The Him I Can't Have

Chapter One

Chapter One

Foreign Feeling

Stressed is maybe not a suitable word to describe my condition right now. It should be Depressed. How i want to end this remaining semester just so i could finally get my vacation.

I'm currently in my room scanning at my school works. I heaved a deep sigh as i stare at my Ledger. It's not balance, and it's frustrating. I need to start from the beginning again. My road to become a CPA is hard but i need to try hard. This is the dream of my father for me so i need to do my very best just so he'll not compare me to anyone, again.

I looked at the right side of my room wherein i can see my face in the Vanity Mirror. I look like s**t, damn it.

Just when I'm about to do my school works i heard a shout downstairs. My room is not soundproofed so i can hear all the noises outside my room. I rolled my eyes when my mother shouted my name.

I stood up and went to the door. I opened it and ran downstairs. When my feet finally touched our marbled floor i looked up and found four people but only two are looking at me which is my Father, and my mother. The other two people is a couple if I'm not mistaken. I can't see their faces cause they are so engaged in somewhat a secret conversation and they facing sideways. Well the way they look at each other like they were so drunk with each other can't stop me from concluding. I rolled my eyes at my thought.

My mom faked a cough probably because she noticed that i was staring shamelessly at the couple. I blinked my eyes a couple of times and look at my mother who just smiled at my action. At the corner of my eyes i saw how the couple parted with each other and put just enough space between them. I remained my stare at my mother who whispered something to My father which on the other hand was busy on his phone.

"Dash aren't you going to greet our visitors. Perhaps don't you miss you're sister?" My father's voice filled the house. "We'll leave for a while Dash and I'm hoping that you'll keep your sister and Hoax company" He said

I nooded unconscious of what he said. I'm not myself today. I look haggard because of not enough sleep.

"Good." My father said. He said something at the two visitors whom i didn't know and head out of the house together with my mother.

Wait... Did he just said sister? I frowned and looked at the two visitors again. My jaw dropped when i saw the girl whom i missed for almost 5 years. She's grinning from ear to ear while I'm stunned.

I didn't move, not one bit. I'm feeling mixed emotions. I'm happy because finally she's here. I feel sad, angry and betrayed because she blocked me in her life while she was in States for almost two years now. I hated the fact that she's happy blocking me in her life while I'm trying so hard to be included in her life.

I gave my sister a stare that is cold as ice and saw her a bit hurt at my reaction. "Welcome back Elle it's nice to see you again after a quiet long time" i stressed a word to give her a hint.

I looked at her companion and i felt like my eyeballs nearly popped out of my eyes when i saw how good looking the man my sister is with. He looked at my direction and our eyes met. My heart went berserk. Damn he's intimidating as hell. He had this piercing eyes that surely gave a fluttering feeling to all the woman he stared at just like me. Damn! His broad eyebrows is one of the features of his face you can't miss especially when he frowns. His manly nose that makes me want it to touched together with my nose. His shaped and red lips that made it kissable. I hate what i felt right now. It felt like the anger i felt for my sister is melting. Who is this man anyway? I didn't even know him. Damn it!

"He's Hoax Blaster Selvitelle. My fiancee." She said hesitantly. It seems like she's weighing my expressions.

I hate to admit it but something dropped inside me just by merely hearing what she said.

I looked at her but she just looked away. I fake a cough and without looking at him i said "Nice to meet you"

"Elle I'm sorry but i can't keep you and your fiancée company. I still have some important matters to do." I said giving her all my attention. I don't want to look at the man beside her even if i can see him at the corner of my eyes staring-no-more likely giving me dagger look.

I hate that I'm intimidated. s**t! I'm not like this around men. I'm into modeling and I've been with a bunch of hot guys so i cant stop wondering on why the hell I'm feeling this.

"It's okay. Dad is just like that." she said kindly as ever when it comes to me.

"Okay." I nodded at the both of them and ran upstairs towards my room. I locked it and support myself from falling. I closed my eyes and the fiancee of my sister popped in my head. My heart is in rumble and i don't know why. All i know is that i want the feeling but i know i shouldn't. f**k!