January 20thMy father always told me you need everything in moderation. That’s why a lot of people end up mulling through life in the middle of the road. It is not a bad way to live. You get to experience peaceful sadness and moderate happiness and that’s balance. But I think I’d rather be cast into the depths of despair and then crawl slowly out. I would rather rocket into the bursting pleasures of the sky. I would rather know true happiness and pure vile wretchedness than just some small amount of something that made my days blur, and my mind sit still, as the world whirred by around me.
I lost this book for a little while. I don’t know what happened, but it was missing for a few days. Perhaps they took it and finally read through the whole thing.
During those days, I started experimen
