Secrets

Chapter five

Tamani is the first one to leave and go back to his room. When I go to his room later that night, I go to ask what's going on, but stop because he's packing all his stuff.

"What are you doing"?

For once he actually looks scared, never in all this time I have known him has he ever looked scared and that makes me really scared.

"I'm packing to go to wonderland, and you should be as well, if we are going to get to wonderland on time".

Wait, what? I can't go to wonderland!

"Tamani, I can't go to wonderland, this is my home and Dimitri isn't in the state for travelling. Plus, who will look after them"?

Now I'm quite sure that I'm coming up with excuses, but how can I not with a mad man out there trying to kill us?

"Yes, Tiana is coming with us because she is also a wonderland creature. Your mum and dad wanted to protect you from valentine. You see valentine is part devil fairy, witch and vampire. The thing is, your father wasn't really your father, he was only a witch. So yeah, you can figure the rest out yourself".

Valentine is my real father? The evil king of wonderland? This can't be right; he must be joking. He must be. But his expression doesn't change, I guess it's not a joke after all.

"So, does that mean Dimitri is my half-brother, or valentine his father as well"?

He doesn't answer straight away, but I can see his mind ticking away.

"I don't know, I assume valentine is his father because you both have the same birthdate and your both the same age. I would say yes, valentine is his father as well".

I have to get out as fast as I can, my mind can't handle all of this at once. It's too much. My bedroom door slams shut as I make my way to the joint bathroom that Dimitri and I share, making sure all doors are locked so that nobody can enter my room. I start packing my things, while thinking. Why didn't mum tell me that Arturo wasn't my real father? Why did she never tell us that we were from wonderland? Why did no one ever tell Tiana? I guess we will never find out, because none of them are here to tell us and I doubt that Tiana would know.

My only hope now is Valentine, and I don't think Tamani's going to let me go if he finds out what I'm up to and Tiana can hear what I am thinking, so that is going to make things even more difficult on my end.

We make our way to London after spending hours in a car with nothing but silence. The London bridge is our entrance into wonderland. The thing I want to know though, is how we get into wonderland? There is only a bridge here.

"how do we actually get into wonderland Tam, there doesn't look like there is anything here except for a bridge"?

"we get to wonderland by the train of lost thoughts".

The train of lost thoughts? Is he serious?

"What do you mean, ride the train of lost thoughts"?

There is a bit of silence as it's only Tamani and I awake, Dimitri and Tiana have passed out from the ride here.

"I mean, we have to get on the train of lost thoughts. Then when the train stops at the looking glass mirror, we get off and go through the mirror. Do you get it now, little miss"?

It does make somewhat more sense, but the more I hear about wonderland, the more confusing it gets.

I really want to talk to Tamani but have no clue where to start. I want to talk about what happened this morning but don't know what to expect, so instead we just small talk.

"So, what are we going to do once we get into wonderland"?

He smiles that funny smile and says,

"that is not the question you wish to ask, the question you wish to ask is a little more personal. I suggest you ask or go to sleep".

I do want to ask, more than anything. It's been gnawing at me all day.

"What happened this morning between us, how do you feel and what did you feel, because I need to know. It's driving me crazy not knowing"?

For once he actually looks like he doesn't know what to say.

"What happened this morning is that we kissed, and I feel that I love you no matter what  and I feel like flying, but now I want to know how you felt. My turn, how did you feel, I really need to know as well. I want to know where we go from here"?

Ugh, I've been wanting to hear those words since the first day I laid eyes on him and now that he has finally said them, I feel like my chest is about to explode.