my seeking dreams

Sick Game

Yes, yes am in, I said to my stupid father as I walked close to him by the fire side in his room. am proud of you son, he said with a wicked smile on his face. they was nothing I've ever wanted more than for this son of a b***h to tell me that he was proud of me, now instead of feeling good like I thought I would feel on the day he will tell me that, its the other way round, I feel disgusted at my self for joining his dirty schemes, I am so devastated right now, what have I got myself into; but truth be told, I honestly need him now more than ever even though I can't help my feel right now. am too young to depend on my self, I have dreams that I need his sponsorship for.

damn it that girl, I just can't get her off my head, I acted like a total jerk trying to save her today, o o my world whats up with me, every now and then all I think of is her, I really hate the fact that I would be betraying her trust in me, but what could I do, my lier lier devil dad has done it again, he changed the game for me, just before I could even start. tables turning pages flying its just over indulgent sober, how did I even get here.