Violets Addiction

chapter 6

As he is walking towards me i walk fast up to him and run in his arms crying as he holds me i feel comfortable. It has been 8 and a half hours and this is the most safe i have felt and i know its wrong for feeling this way given the hatred Daniel had for Chris but like i needed to be held and told it was gonna be okay. I was hurting the pain was real and i have never felt this way before until now. His hands on my back were ao tight and he was so warm and my head on hiss buff chest cause he was taller than me. I life my head up and go sit down where two people can sit and he sits next to me and i put my head in his lap as he plays with my hair cause he knows it feels good to me. I fell asleep and i think that was his intention was to make me get some rest but i didnt want to sleep. I woke up an hour later and he was awake still and i lift my head up and i can still feel the dried tears on my face where i cried before i went to be.

I get up and stand as i look at Chris and i held my hand out and me and Chris walked into the room where Daniel was and can you believe it Chris let go of my hand and looked at me and i shook my head yes cause i knew what he wanted he wanted to say good bye to Daniel. I went and took a seat on the chair where was next to Daniels bed as i looked at Chris who looked scared and was trying to hold back the tears but i knew he wanted to cry so bad.

" Hey man, Its.... Its..Ugh Chris. i Came to apoligize for what i did to you i am so sorry for what i did to to you, i swear it wasnt me that day. I dont know what happened when i called you that cause the thing is i dont care that you were gay, it didnt bother me that you were diffrent cause i admired you being so open and honest about it. I could never of came out like you did even if i was Gay even though im completely straight all the way.. Haha... ( Clears his throat ) I am so sorry this happened to you dude and i wanna say i am sorry if i am the reason that you did this cause this was not my intention. Gosh im crying haha, But you were a really special person in my life i mean you were my girls best friend like no matter what i would be there for you if you needed it although i didnt show it that much i do mean it man. i am so sorry and i hope with all my heart that you make it through this for not only your loved ones but for you, If you were to give life another chance and just be careless man you can live so you have so many stories to tell, Just please for me and Violet and every body else please fight your hardest to get through this for us. we need you in our lives its not a good life without a Daniel coming in and making it crazy. Im not gonna say goodbye cause i am not giving up faith that you will fight through this im gonna say ill see you later cause i know that if you have belief there is a chance it just might come true so come on man. Ill see you later."

As Chris turned around i hugged him tightly, He sat on the bench by the window and asked me if i wanted to come sit with him to and i said no, i Layed next to Daniel and hugged him tight cause i needed to feel him before he left us for good or in case he left us for good. I fell asleep and the doctor came in the next morning and said that he wasnt making any improvments that he hasnt breathed on his own. We didnt have a long time before we had to let him go and then the doctor said that he just got information it is your call that we have a choice if we wanna keep him on the life support or let him go. I looked at Chris.

How do you make that decision? I asked biting my nails

DO you want me to be honest with you Ms.Violet?

Yes please do.

Look at him, He isnt suffering like he was when he came in here, obviously he wasnt happy cause he took a bunch of pills but sometimes when you love somebody the best thing to do is to let them go to live there life up in heaven until one day you go to heaven adn see him then yall can be together forever. You will even have so much to catch up on. I am not trying to be rude please let me know if what i say bothers you but just sometimes its best to let them go Ms.Violet.

No,No Thank you i really appreciate it. I looked at Chris.

If he isnt breathing by 24 hours then i guess i have to let him be happy and let him move on with his life.

Yess Ma'am. Yall should go get a bite while i check up on him okay?

That sounds great. Chris said

Okay. I said

As we were in the cafeteria i noticed a mixture of happy and a mixture of unhappy people. I guess this is what its like huh. People are here for not serious matters and some very serious matters.

Ill Never forget him. I said

Neither will i and if i have anything to do about it nobody will either. Chris said

I looked at him and smiled, He looked back and smiled back while stuffing his face with a pancake.

I missed you. Chris said a few moments later

Look Chris i need you, i need you to be here for me through this please dont leave me.

I would never leave you. Together or not my shoulder and ears are always here for you gorgeous.

Thank you but i dont want a relationship right now i just need a friend.

I am here for you babygirl, i promise.

What he said made me smile and blush a little bit so i looked down at my plate but he noticed anyway cause he giggled a little.