Misty Blue Alpha

what should I do

Amara p.o.v

I was so mad but not at him at the audacity of this female I mean I understand that you can be jealous sometimes but you are coming to my life and trying to mess my life up it's not that serious I mean he cute but do I really want to waste my time trying to make him fall in love when he don't even know what love is it's hard but I'm going to try we have a child together and we need to raise him as such but the next female to come around here talking about a baby belong to him I'm packing my stuff I know you like you just said she's going to try to make it work but I don't understand if I can do that see because I'm not going to ever be nobody second choice or I'm not going to be with somebody because they want me because I have a child if you really want to be with me then he going to have to show me prove it because if you don't he won't have me we can co- parent he said I'm his Luna but I don't feel that away he say you love me he said he want to make it work he said she wasn't nothing but a fling he said that was when he was younger he said that was when he was in his early twenties but aren't you still in your early twenties and then you run around here thinking like I supposed to be Smiling after she disrespected me he must have lost his damn mind why is it so hard for us women to let everything go see we mess with these men thinking that we supposed to get a place or a name or a title but at the end of the day we get treated like garbage and then a man be like but baby it was just a one-night stand it really didn't mean nothing she don't mean nothing tell everybody how you feeling somebody said the same thing about you bet you wouldn't like it you hollering about this then the other but you still don't come up and apologize to me you around here soaking talking about baby it was back then it's my past but what if one of my ex-boyfriends came and and told you get our kid wasn't yours I'll be labeled as a hoe wouldn't I be looking at me turn their nose up at me because I had to pass before you even though he is yours if the shoes was on the other foot how would you deal with it how can you be with me if I was out there whoring in the streets I'll be everything but my god-given name but it's wrong for us to say that y'all wrong we all do stuff out of your knowledge right now and I think it was child brain but y'all think with your other head I can even look at him when he walked in the room I just sat there and stared for a minute with my son and my lap I didn't know whether to cry or walk away I was completely confused oh I love him a lot but it's me getting my heart broken multiple times for me to be with this man is that okay because I think it's not

" Baby let explain"

" explain what Aiden"

"look bae I know you're mad but I swear it wasn't nothing and I also knew her child wasn't mine how do I got to prove this to you that I only love you "

" by leaving get out until you understand why I'm so pissed leave sleep on the couch"

" okay I can do that but please don't stay mad at me too long I'll hate us to go to sleep mad"

" boy bye"

Aiden pov

as I took all my stuff to go sleep on the couch up in my office I stopped to think about it for a second and what she meant and how she felt and now I see why she so mad or I see why she feel played but that was before her I didn't mean to break nobody's heart I didn't mean for it to come out the way I didn't mean for it to go away I was just having fun I never knew it'll come back and bite me but it did and now I don't know if I can keep my girl because Ashanti wasn't the only one there's a whole lot of them up in the bushes but I just have to deal with what's coming but to think about it if the shoes on the other feet and I was in her place I will know what to do what I stay or would I leave I really don't know with everything in me I need to show her I love her I want her and our son I want a family with her if I want to marry her I want to be with forever I want to give her everything that her heart desires I want to show her that because of what I was I'm not him no more yes I wasn't Playboy yes I did stupid stuff yes I tried to cover my own ass yes I was dumb but do that make me love for any less no so what am I supposed to do how am I supposed to show her I love her how am I supposed to show her I love her when all I do is hurt her