In Love With My Best Friend

Chapter 4: Changing Fate

"What... What is it?" I asked, my voice rising just a notch.

There was this pull in the back of my mind, urging me to try my very hardest to discover everything.

Yet, I rolled my eyes in annoyance, not really paying attention to it.

Why does walking away from this have to be so difficult? I wish there was a way I could without hurting him. I wondered, my head leaning forward, as if the words he didn't say hung in the air.

Right when a daunting thought passed my mind, I felt my wolf glaring at me.

What does she want? Why is she staring at me like that? I pondered, transporting myself from the outer world, to the werewolf world.

I needed to know what was she doing. But, she spoke first, quelling my thoughts.

"Grrr! That's enough, Sasha!" Ana growled causing me to clench my fists angrily.

It wasn't like her to act like that, yet she did. But, as I pondered over everything, nothing came to mind.

"What are you talking about? I'm not doing anything." I responded, disdain fueling my raging heart.

I didn't understand what she was talking about because my mind was doing it all by itself.

"Sasha, stop doing that! You will regret it if you continue ranting like that!" She continued, bringing me back to the present.

I must remain calm despite my heart beating rapidly. This whole situation has made my life alot harder. I thought, placing a hand on my chest.

"Don't think about it! It probably wasn't anything to worry about." I whispered, in hopes of preventing myself from saying the unforgettable.

However, it was no use. It only urged my thoughts to rampage in my mind.

Which in turn stopped me from seeing the reality of the situation.

Meanwhile, a warm breath wrapped itself around me, causing my nostrils to flare for just a second.

And the world around me started spinning as it wafted deeper into my nose.

What's that smell? Why do I feel like it's close to me? Is there something I'm missing? This scent wasn't there before, so why now? I pondered turning my face left, and then right.

Suddenly, my wolf interrupted me.

"That's our mate! How can you not tell by his smell?" She hollered in my brain, which caused me to start fuming.

Mate! He's not! He can't be! Hell I've never thought that my own male friend, Adam, could in turn be my mate! I wondered, balling my fists, unable to understand what it all meant.

But, Ana stuck to her guns, not going to back down.

Despite the realization that my life was about to be turned upside down, I knew there was nothing to do but accept it for what it is.

Adam gripped my shoulder, leaning closer to my ear, his breath sending a tingling sensation throughout my body once again.

"I... I am in love with you!" He declared gleefully, and my jaw dropped in shock.

As the seconds passed, my heart began palpitating in my chest, and a horde of emotions to run around in my mind.

He's what!? Adam can't be in love with me! Doesn't he have a mate? I wondered, as what he said lingered in the air, and my hands to become clammy.

It was as though everything about my life changed that instant. Yet, I still clung onto a hope that it would go back to the way it was before I was forced to leave his father's pack lands.

But nothing was there except for my wolf, who was walking back and forth in my mind.

This... It's all too much! How dare she leave me at a time like this! I screamed internally, trying to gain a bit of confidence. Yet, without my mother here, it was not enough for me.

So, I stood there quietly, not saying a word, and Ana became antsy.

Why did the Moon Goddess have to treat me this way? Why did I have to be mates with my own best friend, although I'm not upset about it. it's just a lot to take in. I pondered, my heart palpitating inside my chest with each breath I took.

Then, I heard her stern voice in the back of my mind, causing me to abruptly face her, and the look on her face said it all.

"Sasha, say something! Don't stand there all quiet!" Ana, spoke in my mind, urging me to speak.

What do I say? Is my heart enough for him? Or am I going to risk getting hurt? I wondered, my mind racing over every possibility. But, nothing stuck, which wasn't helping at all.

Before I could say something, a gulp escaped my lips.

I was ready to tell him, but a seed of doubt crept into my mind, stopping from going further.

However, there was also a bit of hope roaming my brain, something that I didn't want to lose.

So, I straightened my back, and looked him in the eye, and said the only thing that came to mind.

"I don't know what to say." I stuttered, taking in his every word.

Although I wasn't sure of what to do in this situation I stood taller, facing Adam.

And a look of concern flashing across my eyes.

I'm done. He's not going to find out what I'm hiding from him. I thought, a decision flitting across my mind.

I had to get out of there, so I could come to terms with everything that happened.

Before I could say something, I turned on my heels and ran.

With every pad of my feet hitting the grass, a longing snaked its way into my heart, not willing to let go.

I couldn't do it. I couldn't tell him the truth, because what if he betrayed me! Or what if it was a ploy to hurt me? I wondered, as the scent of freshly made meat wafted through my nose, breaking me from my thoughts.