The Him I Can't Have

Chapter Two

Chapter Two

Admiration

Admiring the real beauty of the nature is always worth it. It will leave you breathless by it's breathtaking sceneries. It will leave you wondering by the mysteriousness of what's in it. Nature calms my peace of mind, body, heart and soul.

I spread my arms and closed my eyes trying to feel the fresh air of nature. We are currently in my parent's private Beach Resort. I left my parents in the cottage who's preparing the foods. Now I'm here in this rock formation, sitting and admiring the place.

It's already Summer. Finally I'm already a Certified Public Accountant. My father is so proud that at last his dream for me finally came true. All the difficulties I've gone through is now worth it, I'm a c*m Laude in my course for crying out loud.

Also, it's been already two months after my first and last interaction with my sister since she came back from the States. I didn't bother to see her and vice versa. It's like she and her fiancée has a business that's need to be done in a very discrete manner. I shrugged my shoulders, maybe for a wedding.

I smirked at that thought.

"Dash"

I was pushed out of my reverie when i heard the voice of my mother. I turned around to face her. I frowned when i realized that something was up base on her facial expression.

"Something's wrong?" I asked mom.

"Your sister is here. I asked her to come over." She said. Her eyes are weighing to my possible reactions.

I take a sharp breath. "Okay. Just say hello for me" i said and looked away. As much as possible I'll avoid her gaze.

"Why not come with me and we'll both greet her?"

I know what she's up to and it's irritating. But i can't seem to fail my family who expects something from me.

I licked my lips and took another sharp breath before nodding. f**k. This is hard.

Together we walked towards the Cottage where i left them earlier while preparing the foods. I took out my wayfarers and wore it because the light of the sun is already blinding since it's facing the cottage.

I felt relieved when i saw that she's not with her fiancee. She's alone in the cottage because Dad is grilling a meat in a not so far distance from the cottage.

When we reach the cottage my sister instantly straightened up. "Hi Dash." She said happily. She's a real beauty. She had this oozing s*x appeal that made every man out there crave for just a touch from her.

"Hello." I said without any trace of any emotion and took a seat across her. I scanned her built. She grew a lot. She looks younger than me in my perception. Though she's older i can't seem to agree.

"I'll leave you two for a while to check on your dad." She smiled a the both of us and leaves. Silence filled between us for a moment. But she broke it first maybe because she couldn't stand the atmosphere.

"Dash since we're now alone and i want to take this opportunity to have talk with you..." She shifted on her seat feeling uncomfortable. "I just wanted to apologize for cutting all the ties for the remaining two years i spent in the States. It's not easy for me you know---"

"And it's not for me?" I spat with so much venom. I saw how her eyes watered.

"I didn't say that. I just wanted to tell you that my situation in that two years is bad as hell" She cried. "But i won't tell you what happened."

"I don't care." I can feel my eyes watered. I can also feel the anger starts to bubbles inside me. I stood up and remove my wayfarers. I wiped the tears that starts to shed while i look at the most important person i used to have ever since we we're little.

I just realize that we can't go back to the way we used to be cause everything has now changed. "I'm not ruthless. I'm not a brat. I'm not bad if you think of me that way. I'm still your sister. It's just that everything between you and me completely changed.

I ran to the rock formation where i sat earlier. I thought it would be better for me to be here but i was wrong. He's here. The very first man who made my heart go berserk. I cringed at myself. I just met him last two months and that's the first and the last time I saw him. But how come he managed to ruin the peacefulness of my feelings.

He's just there staring at me. He gives me a good chill that was sent through the back of my spine. He's wearing a Tee and a jeans matched with a sneakers. He can carry himself well. He looks painfully gorgeous.

"Why are you crying?" He growls. I can feel his aura. Dangerous. Mysterious. Intimidating. Dominating. And full of Authority.

I immediately wiped my tears and composed myself. "Nothing. Just go to your fiancée. She needs you. I need to be alone. Here." I stressed the last word to gave him a hint that i want him to leave. Pronto.

I saw how his perfectly angled jaw tensed. He looks rough and manly. And i like it. Damn! How i admire and adore this Greek god like man.

I stepped aside when he walks toward my direction. Probably leaving. Something inside me protests at the thought of him leaving for his someone special. But that's wrong. Very wrong.

I was shocked when he stopped near me. My heart is in rumble it can't seem to stop. He licks his lower lip and focus his penetrating gaze at me. I looked down because i can't stand his gaze but he held my chin that forces me look at him. The mere touch of him sent shivers down my spine.

I stared back at him and I'm back to admiring him. I'm speechless everytime i look at him. Every move he made demands authority.

He lets go of me after a seconds or two and murmured some curses before leaving.

I wonder if what i felt for the Nature while i admire it will also be the same if i admire something aside from it. My eyes probably reflects my feelings right now. I'm admiring something that's forbidden.

I will let myself to felt this admiration towards him but i shouldn't tolerate this if it goes beyond this, more and deeper than this.