The sun had risen fully by the time Jacob finally left the hospital. Exhaustion weighed on him, each step a struggle. He knew that Ella was stable, and her parents were with her, but leaving her side still felt wrong. He wanted to be there when she woke up, to see those green eyes open again, but he also knew he needed to rest—if only for a little while. The drive back to his house was almost a blur, the winding roads familiar but distant, like he was moving on autopilot.
As he pulled up to the modest house that had been his home for the past eight years, Jacob let out a long sigh. His house sat on the edge of the family ranch, separated from the main house where his parents lived. It was quiet here, a stark contrast to the sterile, bustling atmosphere of the hospital. He sat in his truck for a moment, staring at the front porch. The door of the main house opened before he even had a chance to gather himself, and his mother, Betty, stepped outside, walking across the yard towards him, her face etched with worry. She wrapped a cardigan around herself, the chill of the morning air still lingering.
"Jacob," she called softly, her eyes narrowing as she watched him climb out of the truck. She could see the exhaustion in his eyes, and it worried her. His shift at the Sheriff's Office had been extended due to the accident, and he hadn't had a moment's rest. She knew there was more weighing on him, but she didn't ask. Not yet.
"Hey, Mom," Jacob said, his voice weary. He forced a small smile as he walked up the steps. Betty reached out, pulling him into a hug before he could protest. He sank into her embrace, closing his eyes as the tension began to ease, if only slightly.
"You look exhausted, Jacob," Betty said, her voice muffled against his shoulder. She pulled back just enough to look at him, her hands still resting on his arms. She didn't know what had happened, but she could sense the weight he was carrying.
Jacob swallowed, forcing a smile. "I'm okay, Mom. It was a long night. Thank you for looking after Nell again."
Betty nodded, her lips pressed into a thin line. "You need some rest, Jacob. Come inside. Let me make you and Nell some breakfast."
Jacob hesitated, his eyes drifting back to the house. He thought about his daughter, Nell, and how much she meant to him. She was his world, the one constant that kept him going. The thought of losing her made his stomach twist painfully. It brought everything with Ella into sharper focus, making the fear even more overwhelming. He clenched his jaw, trying to push the thought away.
Jacob took a deep breath and nodded, allowing his mother to guide him inside. As they walked, Jacob felt the weight of his emotions pressing down on him. The crisp morning air and the sound of gravel crunching under their feet felt almost surreal. They reached the front door, and Jacob could hear the faint sound of laughter coming from the kitchen.
Inside, the warmth of the house enveloped him, and he was greeted by the sight of Nell sitting at the kitchen table with his father, Hank. Her face lit up with a bright smile as she played with her toy. "Daddy!" she called out, her eyes sparkling at the sight of him. Jacob forced a smile, leaning down to kiss her forehead. "Morning, sweetheart," he said, his voice soft but full of love.
Hank looked up from his coffee, nodding at his son. "Long night, huh? I heard there was a major accident on the highway. Truck swerved to miss an animal—Markus was pretty shaken up. Everything alright?" he asked, unaware of who was involved, just trying to have their usual conversation after a shift.
Jacob swallowed, keeping his expression steady. "Yeah, just a long night," he replied, his voice even, not giving away the turmoil inside. "The road cleanup was extensive, though. Took a while to get everything cleared." He tried to keep his response simple, avoiding giving away too much, especially with Nell sitting right there."
Betty motioned for him to sit down. "You need to eat something, Jacob. You and Nell both," she said, her tone leaving no room for argument. Jacob hesitated for a moment, the weight of everything pressing down on him. He sank into the chair, trying to mask his exhaustion. He forced a cheerful tone as he spoke to Nell, "What do you want for breakfast, princess?"
Nell giggled, pointing at the pancakes Betty had already set on the table. "Pancakes, Daddy!" she exclaimed, her excitement infectious.
Betty watched them, her heart aching for her son. He needed a woman to come home to, someone to share the burdens he carried, someone who could help lighten the weight on his shoulders. She turned back to the stove, busying herself with the eggs, trying to keep the atmosphere light for Nell's sake.
"I spoke to Louise yesterday, Jacob. She said Ella is coming home this weekend," she said with a smile, cracking eggs into the skillet.
Jacob glanced up at his mother, and she could see the exhaustion in his eyes despite the smile he gave Nell. "Is she? It's been a while," he said, trying to hide his reaction.
Betty tried to keep the conversation going, sensing her son's unease. "I heard she's been doing well in Seattle. Must be busy there."
Jacob nodded absently, then slipped, his voice betraying a hint of emotion. "Yeah, she's a doctor now."
Betty looked up, surprised. "A doctor? How do you know that?"
Jacob quickly regained his composure. "Jonathan mentioned it a while back," he said, trying to make it sound casual. He pushed the thoughts of Ella aside, determined not to let his daughter see his pain.
Jacob looked down at the plate in front of him—the sight of the food making his stomach clench. He smiled at Nell, who was already digging into her pancakes, and he picked up his fork. The weight of the conversation about Ella was pressing on him, and he needed some air, a moment to clear his mind. He stood up abruptly, giving Nell a gentle smile. "I'll be back in a bit, princess. I just need to get some fresh air," he said. Betty looked at him, surprised but understanding, as he moved towards the door, stepping outside to let the morning air wash over him, needing space from the memories and emotions that were threatening to overwhelm him.
Jacob returned to the kitchen, taking a deep breath. He looked at his mother, his exhaustion evident. "Mom, I really need to get some sleep. Can you watch Nell for a bit longer? I have work to catch up on at the office later this afternoon." He paused, his voice cracking slightly, as he tried to make it sound casual. But Betty could sense there was more behind his request. Deep down, she knew he needed to get away for his own sanity.
"Sure, Jacob," Betty said, giving him a knowing look. "Get some rest. We'll be here when you need us."
"I'm going to rest a bit, pumpkin," Jacob said gently to his daughter, dropping down and scooping her into his arms. He hugged her tightly, pressing a soft kiss on her forehead. "You be good for Grandma, okay?"
Nell wrapped her little arms around his neck, holding on as if she never wanted to let go. "Okay, Daddy," she replied, her voice full of innocence and warmth. Jacob held her close for a moment longer, feeling the love and trust radiating from his daughter. She was his world, the one reason he needed to keep it together. She was everything to him, his anchor in all the chaos.
Betty stepped forward, resting a hand on his shoulder. "Get some sleep, Jacob. We'll be fine here. Just focus on taking care of yourself."
Jacob nodded, his eyes meeting his mother's, gratitude shining through the exhaustion. He turned and headed back to his house. The walk across the yard felt longer than usual, the exhaustion making every step heavier. As soon as he stepped inside, the weight he had been carrying all day seemed to double. He sank onto the edge of the couch, his hands resting on his knees as the quietness of the house closed in around him.
The fear, the exhaustion, and the overwhelming sense of helplessness finally broke through as Jacob stepped into the bathroom, stripping off his clothes, his body feeling heavy with fatigue. He turned on the shower, the hot water cascading down his back, and leaned against the cool tiles. The steam enveloped him, but it couldn't wash away the turmoil inside. Slowly, the tears began to fall—first quietly, then in heavy, silent waves, the hot water mingling with his own emotions. He buried his face in his hands, his shoulders shaking as he allowed himself to cry, all the emotions he had tried so hard to keep at bay pouring out of him. The sound of the water drowned out his sobs, giving him the privacy to let his guard down, the vulnerability he had been holding back finally released in the solitude of the shower.
After what felt like an eternity, the tears slowed, and he took a shuddering breath, wiping his face with the back of his hand and washing the water over him as he ran his hand through his dark wet hair. He knew he couldn't afford to fall apart—not for long. He needed to be there for Nell, for Ella, for his family. Slowly, he dragged himself out of the bathroom, his body feeling heavy with exhaustion. He pulled on a pair of loose grey sweatpants, barely able to keep his eyes open, and made his way to the bedroom. The bed seemed to call to him, and he sank onto it, the cool sheets providing some comfort. As he lay back, the weight of everything began to blur at the edges of his mind, exhaustion finally winning out. He drifted into a restless sleep, haunted by fragments of memories and worries that seemed to swirl around him in the darkness.
Later that day, Jacob found himself sitting in his office at the station, trying to concentrate on the computer screen in front of him as he worked on the accident reports from the night before. The events of the past day weighed heavily on him. He thought about the road cleanup—it had been extensive, taking longer than anticipated due to the severity of the collision. The reminder of the accident was a stark reflection of how vulnerable life could be. He struggled to balance his responsibilities as deputy sheriff with the turmoil of seeing Ella hurt. Every line of the report reminded him
Later that day, Jacob found himself sitting in his office at the station, trying to concentrate on the computer screen in front of him as he worked on the accident reports from the night before. The events of the past day weighed heavily on him. He struggled to balance his responsibilities as deputy sheriff with the turmoil of seeing Ella hurt. Every line of the report reminded him of the reality he faced—the vulnerability of those he loved. It was hard to stay focused, the images of Ella constantly intruding on his thoughts, shaking his confidence and resolve. The events of the past day weighed heavily on him. He sank back into his chair, his hands resting on his desk as he stared blankly at the wall. The office was too quiet without the usual day-to-day bustle, and it gave him too much time to think. Images of Ella, broken and bleeding, kept flashing through his mind, and he clenched his jaw, trying to push them away.
He had always prided himself on being strong, on staying calm under pressure, but the fear of losing her had shaken him to his core. The sight of her in that car, so fragile and helpless—it terrified him in a way nothing else ever had. He ran a hand over his face, feeling the exhaustion settle deep in his bones. He was scared—scared that she might never wake up, scared that if she did, she wouldn't want to stay.
Jacob leaned back, resting his head against the chair, and closed his eyes. He remembered the way Ella used to laugh, how her smile could light up even the darkest of days. He thought of the life they might have had if things had gone differently, if she hadn’t needed to leave, if he had been brave enough to ask her to stay. But he knew he couldn’t dwell on what-ifs. All that mattered now was that she was here, and he maybe had a chance.
A soft knock on the door pulled him from his thoughts. It was his mother, standing at the doorway, her eyes filled with concern. "Jacob, you need to get some rest. You look exhausted," she said gently, stepping inside. "I brought you some leftovers—I knew you wouldn't have had dinner—and wanted to let you know Nell is asleep in the main house. That girl could sleep through a tornado," she added with a small chuckle, her laughter breaking the tense silence. "Would you like me to heat it up for you before I head back? she asked, her voice warm and caring, just as she always did after a long day.
Jacob looked at his mother, his exhaustion evident. 'I just... I need her to be okay, Mom,' he whispered, his voice breaking with emotion.
His mother crossed the room, placing a comforting hand on his shoulder. 'Jacob, are you worried about Nell? Of course she's okay, sweetheart. You always worry too much,' she said gently, her voice filled with warmth and concern. He shook his head, his eyes filled with unshed tears. 'No, Mom... it's not Nell,' he whispered, his voice trembling. His mother looked at him, momentarily taken aback, her eyes widening with fear. 'Then who, Jacob? Who are you so afraid for?'
Jacob took a shaky breath, his voice almost a whisper. 'That accident, Mom. Out on the main highway... it was Ella. She was in the wreck.' His words seemed to hang in the air, heavy with fear and pain.
Betty gasped, her hand flying to her mouth as tears welled in her eyes. 'Oh, my dear God... Ella?' she whispered, her voice breaking. "Why didn't you tell us this morning?' she asked, her words barely audible through her tears.
Jacob swallowed hard, his voice cracking. 'They say she’s stable, but it’s bad, Mom. She’s hurt... really hurt.' the weight of everything he felt pressing down on him. 'I didn't want to break down in front of Nell,' he admitted, his voice barely a whisper. 'I didn't even cry when Joy passed away... but this... I can't hold it together, Mom.' Betty's heart ached for the girl she had always hoped would come back to them, and now she was here—broken and fighting for her life.
She’s strong, Jacob,' Betty said, her voice gentle. 'You need to be strong for her too. She needs you now.' She pulled back slightly, cupping his face. 'We’ll get through this as a family. She’s going to need you when she wakes up, and you’ll be there for her, just like always.'
Betty took a deep breath, wiping away her freely spilling tears. 'Now I’ll take care of Nell, don’t you worry about that. We’ll keep things normal for her. And I'll make a casserole or maybe a pie for Tom and Louise—they could use some comfort too, bless their hearts. You know how it is; nothing says 'I'm here for you' like a home-cooked meal,' she said, her voice cracking but with a hint of determination.
Jacob looked up at her, the flicker of hope still there. He knew he had to believe that Ella would pull through, that she would wake up, and maybe, just maybe, this time she would stay. For now, he would wait—as long as it took. 'Thanks, Mom,' he said quietly, pulling her into a hug. She hugged him tightly before letting go, her eyes filled with love and concern. 'Goodbye, sweetheart. Get some rest.'
Jacob watched as his mother left the room, the door closing softly behind her. He sank back into his chair, a heavy sigh escaping his lips. He couldn't help but feel the burden of everything weighing him down—the worry, the exhaustion, the fear. But he also knew that he wasn't alone. His mother, his father, Nell, and even Ella—they were all counting on him in their own ways.
He looked at the photograph on his desk, the one of him and Ella when they were teenagers, full of smiles and promise. People would sometimes joke that she was 'the one that got away' whenever they saw it alongside the picture of him and Nell. No one ever mentioned the absence of Joy in the photos, but they didn't realize the complexity of his feelings. It was a reminder of the hope he still held onto, a symbol of everything they once had and everything he still wished for. He found himself glancing at it often, especially during moments like these, when the weight of the present seemed unbearable. It was his anchor—a reminder of what was worth fighting for. He traced the frame with his finger, a small smile tugging at his lips she actaully came home . He had waited this long, and he could wait a little longer. He just needed her to fight, to wake up, to come back to him.
His phone buzzed on the desk, breaking his reverie. Jacob picked it up and saw a message from one of his deputies, letting him know they had wrapped up the accident investigation. He sighed again, the weight of his responsibilities not lessened, but somehow more manageable now. He had a job to do, and a family to be there for.
He stood up, slipping the phone into his pocket. He had to keep moving, one step at a time. For Ella, for Nell, for himself. As he stepped out of his office, a sense of determination settled within him. It wasn't going to be easy, but he wasn't about to give up. Not now—not with Ella back home.
Jacob walked out of the station, the late afternoon sun casting long shadows across the yard. He paused for a moment, taking in a deep breath of the crisp air. He had no idea what the future held, but he knew one thing—he would face it head-on, no matter what came his way.