I woke up gasping for air and pouring sweat. I looked at the clock that read 0500. Ryan propped himself up on his shoulder half awake. "another dream?" "another nightmare" I said flatly. I didn't want to get into it. This one had been different than the others. Whereas before I was in the middle of the chaos, this time it was like I was watching it all from the outside. Watching the people I love and the only family I had be murdered. Beta John and Emily were even in my dream and I watched them be murdered. I tried to get to them, clawing my way to where they were but it was as if some force that I couldn't see or feel was holding me stationary. I leaned over and kissed Ryan on the cheek before standing. "I think im going to grab breakfast at the packhouse" Ryan grabbed my ha

