POV’s Philip
After we got back from the beach, I let Tate use the shower first. While the Jaegers had an outdoor shower, Eren claimed that it was fine if we just used the regular ones.
I’d been glad to leave the beach. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I didn’t like it. But when I watched Tate, Ethan, and f*****g Zeke get in the water, my mind got pulled back to another place.
Falling into freezing water. My lungs are burning. Not being able to swim to the surface. Being completely helpless.
I’d had to force the memories down, shoving them far back in my mind.
The reason I didn’t go in with them wasn’t that I didn’t want to. It was because… well, because I couldn’t. Swim, that is.
The idea of ever saying it out loud made my stomach turn. Especially if I had to say it in front of Zek
