Secrets Of A Scorned Woman

Release

It has been a week since we were attacked, since then it has been a little crazy especially since Malcolm has been out of it since then. The doctors say it is his wolf’s fault as he is trying to heal whatever happened to him that is. We still don’t have any leads as to what the hell happened that day and the one lead we thought we had Damien was unable to track them past the river so back to square one. We have since decided that while Malcolm is still in this state Damien will be acting Alpha. We have been cooped up all day trying to get everything back to normal. 

“You ok?” Damien’s voice echoes in my brain as I seem to be empty minded. I look up at him, his eyes are so captivating, it stirs something within me. 

“Yeah I believe so, just trying to figure out what in the hell is going on and honestly what I’m going to do when he wakes up.” That seems to catch his attention. 

“What do you mean? What is going on with you?” He asks me his voice matching the look on his face, he is worried and to be honest so am I. My bond is strengthening and breaking at the same time, Jaz called a few days ago as she felt my life force depleting due to what is going on with the bond. I know we were gonna break it but that is a hell of a lot different and confusing. So in other words if it continues to wither away and ends up breaking the way it is it will somehow kill me in the process, we aren’t sure how or why, usually if it breaks naturally whoever is left standing will go berserk turning rogue, dying a slow death, or  living a depressed life but no this is killing me as it dies. Now with how Jazz was gonna do it we would both continue to live normally we would be a little hurt but that’s it nothing a couple of weeks of recuperating wouldn’t fix. This bullshit is driving me crazy and Cleo has been doing everything she can to keep us healthy and our bond sadly trying to make it stronger instead of letting it die at least till Jazz returns. 

“Honestly Damien I don’t know how to explain it to you, but if we don’t find out who or what is behind your brother’s condition soon I am terrified of how it will end up.” A tear escapes my eye as I think of how my life has been completely turned upside down all because my f*****g asshole of a mate couldn’t keep his d**k to himself. “I have this nagging feeling that we are missing something but I can’t figure out what it is. This whole nonsense just seems to be a little coincidental and it’s making me think that maybe ugh nevermind'' I shake away the thoughts that have been bugging me as Damien gets up from where he was sitting and walks over to me, kneeling down before me he caresses my face as if I would disappear at any moment.

“Lily, please tell me what’s going on in that beautiful head of yours” his eyes are pleading with me to open up and let him in. My heart and surprisingly my wolf both are warm and tingly, basking in the feeling of him touching me. You would think that with everything going on I would stay hundreds of miles away from any kind of male including my piece of s**t mate but it feels as if something is trying to push me towards Damien like he is the answer to a lot of my problems. So deciding to trust myself I told him everything starting from the night I found out about the affair to now and my future plans if we can stop what is happening at least. By the time I’m done he isn’t the Damien I know he has lost complete control. 

“I am gonna kill that bastard” was all I heard before I saw a huge beautiful black wolf jumping over me and out the window. 

“Oh f**k” Cleo and I say at the same time before shifting into my white wolf and rushing after him. We easily catch up to him as it seems that he and his wolf are having issues on who is gonna be in control. Cleo takes over as she slowly approaches his wolf with each step she gets closer to the ground trying to show him she means him no harm and that she is submitting to him to try and calm him down. To my surprise it works and before I know it Cleo and his wolf, who I don't know the name of, are playing in the woods outside of the hospital. Yes he got that close to Malcolm but honestly the only thing that mattered to me at the time was Damien. MAybe it's my scorned soul and heart trying to hurt Malcolm in the worst way possible but I am starting to want to be around Damien, wanting to be touched by him, and to be completely honest and f****d by him as well. His wolf is currently nuzzling into Cleo's neck whimpering like he is begging her to forgive him for losing his cool, she licks his snout and they lay there on the ground cuddled into one another before everything goes dark. It feels as if I have finally released my soul and let her run free, she made sure to send me her feelings and for the first time in our existence she felt happy and free. With that on my mind I drifted off to sleep inside her subconscious thinking of the feeling of being next to the one man forbidden to be in my heart.