Let Her In
1111 Words
My dearest Hope... I began to write my 2nd letter to her. I was overjoyed that she had responded. I felt this was the safest way to have her and yet not betray my beloved. Last night I went into my mate's room and found her letter to me on her dresser. I was just going to grab it and walk back to my bedroom. I was stopped by her amazing aroma. I watched as she slept. She was very beautiful. Her hair was draped over her body. I wanted to snuggle my way to her side and sniff her hair all night. I ran out of her room before my body betrayed me. How do I explain myself and yet keep my past in the past? I hardly slept at night anymore. Before it was because I was haunted by my beloved and now I was consumed by Hope. I was in my own thoughts dreaming about what it would be like to touch the angel I kept hidden away when I heard a loud cry. Something fell to the ground outside from her balcony. I immediately ran to see what it was. I didn't show myself but felt her presence some feet above me. I wanted to smash things as well. I hated hearing her in such despair and knowing I was the cause of it made it so much worse. I knew Lucas went to go check on her but I was visibly angry that he got to comfort her and me coward away like a fool. I felt her calm down and I became less agitated by this. Soon after Lucas came into my office with talks about the birthday party we were hosting for a pup. I didn't know his name or his family for that matter. Lucas just mentioned that being nice and giving the pack this celebration would keep them at ease and content. I agreed but knew I would not be anywhere near this house when it began. By midday, I went out and went for a run. My wolf and I decided to go hunting. It was for sport rather than survival but we enjoyed it nonetheless. I spent about 3 hours of hunting. Killing any animal that crossed our path. Small or large we took the challenge. As I approached the house I could hear the laughter and conversations between the guests. I shifted back and went over to the pile of clothes by a weeping willow tree. I was always amazed at the spots my maids left the clothing for me. It was always very accurate and I was pleased with their dedication. I got dressed and headed over to the commotion. Lucas did saying at least making a brief appearance would boost morale. As I walked more forward I suddenly smelt sweet roses. I knew she was near. I looked over to her balcony and saw her kneeling down talking to Lucas. She was wearing nothing but a robe. It was not long enough for my taste. The thought of her being naked underneath sent shivers down my spine. I grew angry and wanted Lucas to stop staring at her. I knew he was a good friend and trusted ally but he was a man an unmated man. I yelled at the top of my lungs and told her to get inside. She looked frightened and sad. I wish I could let her down. I wish I could let her enjoy moments like these with us. Her new family. I was lost in my despair. As soon as she was out of sight I punched Lucas in the chest and walked into the mansion. I went to my office and looked over some paperwork. Reviewed new pack treaties. Every so often I would get a treaty deal to become betrothed to an alpha's daughter or Luna in need of a strong alpha. I wondered how some wolfs didn't find a need to wait for their mate and rather take someone for money and power. I also felt angry at the thought of these proposals. They started just five months after I became a widower. I was appalled and would never consider these offers in a million years. Know one outside my pack knew I had a new mate. I didn't want anyone but my trusted men and family to know. Hell, I didn't want my family to know but Lucas advised me it would please everyone to know they had a Luna once more. I finished my work and went to the clearing. I hadn't been here since that night I decided to go to meet with the recipients of my beloved's organs. I walked around and splashed the water back and forth. I suddenly felt a breezy push me back a bit. The wind cradled around me. I then heard a whisper. "Let her in." It said. It was very faint and very soft. It didn't sound familiar at the time. I ignored and just got up and headed back home. As I stepped inside my home I questioned if I should go and look for her letter. I decided to just head to my bedroom and try to sleep.
The next morning I felt numb. I wanted to hear from her but I wanted nothing to do with her. These two feelings fought an endless battle in my brain. Every year I had to make preparations for trips to visit other packs. Face to face interactions and pleasantries were needed in our world. We kept the peace, shook hands, and had a few drinks. I booked my trips a while back but things were complicated now. I would be gone for three months. I wanted to have Lucas by my side but he was the only one Hope was used to and knew for that matter. I was going against my better judgment but I would soon give her some freedom. After breakfast, I called Lucas into my office. I told him about my plans and what he was to do while I was away. He would be in charge of the pack and watch over Hope. She would be allowed to leave her room for no longer than five hours a day. She was to go no further than the backyard and would not be allowed any man unless Lucas was present. No one was to tell her what we were or who I am. She would have to write to me or else her privileges would be taken away. After he was told my rules I went with him upstairs to face my mate.
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