Bad Boy's Secret

STUPID HEART

The thing about traumatic events is that people expect you to freak out. Like act crazy or jittery so they can comfort you or check you to an asylum which is probably what they were expecting me to do as I walked in the hallway on Monday morning. I was dressed in my super tight uniform, I had to loose the three top buttons on my shirt cause it was a little tight. I let my hair down, did a little make up which was my eyeliner, mascara and my cherry lip gloss. I was putting on a pair of ankle boot and I marched down the hallway with my head held high, refusing to think about the events that happened or the endless whispers that carried down the hall.

"Oh my God wasn't she the girl who was r***d?" Almost people, almost!

"Yeah the one Greg drugged and then beat her up" I winced at the memory as I shoved books inside my locker.

"What's she doing here? Isn't she supposed to be having therapy sessions" Trust me I would if I could afford the cash besides I already had my therapy session already, Raze! The way he took care of me, I could remember everything now. The way he held my hair up as I puked my guts out, how he cuddled me when I got cold and I also got a free T-shirt which I wore throughout the entire weekend while mom stared at me like I was insane but I didn't care. I wore it around the house with a big goofy grin on my face just like the one I'm stupidly wearing now as I picked up my English textbook.

Sheesh, girl get a grip of yourself!

"ZARA!" Oh God! I wasn't prepared for the hug Cassidy gave me which was a bone crushing one after she literally launched herself at me, but thanks to my strong bones I only stumbled a little and ended up supporting Cassidy after she wrapped her legs around me making us stuck in an awkward position.

"Good to see you Cass" I wheezed out, "But you might want to ease up before I black out."

"Oh my God, I'm so sorry" Cass sobbed on my shoulders while I rolled my eyes.

"Calm down it was not like I was r***d or anything."

"ALMOST!" Cassidy yelled at me, Sheesh so much for keeping it on the low, "But you okay right? I'm so sorry, Brody told me you were looking for me, it's all my fault, if I hadn't left.. If I...I.." She sniffed.

"Hey, hey, hey, Cassidy, look I'm fine, I swear, Raze got to me in time, I swear I'm fine" I said bending easing away to look at her.

"No s**t?"

"I s**t you not" I said laughing a little at the ability of her to cuss in situation like this.

"Hey Zee" Trevor said coming up to I and Cassidy who was back to hugging me.

I looked up at him only to see he was gazing anywhere but me.

"I heard about what happened" He said looking down at his airforce, "I'm..im glad you are okay."

Taking a deep breath, I released Cassidy and went over to Trevor and hugged him tightly. I could tell my action surprised him cause it took him a minute before he could return the hug.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" He sobbed on my shoulders, aw poor Trevor.

"Aw, I'm gonna cry too" Cassidy sniffed as she came over and hugged us making me sandwiched between the both of them.

"Um Cass ease up" I wheezed again. Cassidy might be skinny but I swear she's as strong as a rhino.

"Yeah b***h you messing up my shirt" Trevor shot at her.

"Quit your whiny ass, I'm so happy I feel like kissing y'all's faces" Cassidy said sniffing my hair.

"Please don't" Trevor and I said at the same time and we all laughed at ourselves.

***

Okay, you've got this Z, you've got this. It's Raze, you just have to walk up to him, thank him and then show him the schedule for the tutoring sessions, it's no biggie.

Uh, I'm not sure that's a good idea, I had a conversation with myself as I stared with Raze who was having lunch with his friends, thankfully without the girls.

Girl, you got this, he is just a boy...

Yeah right, just a boy like anything about Raze is boyish.

Pull yourself together, Zara, it's no big deal, besides you guys bonded during the small time at the party.

Yeah bonded, more like puked my guts out which by the way is embarrassing. I muse as I stared over to Raze table where he was laughing with his friends. Aw f**k it, I marched towards the table and stood in front of Raze and the look on his face says he wants nothing to do with me, so much for bonding time.

"Hey Raze" Wow my voice is steady, "Um, I came here to say thank you" I said while he stared at me with a blank look, oh Kay.

"I really appreciate your help, you saved me and for that I'm really grateful" I tried again and I still got nothing, damn how can his face be devoid of any emotion?

Because he's a cold hearted bastard, "Anyway, I came here to tell you I am your assigned tutor."

"Shame, I thought you came here to kneel and suck my c**k?" Those were the words that fell out from the bastard lips while his friends howled with laughter.

"Okay what is wrong with you? Why are you so cold? I don't get you Raze, you act like you care..."

Slamming the table hard, Raze stood up so fast and he was in front of me in an instant, "Go away Zara."

"You can't just tell me to go away..."

"Oh my God are you dumb or something? Look around you, no one wants you here, you just some poor kid from the wrong side of the country that was given a scholarship, and just because you wear our uniforms doesn't mean you are one of us" Raze continued not caring the tears were already falling down my face.

"Raze" I heard Ryan say to him.

"No one wants you just go away from here, Zara or things will start getting a lot worse, and we all know how your body reacts to drugs" Raze said coming close to stand to close to me, "Like a needy slut" He said in my ears but it was loud everyone to hear cause the dinning room and gone silent.

Without thinking about my actions I raised my hand and slapped him across his face hard. If I thought the room was silent before then it's as silent as a graveyard now but I didn't care.

"f**k you" I said as the tears streamed down my face and I ran out blindly out of the room to the girls toilet where let everything pour and started crying. Oh my God, I'm so stupid, so stupid.

The bell rang and I collected myself and washed my face then rushed to the classroom where I slammed into someone causing me to land ungracefully on my butt.

"I'm so sorry, I wasn't looking" I heard a deep voice and I looked up to see the owner.

Holy Micheal B Jordan. A mixed black guy stood in front of me, curly hair, thick perfectly arched eyebrows and long eyelashes to frame his gray eyes with the most charming smile on his lips.

"Are you okay?" f**k me he's got a British accent too, Lord have mercy.

"Jesus Christ, man is this going to keep happening all day?" He asked running his hands through his hair clearly frustrated, "Seriously guys this trick is getting old, throwing yourself on the new guy, I'm sick of it already" He finished and that seemed to snap me out of my reverie.

"Excuse you?" I said picking myself up from the ground cause obviously I wouldn't be getting any help from the cocky British cute guy, "I believed you slammed into me, considering I was the one on the ground."

"Hardly" He said shooting me a look that says 'Bullshit.'

The nerve! "Okay listen here Cockyton" I said while he scoffed, "I have got a shitty day and I don't need you adding to the list, and I'd purposely not slam into you because that would be low and besides you are a cocky self entitled rich brat just like the students of the school and I'd like you all to leave me alone, got it?" I said then walked beside him and slammed my shoulder with his as Ieft.

I got into the class where Mr Kruger was teaching us History. "Mrs Mcall, you are late." He said looking at me sternly.

"She was probably in the toilet getting off" Serena said causing the rest of the class to hoot with laughter.

"That's enough" Mr Kruger chastised as I walked and took my seat.

"Hey Zara, you okay?" I heard Trevor ask. He's probably heard what happened

"Yeah, I'm fine" I sniffed and brought out my books.

The door bust open and the Principal Millie came in with cockyton. What's going on?

"Hello class" She greeted while we greeted back, "This here is your new student and he's going to be joining you, let's make him feel welcome" She said while the girls started making room for him, Yup, she doesn't need to worry about him feeling welcomed, I muse dryly as I stared at the girls.

"Holy Micheal B Jordan" Trevor whispered in my ears causing me to let out a laugh.

"Something you want to share Zara?" Principal Millie asked.

"No ma'm" I muttered and I caught cockyton smirking at me, bastard.

"Okay Dave, I will leave you to it" Principal Millie said then left the class while cockyton stood in front of the class to introduce himself.

"Hello my name is Christian Wayne" Shame, I liked cockyton better.

"s**t, he's the principal's son" Trevor whispered to me.

"Say what now?" I stared at Christian in disbelief.

"Yeah, but damn is he handsome" Trevor said but I didn't pay attention to any of it I just stared at Christian warily not listening to what he's saying.

"Okay you can have your seat and Zara you are his guide and that includes tutoring him till he meets up with the rest of the class" Mr Kruger announced.

"Wait, what? I don't want too" I protested.

"And I didn't want to be a lecturer and teach bunch of dumb witted spoilt brat but we don't always get what we want now do we?" Mr Kruger snapped at me and started writing on the board dismissing me.

I glared daggers at Christian as he took his seat beside me while he just smiled that cocky smile of his. I hate this guy already.

We finished history and I rushed to pack my books inside my bag so I could avoid Christian but like Mr Kruger said we don't always get what we want.

"So you are Zara, well we've not officially met, I'm Christian" He said putting on a charming smile that would work on most girls.

"I still prefer Cockyton, thank you very much" I said as I shouldered my bag and left the classroom with Christian on my heels.

"Look Zara, I'm sorry I know I was a jerk..."

"Asshole is more like it" I cut him off.

"Asshole, jerk, doucheface, and whatever horrible names you can think off to call me doesn't matter, I'm just so sorry, I shouldn't have behaved like that" Christian apologized earnestly which made me stop to turn to look at him.

"You are right, you shouldn't have" I said shooting him a glare.

"I know, what do I have to do to make you believe me?" He asked while I sighed.

"Oh never mind that, I will tutor to you, meet me tomorrow at the library during break" I said shrugging and watched as Christian's face lit up like a Christmas tree.

"Sure, I will be there, friends?" He asked smiling that cute smile again.

"Oh we'll see about that" I said not bothering to wait for him and went out of the school only to find my mom laughing like a school girl at something a student was telling her.

"Hey mom" I greeted as I walked to where she was only to find out the student who was making her laugh is Raze.

What the?

"Hey honey" She greeted back.

"Um mom, can we go now?" I asked nervously as I shot a sideways glance at Raze who was looking at me with a smirk on his face and I immediately averted my gaze from his.

"Oh honey, don't be rude, I'm chatting with this fine young gentleman right here" Mom said smiling brightly at Raze who flashed her a bright smile.

"Fine young gentleman my ass" I muttered as I eyed Raze.

"What was that honey?" My mom asked.

"Nothing, let's go" I said quickly and opened the door then I got inside shoving my backpack at the backseat.

"I'm sorry, I don't know what's gotten into her..." My mom started apologizing to Raze and that made me so angry.

"MOM!" I yelled at her through the window.

"Jesus Christ Zara!" My mom said with an exasperated sigh and she gave Raze one last apology before she got inside the car, finally!

I put on my seat belt and my mom did the same then she started the car, "Bye love" My mom called out to Raze and I almost gagged in my seat at the term of endearment she used for Raze.

Bye love? The hell did she think she was? And if anything love and Raze just don't mix, his heart is as black as coal and I don't think he will ever know what love is even if they gave him a map with directions on it, I muse as I stared at him from the window and he winked at me then as he smirked and waggled his fingers at me.

I quickly averted my gaze away from his because what the hell is going on? I could feel my throat getting dry and my face was getting hot all of a sudden. Just that small gesture Raze did and my heart was pounding at how handsome he was, stupid heart! I chastised myself.

"What the hell was that?" My mom asked as we began the drive home.

"What the hell was what?" I asked as I c****d my eye brows up at her.

"You were being rude and I didn't raise you like that" My mom said using her disappointing tone.

"I was rude? Really? Me?" I asked in disbelief.

"Yes you! And quit answering my questions back with questions" My mom snapped at me.

"Are you kidding me mom? Do you even know who that is?" I asked still looking at her in disbelief, I just can't believe she will take the side of a guy she has known for five minutes over her daughter who she has known for seventeen years.

"Of course Raze Winchester, oh my God he's so hot" My mom gushed and I eyed her in horror.

"First of all ew second of all that's the Raze Winchester who is making my life a living hell in school" I informed my mom hoping she would get it.

"Oh really?" My mom asked narrowing her eyes and I smiled, yes she was finally getting it.

"Yeah that's the one" I said relaxing back on the chair as I folded my arms.

"Well good for you" My mom said as we pulled into our driveway and she killed the engine and got our of the car.

"Wait, what?" I yelled in disbelief as I grabbed my bag and got out of the car.

"Boys make girls life miserable because they like them" My mom said as she unlocked the door, "Man you are so lucky, you landed yourself a hundred percent hunk of a man" My mom said as she she sighed dreamily and I looked at her in disbelief.

"What kinda sick twisted logic is that?" I asked in horror.

"No logic, now go wash up and prepare yourself for dinner" My mom ordered dismissing me.

"But..." I started to say but my mom cut me off.

"Oh my sweet beautiful Zara" My mom said as she came over and framed my face in her hands, "My perfect little girl, you will understand when you are older" My mom said as she looked into my eyes.

Well, I'm almost eighteen, almost legal and I still don't understand s**t, I wanted to say but instead I just nodded my head at my mom and I watched as her face transformed into a smile.

"That's my girl" My mom said placing a smacking kiss on my cheek, "Now go freshen up, I'm making a mean fried rice with chicken today" my mom said and I laughed at her.

"Yeah, we should celebrate, I'm so glad your grandmother is out of the house" My mom said a bright smile on her face.

My sophisticated grandmother had decided she couldn't stay here anymore, apparently the house was too low maintenance for her and honestly I wasn't even hurt she insulted our house on the contrary I was so happy the house wasn't up to her taste. So she moved to some five star hotel with promise to check on me before she leaves and I'm not even bothered about that, I just like having my space, just me and my mom.

I went up the stairs and freshened up and then I came downstairs to help my mom with the food, and when we were done we sat down to eat with her telling me about her day and how she was sourcing for new jobs and I encouraged her and we were having a good time when my mind suddenly flashed back to Raze.

He was a bigger jerk to me today, he had called me a slut after saving me. Honestly Raze was so confusing, he had threatened me not to speak his name ever again and not to approach me but he had saved me from Gregory and he had taken me home and treated me and he brought me home.

I decided to show my appreciation and apparently I was a slut just got doing that and I promised myself I was going to leave him alone but today he approached my mom and charmed her turning her into one of his fan girls, I don't know what motive he has for approaching my mom but I swear to God, I'm done and I will never let him get to me and that's another promise I'm making to myself and one I'm going to keep!