my “oh? You did get up, I was wondering if you needed food in bed instead”, I smiled “yes I told you I’m not that weak”. I bent down and kissed him, making him rumbling pleased, then I gently ruffled Misha’s head, she on the other hand seemed very annoyed. I sat down on my chair and looked at my mother-in-law “hello”, the evil dragon just gave me a sour look “what time is it to come down, you’re late” she snarled angry. I smiled “I apologize you son kept my awake for too long last night”, my mother-in-law pressed her lips so tight together, they became a thin white line, I picked up a strawberry with my fork, I reached for my husband’s lips with the fork, he took the strawberry smiling and then I did the same with Misha. She looked surprised but bit down on the strawberry too, I reached over for a some sugar, I was the only one taking sugar in my tea and by some reason it was always placed as far away as possible. A cool hand touched my back or rather touched the scar I had on my left shoulder, I smacked the hand away before thinking... “ouch!” Misha whined. Oh no, I turned but to late Misha had fake tears in her eyes and Adrian was hugging her “Clarissa” he growled in a warning tone, I had completely forgotten the threat he gave me yesterday. Bloody damn, I turned “oh sorry Honey... I didn’t mean to but my scar hurt when it’s touched”, Misha sniffled but looked a me “really? It’s not because you don’t like me?”. I was almost blown back, she was a very good actress was it not for that tiny please look she had in her eyes, she would have had me fooled. The look she had in her eyes, was the my mother-in-law had everything she got Adrian and I to fight. I tried my best to smile “how could I not like you” I said and covered her wet cheeks with my hands, her face was cold and I wanted to smack her hard for taking my husband. Misha smiled and hugged Adrian “she likes me!”, Adrian chuckled at her and kissed her lips “so she says”, my smile wavered. When his eyes turned a darker shade while looking at Misha, I turned toward my teacup, I put two spoons more of sugar in the tea, my mother-in-law was smiling pleased at me. “marmalade?” she asked gently pushing the blueberry marmalade toward me, I smiled as much as I could while taking the marmalade “why thank you mother-in-law”. I put the marmalade on my toast and began eating, while watching my husband handfed his mistress and her giggling when he kissed her neck. That was it I could not take it anymore, I chugged the last of the hot tea down my throat and was about to get up. “what a nice dress you are wearing Clarissa” my mother in-law said almost friendly, I got worried “yes?” I asked. She smiled even friendlier “where is it from, is it from that seamstress you talked about”. My husband’s head turned in an instant “what?” he growled, I winced “well...”, Adrian looked furious “how in the hell are you going around wearing that? Are you having an affair with her? is that why?”. I glared “me? You have a mistress sitting on your lap!”, Adrian ignored that “you have five minutes to go up and change to something else”. I got up “no”, Adrian got up too and put his mistress on my chair, “you are doing as I tell you” he snarled, “why should I?, I didn’t cheat you did and still do” I snarled back”. Adrian took at step toward me “you have exactly three minutes to get rid of that dress or I will strip you myself and burn them all”. I stared into his eyes he meant it, and he was not going to back down, “fine” I said, Adrian looked at his watch “2 minutes and 45 seconds left before I burn them, I expect you to be down here in another outfit”, I swore at him, then I turned and actually had to run up the stairs, I quickly changed to my riding pants and a top. Then I grabbed my jacket and riding boot while running downstairs I felt dizzy on the way, I ignored it and walked inside the dinning hall. Adrian was standing where I left him with his eyes on his watch, “half a minute over time I will burn one dress”, I huffed “why you already ripped one yesterday”. He looked at my outfit “where do you think you’re going?”, I put my boots on and my jacket “I’ll take Thunder on a ride”, “I don’t want you riding that horse!” now he was yelling. “that not your decision to make” I said, zipping my jacket, Adrian looked so angry “Claire I forbid you to ride that horse”. “I don’t care! You have a mistress, I ride my horse!” I screamed back, Adrian walked toward me, I straightened my back “this is an order as your pack Alpha I forbid you to ride that horse he is dangerous”. Adrian’s alpha power rolled over me, it was not so strong as yesterday but it did make my vision blurry for a second “fine” I said between greeted teeth. Normally I could suppress such an order I was normally just as strong as him, but now? Now I just had to listen. I turned around Erwin was standing at the door “Erwin get someone to saddle a bloody horse to me” “take Stardust” it came from behind, “yes your grace” Erwin said and disappeared. “yeah... yeah” I growled, I was too angry to appreciate him telling me to ride his horse. By the time I got outside, and toward the staples a horse was ready but it was not Stardust, but instead a tawny red mare, named Yvette. I did not like that one, she was fare too easily scared and not very fast, “give me another one” I said, the staple man shook his head “I’m sorry your grace, his Grace's order”. I sighed and swung myself up on Yvette, she moved nervously, I tried controlling my temper, so she wouldn’t run off in fright. “giddeup!” I said and gently touched her flanks with my heels, she began going at a steady pace, but by the time we got to the forest, something was seemingly wrong with her. She whined and flinched at everything, a shadow or even a bird singing, then she stopped from the tenth time I had enough “all right Yvette let’s go back”. I pulled her reins to get her turned around, but then she suddenly began rearing, “woah easy girl” I tried soothing her, but she just got up on her hind legs again, basking aggressively with her front legs in the air. This was bad, I pulled at the reins trying to get her to call down, but she kept going, almost screaming and rearing, “oh bloody hell” I mumbled. She got so high up on her hind legs she almost tipped backwards, I should jump of her before she really did fall, I got one foot of and then she jumped, I gasped grabbing a hold of her reins but it just made it worse. My right foot was stuck in the stirrup iron, I tried getting it out, and then Yvette that bloody horse with almost a scream began rearing like crazy, I fought to get my foot out if the stirring iron. Yvette tipped, “no no...no!” I screamed, I threw myself to the side, but a tree stopped me and then a massive weight smacked me against the bark...