The Secret that I Carried

Salang??

I can’t harbor these thoughts. that’s a dangerous way of thinking. to have this innocent woman come into my world; I can’t do that to her. My world is dangerous, filled with dangerous, shady people who do dangerous shady things. Those who will smile at you to your face with a finger on the trigger waiting for you to slip up. Assassinations, assassins, drug dealers, weapons dealers, and the like. Not to mention old generation Korean men, who still have the racist ideology of no mixing of races. “Keep the bloodlines strong and pure.” My father being the chief of them. Not to mention being the current leader of the Korean mafia. that's right, I am the heir to the Korean mafia throne, the son of the leader of the most dangerous and powerful underground network spanning to every town, city, province or hole in the wall you can think of. Even internationally, not as power across the Americas, but we were there. planted and growing. we have our hands in everything, from government offices to daycares and even a few churches. We are KINGS. Hence, the dragon tattoo, Korean history, teaches that kings descended from dragons. We were a modern-day kingdom, only more powerful. Spanning generations, although I would like to see things move into a more legal and positive societal norm, I am not too bothered about this way of life, I was born into it, I have been groomed and prepared for this from a young boy. My first kill was at 15 years old. It doesn’t bother me much, if at all.

I open the door to receive the food and it’s one of my men who is standing there, he must’ve taken the food from the delivery man. barely acknowledging him and not wanting him to even catch a glimpse of Amelia. I grab the food and slam the door hardly, noticing his respectful bow. I turn around and see Amelia sitting on the chair, softly panting in the exact same position she fell in. She's staring at me so intensely that I could almost see the thoughts running through her mind. I can’t remain here any longer. I can’t afford to. if I do, I’ll definitely lose this internal struggle with myself. I am already at the losing end. this woman just saw my self-control slip, and if she really wants to, it won’t take her much to make me lose control completely. She already holds so much power over me, and she doesn’t even know it. I better leave here before things get out of hand or I won’t leave till morning. My father already knows I am back in the country, there's no doubt about that, his intel is better than CIA and he will send his own men to come find me if I don’t go greet him soon. It’s too soon for him to know of my involvement with Amelia, and instead of a beautiful memory, she maybe used against me as a weakness “show no weakness, to anyone” I can still hear his voice in my head. He’s right. I don’t. not even to him. He can sometimes be controlling enough as it is. Too bad, I will not be controlled, not by him anyway. I place her food on the dining table and walk over to where she is on the couch. looking her dead on the eyes I say “Goodnight Amelia, welcome to South Korea, I hope you have a wonderful time here. See you very soon” I promise as I kiss her cheek and walk away to leave the apartment. she follows after me “Goodnight Yong.” (dragon) She says, calling me by my street name. She doesn’t know how true that name is. I bend to kiss her on the Cheek, breathing in deep to take in her intoxicating scent. I want to keep doing that, the thought runs rampant in my mind. I stand up, straighten my posture immediately turn around and walk out of the apartment.

Amelia’s POV

After Jae-hyuan and his guys left the apartment, I pull my suitcase open to get things ready to lounge in, order some food, and then call my girl Tia. I get my stuff ready, strip off all my clothes, but I don’t go shower directly. Instead, I begin doing a slow check of the apartment, walking around checking out the view from this floor, which is breathtaking and mesmerizing, I might add. I walk to the kitchen which is just off the living room, to get a drink of water. When I am done I begin my journey back to the room I have chosen as my own to take a shower. After only 5 or so steps, I hear this chiming sound coming from the direction of the door. Now, if any of the 50 jillion K Dramas I’ve watched is any indication, that means someone is entering the apartment. I stand frozen mid-step “The hell?!?” I think to myself, I’m standing here naked as the day I was born, an some unknown person is about to enter this b***h!?!??!! my metal pep talk begins "aight girl, calm down, just chill, be cool aight, just be cool, we not going out like no punk!! I ain’t even tryna run, ain't no way I’m going out with them big Ole tities flopping all over the damn place, liable to kill a sister before the intruder does?!?! hell nah!! If I can’t reach the kitchen for some kinda weapon, I’m going out looking out hella fine.” I think to myself as I stand and stare in the direction of the door.

I am pleasantly surprised, s**t, might as well be honest, I’m beyond releaved more like thrilled to see it’s Jae-hyuan who came back. I was already missing his voice and his presence. “did he forget something?” I wonder. Then, to my horror and a little bit of pleasure, I register that this Adonis is staring at me just the way my mama made me!!! I completely hide my panic and Stare at him to see his reaction. He stands there and swallows a very visible lump as if he had just grown the whole Sahara in his throat and mouth. He is standing so still, if I didn’t see this man walking in myself, I’d think he was standing there dead!! I inwardly roll my eyes at my inner musings, and refocus on the sexy man in front of me.

We stand there staring at each other For What feels like forever, but still not enough time. “I forgot to give you the keys” he deadpans as if he was not completely lost in thought. I say nothing and take slow measured steps towards him looking him straight in the eyes. When he suddenly through gritted teeth growls “Stop!! Don’t come any closer or I’ll not ask for forgiveness for what happens next.” It sounded as if that was the hardest most painful thing he has ever had to say to another person. I pause for a sec and just observe him, I could tell from the darkening of his eyes I had a profound effect on him and that he was very visibly turned on. then crossing my arms in front of me knowing that it would only extenuate my breast, I could hear the audible intake of breath from where is stood. Asking in the most ‘innocent’ voice I could muster “what’s the matter young dragon?” the name just seemed to fit him, “you look like you’re having a “hard” time over there.” I end my “question “ with a direct gaze at the more than obvious bulge of his d**k. “dayuuummm,” I think to myself “ friend looks like his packing!!” and I am more than tempted to find out. I bit my lower lip imagining all the exotic things I’d like to do, but I just met this man, and although my game talk is the size of the damn Washington state monument, I sure as hell ain’t ready for that walk. I’d like to get to know a person before I jump his bones, a girl’s gotta have a bottom line, no? I’m am tosses out of my mental musings when Jae hyuan suddenly takes a step towards me stalking me as if I were prey and he the hunter. Every step he took towards Me i took only a half a step back, cause a girl ain’t no punk and I was super invested in finding out what he would do if and when he did catch up to me. After all it’s not like I could keep walking back forever. ‘Flop’ I fall back into an arm chair with no where left to retreat, I hold his steady gaze an think to myself “s**t, what’s gonna happen now?” he leans in dangerously close to me, so close I can smell his strong masculine scent, that I just want to wrap myself in, when he says in a deep baritone voice “do not play with what you can’t handle, miss Amelia.” Before I get a chance to retort, the silence is shattered by the sound of the door bell. “ Right on time” Jae hyuan says, as he stands and straightens himself to go answer it. I let out a breath I didn’t even realize that I was holding in, glad for a break in the glaringly obvious charged s****l tension in the room, “boy whatever, can’t handle my ass” I sass in my head. “I got your number, boo!!” no I don’t at least not yet, cause girlfriend I was not ready for all that, but a girl can dream and plan for the future.

Lee Jae Hyuan rips the door open, and I swear it would have fallen off it's hinges!! He grabs the food from someone I can’t see, which I am quite sure was his intention. Not caring if he even broke the nose of the person handing him the food, he slams the door and turns back to me his intense gaze glaring at me as he places the food on the table.