The Affair

Truths Revealed

At last Marlena was asleep; but it was anything but restful. It was so confusing. Roman kept changing into John. Every memory of her life with Roman turned into a memory of her life with John.

She was kissing Roman; she was kissing John. She loved Roman; she loved John. She was making love to Roman; she was making love to John. She was marrying Roman; she was marrying John. Finally it was just John. It was John who found her when she was trapped in the pit. It was John who realized she was unhappy. It was John who knew her better than she knew herself. It was John who was willing to move away from Salem in order to save her marriage. She was the one who wouldn’t/couldn’t let him leave. He was always there when she needed him. It was John she loved. It was John she wanted.

Even though his eyes were closed, John was still unsuccessful in his attempts to fall asleep. He got out of the bed and began to pace back and forth in the room. Realizing he would not be able to sleep, he decided to go downstairs and wait for either daylight or the electricity. First he would check on Marlena. He walked out of his room and down the hall to the master bedroom. The door was open. He raised his candle to get a better look and saw that she was sleeping. Just as he was turning to leave he heard her talking in her sleep.

“I love you.”

John stopped dead in his tracks. He went to her and called her name, “Marlena.” He nudged her gently but she didn’t wake up.

“Make love to me,” she whispered.

Again John tried to wake her up. “Marlena, open your eyes. It’s me, John.”

Half asleep she opened her eyes and saw his face. She reached up and pulled him to her. Her arms went around his neck. She traced the outline of his lips with her tongue. Gently she parted her lips and sought entrance into his mouth.

John opened his mouth and followed her lead. His head was saying no, but his body was no longer listening. It responded in its own way. In the beginning it was a slow dance, but gradually became demanding; almost urgent. They could not get enough of one another. John reluctantly pulled himself from her mouth and began to kiss her neck. He immediately went to the one spot he knew was her weakness. She pulled him closer to her; running her fingers through this hair. He was quickly losing control.

The sensations going through her body were over powering. Her eyes opened wide. She quickly realized it wasn’t a dream. John was really here. Everything was clear. John was the man she loved and wanted.

She pulled away and said, “John.”

John immediately stopped kissing her. His guilt was overwhelming. He couldn’t look her in the eyes. He couldn’t believe he gave in to his desire for her. John got up and left the room.

Instantly Marlena knew he misunderstood her reaction. Her head finally realized what her heart and body had known all along. He was the only man for her. Her time with Roman was over. Roman was her past; John was her present and future. She went after him.

John stood in front of the fireplace. His eyes were closed. It had taken all of his strength to leave Marlena. He didn’t know how much longer he could stay away. Suddenly he felt a chill cross over his body. She was here. He didn’t need to turn around, he felt her presence.

“Doc this is not a good idea.”

“John, look at me.”

He shook his head and said, “I can’t.”

Marlena crossed the room until she was standing right behind him. Again she said, “Look at me.”

This time he turned to face her. Blue locked onto hazel. She stood before him dressed in nothing but his shirt. He thought she never looked sexier than at this moment. They both saw the desire in one another but John also saw something more. He saw her unconditional love for him. “Doc what is it you want from me?” He had to hear her say the words.

“I want you,” she said. “I want you to make love to me.”

“Are you …”

Before he could finish his sentence, she put her fingers on his lips and said, “Shh. John I love you. I always have. Make love to me.”

John knew if they made love there would be no turning back. She would be with him. He had to be sure she was ready. “Doc…,”

Before he could say another word, she reached up and brought his face close to hers. She kissed him on his neck and whispered in his ear, “I don’t want to talk.” She started kissing his neck on one side and made her way to the other side. John couldn’t move. Slowly she moved her mouth down to his chest. While her mouth was moving down his chest, she put her hands on his waist and removed his towel. It fell to the floor. She could feel his erection throbbing against her. As her tongue licked and caressed his n*****s, her hands began to slide up and down his p***s. John moaned in ecstasy. She slid down his body kissing every inch of him until she was on her knees. John was paralyzed. Marlena wanted to taste him. She couldn’t wait until she had him in her mouth. Before she would taste him, she needed him to see the love and desire in her eyes. She wanted him to know he was the only man for her. Marlena had never loved or wanted to please any man as much as John. She had done this before with other men, namely Don and Roman, but because she knew it was what they wanted. This time and every other time with John, was because she wanted it. She wanted to please him. Slowly she raised her head until she could see his beautiful steel blue eyes. As Marlena raised her head to look up at John, he lowered his head to see her face. He couldn’t believe she was finally giving herself to him completely. There was no doubt she loved and wanted him. They would be together forever.

Now that he knew how much she loved him, Marlena turned her attention back to the task at hand. She placed her hands at his knees and began to slowly caress his legs all the way up to his hips. John closed his eyes the moment she began to caress his legs. She brought her hands together until they were wrapped around his p***s. He moaned as her hands touched his p***s. She slid her hands down his p***s until she cupped his sack. Ever so gently she leaned over and licked his sack and then blew on it. John grabbed her head with his hands. He could hardly stand still by the sensations Marlena was causing with her mouth. Next Marlena brought the tip of his p***s close to her mouth. She could feel his p***s throbbing in her hands. Marlena licked the tip of him. She began to take him into her mouth a little at a time. Back and forth she went, each time going a little further. Finally, she had him completely in her mouth. It was always a challenge to take him completely in her mouth because of his size, but today she was more than ready to meet that challenge. John held on to her head as she moved back and forth. She felt so good. No other woman made him feel the way she did. He didn’t know how much longer he would last. She knew he was close. He was losing control. She wanted to taste him. Suddenly, he moved away from her mouth. She moaned in protest at the loss of him in her mouth. He knelt down and began to kiss her passionately. Her hands immediately went around his neck and into his hair. She could not get enough of him. This would not be one of their long sweet, tender kisses; this was pure carnal lust. There would be time for tenderness later, right now it was need and desire. As he kissed her mouth, his hands unbuttoned his shirt and slid it down her shoulders. He worked his hands back up her neck until they were entangled with her hair. All the while he never stopped kissing her. Suddenly he pulled her hair and jerked her head back. Surprised by the sudden movement, Marlena let out a loud gasp. She wasn’t afraid of him. It was the passion they shared for one another. John brought out a side of her she never knew existed until him. She was always ready, willing and able. Somehow she knew this time would be different; like no other time before. Her neck was now exposed to him. He leaned over and began to kiss, bite and suck every inch of her neck. All she could do was moan and run her fingers in his hair. As he was making his way to the other side of her neck, he continued to pull her head backwards until she was laying horizontal on the floor and he was over her. John left her neck and made his way down her breasts. He took her right breast in his mouth and began to suck her n****e. With his right hand he began to roll her left n****e between his fingers. Marlena could feel his p***s throbbing against her skin. She tried to insert her fingers between them to feel him; but she couldn’t reach him. He wouldn’t let her. Out of frustration she began to run her finger nails down his back. He moved his mouth to her left breast and began to suck her n****e and at the same time dragged his right hand down her body to the opening between her legs. Marlena began to moan loudly. Before she knew what was happening, John shoved three fingers inside of her. The minute he shoved his fingers inside of her, she screamed his name. John pushed his fingers in and out of her. In and out. In and out. Faster and faster. Harder and harder. Deeper and deeper. He began to place small bites on her breast. There was no doubt he would leave marks on her body this time. It was just the right amount of pain and pleasure. Marlena was in the sweetest agony she had ever known. She was so close; he could feel it. He didn’t know how much longer he could last without being inside of her. Just as suddenly as he pushed his fingers inside of her; he pulled them out. He raised his fingers until they were next to his mouth. John let go of her breast with his mouth and licked her juices off his fingers. The removing of his hand and licking of her juices took place in a matter of seconds. Before Marlena felt the void and realized his fingers were no longer inside of her, she felt herself being flipped over on her stomach and raised until she was on all fours with his p***s at her entrance. With one quick push he was inside of her. There would be no time of adjustment. This would be pure s****l gratification. He placed his hands on her waist and began to push in and out of her. Marlena took each thrust silently. She was speechless. The pounding her body was taking felt so good. She never wanted him to stop. As much as John was enjoying taking her from behind he needed to see her face. And just like that, John pulled out of her and flipped her on her back. As he pushed back inside of her, he took her hands into his and raised them above her head. He was in control. The only thing she could do was wrap her legs around him. John pushed in and out of her with reckless abandonment. Marlena held on to him with her legs. She was lost in the moment and closed her eyes. John, however, had other plans. He would make sure she saw him; make sure she knew she belonged to him and he belonged to her. After tonight she would never leave him.

His voice was a low growl and demanding, “Open your eyes and look at me.” And still he pushed in and out of her.

Marlena opened her eyes. In all the years she had known John, she never heard that tone used before. She was even more aroused if that was even possible.

John pushed in hard. “Say.”

He pulled out, “my.”

He pushed in harder, “name.” His eyes were locked onto hers.

Marlena was memorized by look in his eyes and the way he was pounding her body. In and out; faster and faster; harder and harder; deeper and deeper. She had never seen such total abandonment and passion from him before. It was all she could do to comply with his demand.

“J o h n,” she panted in between thrusts. She didn’t know how much longer she could last. Her body had never experienced such exquisite pain and pleasure simultaneously.

They were both close. It wouldn’t be much longer. Still John wanted there to be no doubt left in her mind.

His eyes were still locked on hers. He pushed in even harder, “Do”

He pulled out, “you”

He slammed inside of her, “love”

He pulled out, “me?” John knew they were both there. As he said the word, he let go of her hands.

Immediately her hands went around his back. By now she could barely speak. Her body had taken a pounding, but she did manage answer him between his thrusts, “O h G o d y e s.”

As soon as she said yes, John flipped them over. Marlena was on top and he was on the bottom. He knew they would both collapse in exhaustion. They would not be able to move for a while and he didn’t want all of his weight on her.

The minute she said yes, their orgasm began. Never before had they experienced such waves of pleasure. Not while they were married, not on the plane, not on the conference table and not in Victor’s bathroom at the Board Meeting. This was truly an outer body experience.

Slowly they began to come back to their respective bodies. Neither one knew what to say. They had gone to a place few people knew existed and fewer people visited. Still breathing heavily, they clung to each other. After a while Marlena raised her head to look at him. Before she could say anything, John tried to speak. He wanted to explain his actions, what just happened between them.

“Marlena, I …..”

Marlena put her hand over his mouth. “I know,” she said. “We belong together.” She laid her head on his chest. There would be time for talk later. They both closed their eyes.

A short time later, John opened his eyes. It hadn’t been a dream. Marlena was still in his arms. He raised his head and saw chill bumps on her body. He gently turned over and laid her on her back. He pulled his shirt over her. He didn’t notice the marks on her breasts. John got up and went upstairs to the master bedroom. He pulled a blanket and a sheet off of the bed. John went back down to Marlena. He put his arms around her and pulled the sheet and the blanket over them.

Marlena opened her eyes. She was in John’s arms and covered by a sheet and a blanket. She didn’t remember him leaving her. The last memory she had of them together was her was on top and him still inside of her. Marlena rolled over and looked at John. She had never felt so sexually satisfied in her life. There was no doubt she belonged with John. He was her soul mate. She knew Roman would be devastated by her decision; but she also knew she couldn’t live without John.

John lay with his eyes closed holding Marlena in his arms. He felt her move but didn’t want anything to disturb the moment. Slowly he opened his eyes. She was looking at him. He reached over, pulled her to him and kissed her lips as softly as he possibly could.

“Marlena, I love you.”

“I love you John.”

He pulled her closer to him. She nuzzled his neck with her mouth.

“Doc, we need to talk.” He hadn’t seen the marks on her body.

“I know,” she said. She continued to place soft kisses on his neck.

“Doc, if you don’t stop, I won’t be able to think straight.”

“I know.” Marlena rolled on top of him. She knew they needed to talk; but now was not the time. She wanted him to make love to her. She leaned over and kissed him.

The moment she rolled on top of him, all thoughts of talking left his head. He wanted nothing more than to make love to her. This time they would take it slow. John opened his mouth and captured her tongue with his. It was a long slow kiss. There was no sense of urgency this time. He could stay there and kiss her until the day he died. While continuing to kiss her, he rolled them over until she was on the bottom and he was on top. Reluctantly he pulled his mouth from hers and began to place soft, gentle kisses on her neck.

Marlena knew they would take their time. Neither one was in a hurry. They both wanted to take it slow. It had been a long time since they were able to make love at a leisurely pace.

John kissed his way down her neck to her breasts. Until he saw the bite marks he hadn’t realized how out of control he was. The thought that he could have hurt her brought tears to his eyes. John raised his head and looked at Marlena.

“Oh my God Doc. I’m so sorry.”

She knew what he was thinking, what he was feeling. She had to let him know she was fine; in fact she had never felt that free and alive in her life.

“John it’s ok.”

“No Doc, it’s not. I can’t believe I did that to you.” It hurt him to his very soul to know that he might have caused her any type of pain. John rolled off of Marlena, took the blanket and moved away from her. He sat with his back to her with his hands in head. He couldn’t bear to look at what he had done to her.

Marlena wrapped the sheet around her and went after him. She sat facing him. She put her hands on his face and raised it so she could see him.

“John, listen to me. What you and I have together is more powerful or passionate than I could ever have imagined. What you do to me, how you make me feel ….I don’t have the words to describe.”

John still shook his head. “Marlena I lost control. I could have hurt you. I did hurt you.”

“You’re wrong. You could never hurt me. Look in my eyes. Tell me what you see.”

John said nothing.

“I’ll tell you what you see. You see a woman who loves you with her heart, soul and especially her body.” Marlena stressed the words ‘her body’.

John gave her a slight smile.

“You see a woman who knows the man she loves could never/would never hurt her. She knows he would rather die than hurt her. John I have never felt more loved or alive in my life.”

The only word John could utter was, “Marlena.”

“John you once told me I could never lie to you. Do you remember that?”

He nodded in acknowledgement.

“We were at the Titan Ball and I told you Roman was on his way. You told me I could never lie to you while we were married and I couldn’t lie to you then. You were right. I want you to remember that.” She pulled herself closer to him. “John I have never experienced with anyone else the kind of passion I have with you. Every time we make love it’s always new and exciting. It just gets better each time.”

“Doc this wasn’t making love, this was something else.”

Marlena put her fingers on his lips to silence him. “Let me finish. Do you honestly think if I would have cried out in pain or told you to stop, you wouldn’t have heard me? Did you hear me cry out in pain or tell you to stop? No you didn’t. You are the most attentive lover I have ever known. What just happened between us was what I needed, what you needed. Remember, I came to you. You gave me what I wanted, the same way you always do. John a few weeks ago at the Titan Board Meeting you came to me.”

John couldn’t believe his ears. They had never discussed what happened between them on that day.

She continued, “You gave me your body for my pleasure. That day was about me. The minute you entered the bathroom, your only concern was what I needed. You let me use you and I did. I know I left a mark on your shoulder, scratch marks on chest and back. John you are the only man that has ever brought this side out of me. I didn’t know it existed until you. In the future there will be times we make love and it will be wonderful and hopefully there’ll be a lot more times like this one. I don’t know exactly what to call what we just did; I just know I loved every minute of it.”

John smiled and said, “There’s a word, you’re just too much of a lady to use it.” He continued, “So you mean you’re ok with what happened.”

She leaned in and placed a kiss on his lips. “Honey, I’m more than ok.”

John was just about to return her kiss when he suddenly pulled back with a look of astonishment on his face. “Did you just say in the future?”

Marlena smiled and said, “John when I came down the stairs I knew you were the only man for me. I told you earlier we belong together. I meant it.”

He opened the blanket wrapped around him and took her in his arms. “I love you Doc, always have; always will.”

She dropped the sheet to the floor and said, “Show me.”