INTREPID

EMILY'S MEMORY

MIKE POV

My sisters memorial went smoothly like always,I think at this time we can agree as a family that none of us will get over her death.My sister was little when she was found with neuroblastoma, a cancer commonly found in children. It is found in the glands on top of the kidneys (adrenal glands).It can develop in the stomach, chest,neck,pelvis, and bones.I don't know much about it but all I know is that, this cancer took my innocent sister away from me,she had her whole life ahead of her but couldn't live it.Not only did her death leave us with the pain of loosing her, but it torn the entire family apart.My parents are on separation and I know the reason they haven't divorced is that,they still love each other, they just do not have an idea of how to deal with my sisters passing.

Having zoe here has helped the whole lot even though I know she is uncomfortable, and I am sure it brought out feelings and memories of her grandmothers passing, but I couldn't leave her in school alone.I think we are getting better because we talked about my sisters memories with Zoe and my parents looked like a couple in a long time.I hope they work things out,they need each other.

Zoe was sleeping in my sisters room,and I was hesitant to go and see her before bed,I hadn't entered my sisters room in a long time.Seeing her there painted a different picture of that room and am glad she was not creeped out by the fact that, her things were still there because my mother only changed the beddings everything was exactly as she left them.I wanted to tell Zoe that my parents asked if we could stay until the break is over.It could be a good idea and I think we all need this because my parents do not just have separate houses but leave in different cities.My Mother moved out but my Father stayed behind.I think they have been visiting each other a lot lately but they have no idea that I am aware of it so I will just play their game,I pray they find happiness again.

zoe and I stayed up almost the whole night talking.She asked about Emily, and I gladly shared with her wonderful memories about my sister, and she told me a lot about her late grandmother. I did not even realize I fell asleep in my sisters room like I used to when she was alive.I woke up and saw that Zoe was sleeping peacefully, so I quietly untangle myself from her and went to get some coffee.

I was getting coffee when I saw my parents sited outside sharing stories, which I am sure is about their patients.It was a pretty good picture because I haven't seen them smile at each other in many years.I think they feel ashamed that, despite the fact that they are doctors they couldn't catch on my sisters condition until it was late.They are both obsessed with their work and it ruined what they had for each other.Not until they work on that issue,they will not stay together again.

My sister and I grew up in the hands of nannies because our parents were busy saving the world.It got even worse when my mother joined the cancer research team,sometimes she could even sleep at the hospital and dad would get furious as if he was any better.Between the three of us I am the only one who knew my sister and how special she was.I was upset with them for a long time,i thought they could have saved her but no one could have prevented it from happening besides , I don't want them to live with that guilt,knowing my sister, she would want us to be happy all the time.

Since the memorial is over,I want to take zoe out to see the whole place, and maybe we can even go have lunch at my favourite spot.I want her to have a good time plus I want her to be my girl.I can't believe I want to date,who knew? sometimes, I even surprise myself.zoe is a wonderful girl and the only man I want to be near her, is only me.I will ask her today even though I don't know how to do it ,she is a smart girl it's better I prepare myself incase of questions.I have never asked any girl to me mine,they just come to me,not that am bragging it's the truth.But my charm means nothing to a girl like her, so here goes nothing. I would rather be rejected than not confessing how I feel,I mean I don't want to be Chris Brown and sing i should have kissed you,I should have told you,told you how I feel.Wish me luck.