Secrets Of A Scorned Woman

Reality and a cup of dew

Jaz smiled at me before leaning in to give me a hug, she was leaving to begin her side of the agreement. We had decided on what to do after I told her everything, she was pissed to say the least but what we had decided was the best option for me not him. It would save me from this life from killing the very wolf inside that I didn’t want last year but am dying to have back now. She would be angry but Jaz had said it was for the best and I agreed. We were gonna break my bond with Malcolm without him knowing and then I would leave so no one could stop me, I would do it at night. It would take Jaz at least 6 months, she said, to gather everything and everyone she needed for the ritual so I had to be a good girl for the next 6 months without drawing attention to myself, strengthening my bond with Malcolm, or getting near Damien. To be safe I had to avoid it all for my health, sanity, and my wolf’s sake. I wave at Jaz once more before she does her poofing thing and is gone once again. Heading inside I caught a glimpse of him with her again. They are trying to hide in the east side of the woods but he didn't know that I was on this side of the property. My blood boils. I hate him just as much as I hate her, suddenly a growl escapes my lips before I have a quick spurt of happiness. She is trying to come back. I feel her but just barely. “I’m sorry for how I treated you. Please, I need you and I’ll do everything in my power to prove it to you.” I say to nobody in my mind hoping to draw her out, nothing. Upset I turn my attention back to the couple that has caused me so much pain, they are now hugging each other tightly. He has so much love showing on his face. My anger bubbles to the surface, my body trembles, and as if I’m not in control starts to head straight for me. Before I can get 5 f*****g feet I am ifted up off the ground and placed on a shoulder, someone's hand is now clutching my inner thigh holding me in place. By the warm fuzzy tingles I know it’s Damien. 

“Let me down D” I scream, slamming my fists into his back one after the other. “Now Damien don’t make me beat your ass”

“Oh Lily, don't tease me like that. I would love for you to beat my ass any day” I feel my face get hot as hell as the realization of what he said sinks in. “Wolf got your tongue now?” Yep sure I think to myself. “I know you saw them but he said he was telling her that it was time for her to leave to her dad’s pack in Connecticut” Uh oh that means he wants to try to fix our bond and relationship. I can’t do that if I plan on breaking it.

“Why now?” My voice barely above a whisper as I stopped fighting him letting his hold loose. I felt indifferent like my heart and head were both on the verge of exploding. On one hand I wanted him to hurt like I did but on the other one keeping our bond made me weak and powerless to him with him being my mate, the one I chose to be with. I sigh, not sure how in the hell I'm supposed to last 6 months now. I have 2 sexy wolves that will be fighting to  prove themselves and any female would love to be in the middle of the two but I had to  leave. I could not do this, it had to be sooner. I wouldn't last 6 months here.

"You got quiet, you hoping he does send her away?" Damien's voice like honey to my ears, strong and deep, brought me outta my mini panic attack. "Was hoping you would see you deserve better even if it's not me" The last part was barely a whisper on his breath not being meant for my ears but I heard it and it was enough to make my heart clench at his words. Why I don't know, I have never felt this way towards him. I've always been comfortable with him but not this warm fuzzy need you feel I'm having now.

"I don't know." It was quick and sweet, maybe a little too quick. 

"What do you have planned, Lily? Why was Jazmine here?" I can't tell him, it would screw everything up, I had to change the subject.

"Got any dew?" He looked at me on his shoulder as if I'd grown two heads. 

"What?" Curiosity in his voice "IS" It was getting louder "DEW???" He finished before bursting out laughing dropping me to the ground beneath us thankfully I have a full ass to stop my fall.

“You know Mountain Dew??” This time it was me who decided to burst out in laughter on the ground. His eyes bore into mine as he reduced his laughter to a light chuckle making my hair stand on end damn if talking about  Dew does this then what could I make him do talking about something way sexier.

"You know if you keep laughing like that in that melodic way that you do making you look so f*****g beautiful, I don't think I will be able to keep my hands to myself. Lily no matter what happens with you and Malcolm you have to know you are the most intriguing, sexy, independent woman and she wolf I have ever laid my eyes on. You deserve to be treated as a Queen not a second choice" His eyes glowed a golden brown letting me know his wolf was trying to surface. I don't know what happened but I felt a stir within me making me lean forward towards him. His lips only centimeters away from mine before we were slammed back into reality when screams were heard from all around.