INTREPID

GRADUATION

Mike's POV

I have been a bit confused about my feelings for Zoe ever since we visited my family, but I will clear things with her today.I have missed her and I know that I hurt her,I have a lot of explaining to do to her.My parents are coming,I am sure they will ask to see her,they are really fond of her.I moved out of campus mainly to avoid Zoe but I had also some work at the company that needed my attention and my apartment was ready to move in, so I just moved in sooner.I have been so busy at work and writing exams,I feel drained, but after today I will cross school out of my schedule ,which is a lot better.

I reached early so that I could catch Zoe before it was time to go to the auditorium. I met the guys before I reached her room,they looked handsome in their suits,I just know they will be a lot of drinking after this and I want to join them,I have been too stressed for the past few weeks.Alcohol might just be exactly what I need,but not too much,I have to be in the office tomorrow morning.

I reached her door, I can even imagine how beautiful she is looking right now. My girl is graduating, and I can't wait to give her the present I have prepared for her. I knocked on the door,Grace came out, if looks could kill,I would have died.I thought we passed the attitude stage.Hey,may I come in,I would like to talk to Zoe,she just looked at me and went back inside.I was puzzled by her behaviour, then she came back with a paper in her hands with my name on it.I hope it's not what I am thinking ,I could not even open it at first, I was too scared.She gave me a sharp stare,right before she slammed the door at me.I stood in the corner and heaved a loud sign before I unfolded the paper,It was a letter addressed to me.

Dear Mike,

If you are reading this letter,it means you have come looking for me.I wish I was there in person to give you a round of applause for your performance. You are in a wrong profession,try acting,because you are great at it.I am sure,you would win many awards for the best actor.I have missed my graduation,thanks to you,for leaving me alone without an explanation.I do not blame you though,I blame myself for thinking dreams come true.I bit more than I could chew.I gave you everything like a fool but thank you for reminding me that, dreams are meant for sleeping and wishes do not come true.Thank you for breaking me even more than I have been and making me live through my worst nightmare,you did a great job.If all you wanted was to have me,congratulations for achieving your goal.I have to go home and I hope you and I never meet in this life.From this moment on,you and I do not know each other.I hope you can turn your life around and be more compassionate towards other people and just so you know,

I HATE YOU.

Goodbye Mike,I hope to never see you again.

Zoe.

'Nooo,' I screamed in agony,feeling immense pain in my chest as I crumpled the paper in my hands.'No,' I shouted again,tears brimmed from my eyes as I hit my fist on the wall. What have I done? I should have been there for her,I was selfish, I did not think for a second about how she was taking this whole thing, and I ghosted her.She did nothing wrong,I wish I realized this earlier,she needed me and I run away from her.I pray she can forgive me and I promise I will find her and explain everything that I was actually scared of what I felt for her.I thought if I loved her more than I already did,I will die if we break up.I didn't want to feel how I felt after the passing of Emily,I was broken and it was so hard to learn to live without my sister.I wanted Zoe's world to begin and end with me.My love for her feels strange,obsessive and if I told her how I felt,I could have scared her.But I did not tell her and now she is gone,I don't know how, but I will stop at nothing to find my Zoe.

The graduation ceremony went by so fast,I had to explain to my parents that something came up Zoe had to go home.I also lied that I am developing eye problem because of how red and puffy my eyes were from crying.I am so glad no one saw me when I knelt down and cried like a child.Zoe completes me,she can't leave me alone even if I know I messed up bad.She has missed her own graduation because of me,she deserved to hear her name being called,she worked so hard for it and I ruined it for her in just few weeks.I will never forgive myself for hurting you my love,where ever you are.What hurts the most is hearing "I hate you" in my head on repeat even if I deserve it.I vow to do anything in this life to get her to forgive me and I will give everything I have to find her.

See you soon,my love.