Second Chances:HOPE & FAITH

HOPE & FAITH

Dear Aidan,

I will accept your rejection but only in person. I don't hate you but I will accept your feelings and let you go.  I want to help you and I want to love you. I don't know when my heart started to feel what it feels now but I can't do it alone. I wish I could hold on but that's not my choice anymore. I am sorry if I confused you or took something that wasn't mine. I didn't mean to take her place and I know I never could. I was in love once too. His name was Seth. He was an incredible guy. He loved me just as much as I loved him. We did everything together and thought we would go off and live in Paris together. He knew about my sickness and tried to be there for me but I just pushed him away. I spent most of my teenage years in and out of hospitals. When I was sixteen it got real bad and I had to stay there indefinitely.  Either waiting for a new heart or waiting to die. The sicker I got waiting I started to believe I was a lost cause. I NEVER GAVE UP. I always fought but in those moments I lost my HOPE. I lost my Faith. I told Seth to move on and give up on me. I was going to die and there was nothing he could do. So I know why you are doing this. I wish I could have held on a little longer and not gave up so quickly. Life had other plans for me. I just needed Faith. I got a second chance at both LOVE and LIFE because of her. I never thought I would feel love or have someone want to be with me no matter what I went through. Thick and thin, sickness and health unbreakable love until I met you. We haven't even gotten our chance to embrace it but I won't push you.  We love until we die and I know the moment Faith died you died with her. I'm sorry I took her life. I took the life she was supposed to be living. The party she was supposed to have, the dance you two were supposed to share. I know you know I got her heart. I felt you outside those doors that day. I know you felt me too just like when we were at the bar. I can never repay Faith, her family or you for her gift but I will do everything to make every moment count. I won't give up and I will fight. Aidan, I haven't known you for long but I know how we make each other feel. You make me feel whole and like I have a home. No other place will feel like that ever again. If it wasn't for this mate bond we wouldn't feel this hold so I will release you. I want this confusion to stop as well. Just remember I will always love you. No matter how far away we are. No matter what happens after and no matter what comes next. Don't die of misery. Live your life and live in her memory. Live your life for her. Don't surrender to your pain. You're stronger than that. 

      Don't give up on your Faith.

I tore the paper from the notebook and folded it and gave it to Lucas.

"Take it to him," I said. " Now!" I demanded. He looked dumbfounded but I didn't want to wait any longer. I need to let him know my decision. Lucas took the note and ran out of the apartment.  I closed my eyes and started to cry again before I cried myself to sleep.

The next day.

"Aidan, Aidan where the hell are you." I mind linked him. "Fuck."  I ran as fast as I could. I tried to warn him I was coming. I needed to see him as soon as I arrived. I don't think I have ever run this fast in my life.

"Lucas what the f**k are you doing back?" he asked.

"Meet me by the clearing now!" I shouted in his thoughts.

"Lucas, I don't want to go there," Aidan responded.

"Now or I'll eat this letter I have for you from Hope," I said.

"DO IT AND I'LL BURN YOU ALIVE," he yelled. I reached the path that leads to the clearing Aidan loved so much. I knew no one but him was allowed to go there but I knew my friend needed to be here to read this. Aidan approached me in his human form and grabbed the little coin purse I had in my mouth. He took out the letter and headed to the clearing. I decided to stick around to see what his decision was after reading the letter. I didn't know what Hope wrote but I hoped that he would change his mind and let her come back home. I headed to the mansion to await Aidan's return.

Dear Aidan,

I will accept your rejection but only in person.

I felt my heart drop. I wondered if this is how Hope felt when she heard me say those words. I wanted to die right then and there. I continued to read and felt some relief and then anger again at the mention of some guy named Seth. I wanted to remain calm but then Hope began to mention Faith. I was reading more of the letter and I felt my heart start racing then come to a complete stop. This went on until I reached the end. I crumbled up the letter and threw it at the water. I was more confused than ever. Suddenly a shadow figure was coming through the waterfall. It then was sparkling and the most heavenly light surrounding the figure. It grabbed the floating ball of paper and handed it to me. I couldn't make out an image but it felt familiar.

"Faith," I called out. It didn't speak but instead handed me a piece of paper and pen.

"Don't lose your Hope," The angelic figure said. I again recognized the voice. I still couldn't see a face or complete features but I knew it was her.

"Faith,"

"FAITH!!"

They figure disappeared and I fell to the ground.

"I want to be with her but I don't want to forget you," I shouted to the sky. " I should have gone with you."

After a few moments, I picked up the paper and pen. I started to think of what to say. I knew what I wanted to say but I didn't want to admit it. If this was the universe and Faith herself telling me to move forward then I would try. For both of them.

My dearest Hope,

I won't give up. I drown in her memory and I let myself die every day I push you away. I still need you and I won't give that up. I can't just watch you leave and not try to stop you. I already did that once and I almost died. I am still here Hope, because of you. I have never been so in love. I found what I have been missing. I will forever be grateful for my Faith. My beloved. She opened my heart and made me care more than I have ever known possible. You have made me feel the intensity and strength of love. I will make this work. I got a second chance and I know Faith wants me to try and open my heart to someone once more. I couldn't have asked for anyone better. Never stop loving me Hope. Faith will live in my heart forever as will you. I am now living for the only one that makes me move. I need nothing else. There is no one else. Nothing will ever change my mind. I am coming for you my love and by the time you read this letter we will be face to face and I will mark you as mine, declare you as my Luna and mate, and never let you go.