Sunset

MONOLOGUE

I was running the crowd, searching for his trace.

Where did he go? I kept on asking myself.

As I continue searching for him, I can see  my seniors’ masters, crying while hugging their parents and giving their diploma to them, “Congratulations master” I repeatedly say to every graduates I encounter in the hall. Today is a wonderful and memorable day for them and of course this will also be memorable, I hope not just for me, but for the both of us. 

It’s been fifteen minutes since the graduation ceremony ended. I'm not one of the graduates but I can feel my tears falling in my face, wishing he doesn't leave yet. I already searched the whole hallway, but still I do not see any trace of him, my heart starts to feel heavy as I can feel the frustration, up until I decided to go to our organization's headquarters, and there, I saw the man that I’ve been searching for.

When our eyes met, my hearts starts to pump like as if I'm in the race, I go near to him, I want to hug him but I know I should not to, his tears starts to fall when I'm finally facing him, I can see how much this man loves me, I know and I can feel that his feelings for me is real, but I cannot do anything now, and knowing how important I am for this person is what it hurt me the most.

“Ja, I'm now an engineer” he told me while trying to stop his tears falling, “ but I'm sad and hurt knowing that this maybe the last time, my last chance for me to persuade you, to accept my feelings and to be with you” he said to me while looking straight in my eyes.

“I know, that’s why I searched for your earlier, but I'm not here to give you an answer, I'm here to give you a condition, if you, by any chance, will still like me, love me and accept who I am, three years from now, them come back to me” I replied to him as i try no to show any emotions.

I can not give in now, this is not the time

I can see confusion in his face , “ are you telling me that you will give me a chance?” he asked.

“I cannot tell you anything more than that” that’s right, I cannot tell him anything right now, even though I want to hug him tight, hold his hand and tell him that it was him whom I loved.

He was about to say something when I told him that I needed to leave already. I immediately run away from our headquarters as I am afraid that I cannot control myself to confess to him

Yes, I do love him, but this is not the time for me to fall in love. I saw him leaving the hall and as I stared at him, slowly walking away, my tears kept on falling, wishing that someday that man will come back to me and say that he still loves me.