My four handsome knights

It’s just a game love.

Lydia.

No it was not happening.

I can’t kiss Scott.

No.

“No man, stop that,” Scott said to the guy, while my gaze remained at the both of them.

“Why? She lost and it’s the game.” The guy said, and I ran a hand through my hair.

“We’re not doing it Jake,” Scott added, as I now realized that his name was Jake.

Well Jake, you picked the wrong time to do this.

“Can’t I just drink instead, why do I have to do that?” I eventually spoke, while my gaze went to George.

“Baby girl, you knew the rules.” George smiled slyly at me.

“Well, I have a boyfriend.” I said, whereas my gaze met with Scott after my statement, and I watched his gaze become furrowed.

“It’s just a game love, except if you want to leave the game,” Jake said, and my face hardened at him.

First of all, don’t call me love.

“Then I’d leave.” I said, whereas George stared at me with a raised gaze, definitely in stun at my words. I hated this. I hated being the center of attention, especially when it was a place filled with horny college students who would have thought one was lame. I didn’t wait for anyone’s opinion before I left the room and stayed at George’s living room, where people dance and drank. At least it was better than doing something I didn’t want to.

Life could be such a b***h at some times, and it was at that moment, when you’re moving away from something that it keeps throwing more shits to you.

Urgh! I really needed a drink.

As I turned to go grab a drink, my chest hit with that of a tall figure, which made me to stumble back almost falling, when a hand gripped me by the waist and I saw it to be Scott.

“Are you okay?” Scott said, while his eyes searched mine as he still held on to me.

“I’m fine.” I released myself from his hold. “Excuse me, I’m going to get a drink.” I told Scott plainly while I averted my gaze from him, but he still stood in my way.

“Can we talk Lydia,” Scott asked, and my gaze went back to him.

“Maybe later.” I said to him. I was acting like a b***h and I knew it. Scott’s offense didn’t warrant this much bitchy attitude I gave him, and I knew it was not because of his offense, it was much more. It was something else.

“Lydia please,” Scott begged me, as I saw pain in his eyes and my eyes splashed with pity and went soft.

“Okay.” I agreed, yet my face still remained stern.

“Can we go outside?” Scott asked me, whereas I only nodded and followed him outside until we came to stop, where there was less noise and people. “I don’t like what’s going on between us Lee, and I know it’s my fault, but I’ve tried so many time to apologize for it, but you wouldn’t let me.” Scott began as I only stared at him in silence. “I’m sorry that my words hurt you and…”

“It wasn’t the first time you made such a statement to me Scott.” I cut him that off. “And I put up with it cause I knew not everyone was going to like what I did, but not you. Even if you didn’t, I didn’t expect you to shame me that way for it.” I told Scott, while I spoke my truth. “And it hurts more because it was coming from you.” I said.

“I know and i’m sorry. I swear to you Lydia, I didn’t say it to shame you.” Scott said.

“Then why did you say it?” I asked him, as my gaze stared at him vividly, whereas Scott went silent, unable to speak a word. “See, you don’t even know why.” I scoffed sadly, with my gaze now with disappointment. “You know what Scott, you were my best friend and I could tell you anything and because of that is why I shouldn’t be judged, when of you didn’t like what I did, you could just give your piece of advice. You made me feel as though I did something dirty and you of all persons know what my life is like and because you have no other explanation for why you said so, just makes it hurt the more.” I told Scott, whereas my chest heaved while I spoke in pain, and I watched Scott’s eyes redden. “Coming to this party was a bad idea. I’m leaving.” I added, whereas with one last look at him, I turned my back to leave.

“You wanna know why I said so Lydia,” Scott spoke and that got me to stop in my tracks and turned back to him.

“Why?” I asked him.

“Because I felt jealous. I felt Jealous that you got to spend you free time with strangers and not with me. You got to smile and laugh with others and not with me. They get to see a side of you that I could only crave for.” Scott said and my gaze furrowed.

“What are you saying Scott…how does this relate to what happened?” I asked him, with my eyes moving at every second.

“Damn it Lydia.” Scott cursed, whereas I began to see the moistness that filled his eyes. “How else am I gonna prove it or say it to you that I like you. Bullshit, not as a best friend, but as someone I would like to hold in my arms permanently. I like you so much Lydia that it hurts when I see you with other men.” My lips began to tremble, as my gaze stared at Scott in disbelieve of what I heard. “And then, I hear you say you have a boyfriend? Do you know how much that aches my heart? Do you know how much pain I have to subside, just so that I thought if I told you, I might loose the friendship we had? That is how much I love you Lydia, and that is the reason why I hurt you.”