His name kept slipping from my lips as though I'd known him forever. I wanted to tell him to stop, yet at the same time, I wanted to ask for more. My thoughts were in complete disarray, and my body seemed to have a mind of its own, my hips instinctively moving with every gentle press before I even realized it. Even the thin layer of fabric between us couldn't keep the warmth of his touch from sending another shiver through me.
How could someone make me feel this way?
Colt's lips found their way back to mine. I welcomed his lips without a second thought. The kiss deepened, growing more urgent until I could no longer keep pace with him. Every breath I managed to draw came in shallow, uneven gasps, as though I were slowly drowning.
He shifted, lifting me with ease until I was sitting upright on his lap. "Let's take this thing off."
Before I could even process what he meant, his hands had already found the hem of my blouse. In one swift motion, he pulled it over my head. All I could do was instinctively raise my arms to help him. He tossed it somewhere without a second glance, neither of us paying any attention to where it landed.
Without any warning, his hands cupped my br**sts before he lowered his head and claimed them like a hungry beast. My head fell back as my fingers reflexively tangled in his hair, completely lost in the way his warm tongue lingered over my ni**les with slow, lavish kisses and gentle nibbles, giving each of them his undivided attention while his hands held me with just enough pressure to blur the line between pain and pleasure, as though he were worshiping every part of me.
This was my first time experiencing anything like this—perhaps the wildest thing I had ever done in my life. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I knew tomorrow would be filled with regret. but right now, all that mattered was the growing ache between us as we lay tangled together in the middle of the bed. My uncontrollable moans dissolved into the silence while his ragged breaths ghosted across my skin, leaving every nerve painfully aware of his touch.
My hands gripped his bare shoulders to steady myself as he continued worshiping my chest, and I didn't even realize he'd already taken off his shirt.
The room seemed to spin around me beneath the overwhelming rush of sensation. Every touch sent a tingling ache through my chest that spread deeper, leaving me trembling. His mouth slowly trailed upward to my shoulder before lingering at the curve of my neck. He nibbled gently along my jaw, then found his way back to my lips, never once breaking the spell he'd cast over me.
But somehow, in the middle of our passionate moment, I felt it.
My stomach churned violently, and something warm rose from the pit of my stomach to my throat. Panic instantly flooded my mind.
" Oh please... no."
It happened so fast that, no matter how much my body fought against it, all I could do was shove him away, breaking our heated kiss. Through the haze, I vaguely heard him ask what was wrong. His voice sounded distant, laced with confusion and concern, but I could barely focus on it.
I tried my best to hold it back, but I gagged once... then twice.
The next second, I threw up all over his bare chest.
He grabbed my arms and quickly pushed me away.
"f**k!"
That was the last thing I heard clearly.
My head spun violently, and my vision blurred until his face became nothing more than a hazy silhouette. His lips were moving, saying something I couldn't make out.
"I'm sorry..."
I wasn't even sure if the words had actually left my lips.
Then everything faded as darkness swallowed my vision.
*****
Ang dilim...
Pero bakit parang umiikot ang buong paligid?
Fragments of images flashed through my mind. They were blurry and hazy, disappearing before I could make sense of them. I caught a glimpse of myself surrounded by people, then another of me dancing. Another memory flickered by—I had a drink in my hand, laughing. The scene shifted again, and all I could see was the back of a man. Laughter echoed around us, but I couldn't understand what was happening. The image changed once more. It was the same man, but this time, he was kissing a girl.
Then...
“Colt.?”
“Colt... was kissing me!”
Bigla akong napamulat at napabalikwas ng bangon. "Ugh..."
Napapikit akong muli nang biglang kumirot nang matindi ang ulo ko. Napahawak ako sa noo habang tila umiikot pa rin ang buong paligid.
"Asan ako?"
Parang sasabog ang ulo ko sa sobrang sakit, pero pinilit ko pa ring imulat ang mga mata at inilibot ang tingin sa paligid. Bahagyang madilim ang silid, ngunit sapat pa rin ang liwanag upang maaninag ko ang moderno at minimalistang disenyo nito. Halatang mamahalin ang bawat kasangkapan, ngunit walang anumang labis o magarbong dekorasyon. Everything looked clean, elegant, and carefully arranged.
Sa tapat ng king-size bed ay isang floor-to-ceiling book-matched white marble feature wall na may banayad na kulay abong veining, na nagsisilbing eleganteng sentro ng silid. Sa kanang bahagi ng kuwarto ay natatakpan ng floor-to-ceiling dark gray blackout blinds ang malalawak na glass panels, habang ang kaliwang dingding, kung saan naroon ang solid walnut wood na pinto, ay pininturahan ng warm off-white na kulay na nagbibigay ng balanse sa moderno at minimalistang disenyo. Sa magkabilang gilid ng kama ay may makintab na walnut wooden side tables, each topped with a sleek bedside lamp. Ang maputing kisame naman ay may maliliit na recessed lights na nagbibigay ng banayad at warm na liwanag sa buong silid. Sa isang sulok ay may isang matangkad na indoor plant na nagbibigay ng kaunting buhay sa minimalist na interior, habang ang sahig ay yari sa malalaking matte light gray porcelain tiles na may malinis at seamless na disenyo. Sa paanan ng kama ay nakalatag ang isang malambot na light gray rug na nagdaragdag ng init at ginhawa sa kabuuang espasyo.
Bumaba ang tingin ko sa malambot na comforter, at doon ko lang napansing iba ang suot ko. Isang oversized black T-shirt. Bigla akong natigilan. Nanlalaki ang mga mata kong dahan-dahang napahawi sa comforter, at doon ko tuluyang napagtanto na bukod sa oversized black T-shirt, wala na akong ibang suot. Hubad ang mga binti ko.
“Sino ang nagbihis sa'kin!”,
“Think, Angel. Think!”
The last person I clearly remembered being with last night...
Colt!
"Ahhh!"
Para akong mababaliw habang sinasabunutan ko ang sarili kong buhok. Everything came rushing back.
The party.
The drinks.
The kiss...
At ang pinakanakakahiya sa lahat..., Sinukahan ko siya.
"Oh my God..."
"Ano'ng ginawa ko?!"
Mas lalo pang kumirot ang ulo ko. Naitakip ko ang dalawang palad sa mukha.
"Bakit? Bakit?!" “Why did I have to embarrass myself like that? What happened after that?”
“Did we...?”
"No! Hindi..”.
“Hindi pwede.”
Bigla akong napakapa sa sarili kong katawan. Nanginginig ang mga kamay kong dumampi sa aking mga hita bago ako napalunok at, halos pigil ang hininga, hinawakan ang perlas, ang aking tanging yaman. Wala akong maramdamang sakit.
“Walang hapdi.”
Walang kahit anong kakaibang discomfort. Napapikit ako at napahinga ng malalim. hindi pa rin nawawala ang kabog ng dibdib ko.
“Hindi talaga ko maalala...”
Kahit anong pilit kong balikan ang nangyari kagabi, the last thing I could clearly recall was throwing up on Colt.
"Ugh!"