White Wolves

The Family

   I was sitting in my room,alone. It’s 3:17 AM and I can’t sleep again. I’m struggling with sleeping disorders, severe depression, anxiety and rarely panic attacks. I can’t remember why and when started everything. I have a good life, I think. My parents are loving each other and me an my sister, I have a few friends, but that’s what I want. A few people who cares about me and they love me. 

  I’m living alone in New Orleans, near my pack house or better to say that’s a f*****g mansion. Usually just the mated werewolves are moving out the house to start their life together, but I wanted some time alone. It’s hard to live with so many people, they are loud and every time when they see me they are asking the same question “How are you?”. I hate it!! I don’t need their compassion. They don’t have to feel sorry about me.

 I’m strong. I know that nothing is wrong with me, but I have this feeling in my mind and heart. Hollowness. I hate it, I’m trying my best to not fall deeper into blankness. So here I am, in my bedroom in the middle of the night, thinking about my f****d up feelings. I think that I need a cigarette and some coffee. 

  I’m obsessed with coffee. I’m heading to the kitchen to prepare myself a cup of coffee. I love an espresso with some cream and a little sugar. I go in the backyard with my cup of coffe and a pack of cigarettes. It’s almost 4 AM. I think after my coffe I need a good run. The house is located at the edge of the forest so it’s easy to go for a run unnoticed. The whole pack is located near the forest. 

  After my run I have some business to deal with. I own a company with tattoo supplies and designs. I love art in every way possible. I have many tattoos, my whole left arm is tattooed and I have a big wolf on my right tight surrounded with pine trees and a night sky for my pack sake: Night Sky Pack. 

   I’m sitting in my office, I’m working from home. I’m distracted by a strange sound. My stomach is growling, I look at the time. No wonder I’m hungry, It’s almost 6 PM. My mother will kill me, I ate nothing today but I drank 4 coffees. Today is Saturday, what means that I have a family dinner to attend to. 

  I’m heading to my walk-in closet where 99% of my clothes are black, red and blue. I choose a black ripped skinny jeans, a dark red tank top, black combat boots and a black leather jacket, it has the same wolf design what I have on my tight. It was a gift from my sister. She is the best sister ever. I love her and I know that the feeling is mutual. She is younger than me, she have beautiful blue eyes, pointed nose, thin lips and beautiful long blonde hair. Nicole is a real beauty, short, petite. She found her mate almost a year ago, since then, they are inseparable. I’m really happy for them, Ed treats her like a princess, they are truly in love and I know that he will not hurt my little sister. 

  In front of the house is my babe, my one and only, my Honda CBR 600RR. Black with rose gold details. My parents house is like 20 minutes away. 

 I park my bike in front of the house. Nicole and Ed are already here, I’m the last one, again. 

 “Hey! Where’s everyone?” Nobody’s in the living-room. 

 “We are in the backyard honey!” My mom said entering in the kitchen. Her name is Eve. Blue eyes, like my sister’s, black hair what ends near her shoulders, beautiful features, tall and slim. 

 “How are you mom? You look great!” The floral summer dress looks great on her. 

 “Thank you Emma! I missed you so much. How are you my child?” She gave me a worried smile. I know that se can see my bags and my dark circles under my eyes even with makeup on. 

 “I’m good mom, I just didn’t slept good.” It’s pointless to lie to my mom. 

 “I hope that you are okay, if you need to talk about anything you know that I’m here for you.” She’s the best mom, she knows that I hate to talk about my condition. 

 “I know mom, thank you. I love you!” I said hugging her. 

 “Let’s go outside, your sister wants to talk about something.”

  In the backyard is a huge couch where my sister and Ed sits, next to Ed is my father,my mother joins him. I’m standing next to my sister who is stressed about something. 

 “Hey, how are you? Everything is good?” I ask them with a worried expression. 

 “Hey Em! Yeah, we are good.” 

 My dad gives me a hug and I take my seat next to my sister. 

 “So what do you want to talk about Nicole?” My mother asks her curiously. 

 Nicole starts sweating, she’s looking at Ed who is unusually quiet. 

 “So, I have to tell you something. I’m really nervous about it. I don’t know where to start..Umm...I’m pregnant.”

 “I thought you were involved in something stupid again.” I said not shocked about my 19 years old sister who is pregnant. I know that she is very young but maybe that’s what she needs right now. Maybe the baby will help her to grow up, to be more responsible. 

 “What?!” My dad and mom squeals together. 

  “I’m happy for you sis, it’s a little too early I think, but I’m sure that the Moon Goddess make everything for a reason. Ed are you ok? You are pale, here drink a little water.” I said handing him a glass of water what he accepts. 

 “Oh sweetheart, I’m so happy. Yes, you are still very young but I know that you two will going to be good parents. You don’t have to worry about anything, we will be here to help you trough this.” My mom gives her a reassuring smile. 

 “I hope that you will be by her side and you will take care of them. I think you know what happens if you don’t care about them properly.” Dad gives Ed a death glare. 

 My dad was the Beta of the pack. He gave me the title 4 years ago, at my 18th birthday. His name is Eric, 6,2 ft tall, green eyes, like mine, short white hair,he looks like a bodybuilder. Now he is the pack’s trainer. 

 “I love her, I’m happy that soon we will have our little family. I will take care of them, they are my life. I dont want to imagine what my life would look like without them.” Ed said, looking into my sisters watery eyes. I know she is happy.