Diary of Secrets (bxbxbxb)

Chapter 10

Sebastian's P.O.V

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"Cockblocks" Dakota muttered as soon as Jace darted upstairs. Damon burst out laughing grabbing Dakota by the shoulder and locking his head in a headlock.

"Couldn't letcha get too carried away" He said giving Dakota a noogie. Dakota flailed his arms and fought to get out of his hold but to no avail, Damon is such a strong man. 

"While you two hash it out, I'll go talk to him" I said with clear amusement in my voice as Dakota continues to try and get out of Damon's hold. I snuck by them and went up the stairs. I knocked softly on Jace and Dakota's bedroom door. 

"Jace, can I come in?" I asked and strained my ears to make sure I heard a reply before walking in. I want to respect his choice of seeing me or not.

"Yeah" I heard him say very quietly. I opened the door and closed it behind me. He was up on his bed under the blanket. 

"Will you come down to talk to me, please?" I asked softly. There was a moment of silence that filled the air, probably him debating on what he should say or do. I don't want to push him to talk if he doesn't want to. Eventually the blanket flew off of him and he sighed as he got up and began his climb down. I sat down on Dakota's bed and patted the spot next to me. He slowly came over and sat down, fiddling the hem of his shirt with his fingers. I noticed he does that when he is nervous. 

"I know about you guys" he said quietly, shocking me because I didn't think he was going to say something first. 

"I know" I simply said and his head snapped up to meet my eyes. "How?" he asked shocked.

"Okay, don't get mad but Dakota found your diary-"

"f**k!" he exclaimed covering his crimson turning face with his hands. "I am so stupid, why did I even think that was a smart idea" he started to cry.

"Shhhh, don't say that about yourself Jace.....please don't cry Jay" I wrapped an arm around him cautiously, and he leaned into me so I wrapped my other arm around him to bring him closer "It's okay, well I mean it's not for obvious reasons, but he found out something we could've only dreamed of" I said soothingly. 

"It's embarrassing..." he muffled out "wait, what do you mean?" he asked leaning away a little to look up at me with his watery eyes. I smiled and took my hands and brought them up to his face and wiped away the wetness on his cheeks with my thumbs. I searched for the right words to figure out the best way to tell him.

"We love you Jace" I finally started "We wanted you to join us for so long now, but first off, we didn't know you were even gay" he nodded in understanding. "Secondly, we obviously didn't know that you'd...you know...well be into the whole brother thing...it's obviously not...natural" I said getting stuck with my words with a blush. He chuckled and it made me smile, I hate seeing him sad. I pulled him back into me with one arm and he leaned his head against my shoulder.

"When I found out, I didn't think you guys would be interested in me" He quietly admitted. 

"It's hard not to be, you're too adorable" I nudged him with my shoulder. He blushed and smiled. It was silent for a couple minutes. I just cherished the peace and quiet with him leaning against me.

"So what now?" he asked breaking the silence.

 "Whatever you want love" He smiled at the name I called him "We will go with whatever pace you're comfortable with, I know Dakota was a little forward with his motives" I added

"I didn't mind it" he said quietly blushing and biting his lip. I chuckled and lifted his chin with the knuckle of my index finger  "Alright, but you set the pace and if you're not comfortable, let us know" 

"Thank you for coming to talk to me, I don't know if I would've if Damon, much less if Dakota tried to" He admitted. "You're easier to talk to about this kind of stuff"

 "Anytime Jay" I smiled, his beautiful brown eyes captivating mine. 

"C-can I kiss you?" he asked shyly. I let out a small chuckle "Of course you can, my love" He blushed as I brought his face closer with the knuckle I had under his chin. He hesitated a little before letting out a breath, closing his eyes and the distance between us. I let my eyes fall shut, at the feeling of his lips soft against mine. I remembered Dakota saying he's never kissed someone, well besides Dakota now, so I kept the kiss slow and sweet. Our lips moving in sync for a few minutes before he pulled away slowly, a blush still evident on his face. 

"Do you have work or class today?" he asked looking into my eyes "Unfortunately, I have a shift in about an hour" He frowned a little

"Tomorrow I have off of both" I told him.

 "If it's okay...can I spend time with each of you individually before hopping right into everything with everyone?" he asked unsure while fiddling with his shirt again. 

"Of course! I told you, it's your pace Jay" he smiled up at me "I'll make sure to talk to the other two to make sure they are on the same page"

"Thank you" he leaned up and kissed my cheek. "Cute" I cooed and he laughed.

 "Okay, I do have to go get ready for work, are you alright now?" he nodded "Good, I'll see you later tonight then" I got up and went to leave the room.

"Bash?" I hummed and turned to look at him "I love you"

I smiled "I love you Jace" then I proceeded to open the door and leave room, shutting it behind me. I jumped when I seen Damon and Dakota waiting outside the door on the opposite wall. I glared at them and ushered them to go into my room. 

"Nosey much" I stated after closing my door. 

"We couldn't really hear anything, you guys talked too soft" Dakota shrugged. I flicked his forehead "Ow! what was that for?" he asked and I flicked Damon's forehead too. Unlike Dakota, he didn't react. 

"Don't try to eavesdrop" I stated as I went to find clothes for work. "Anyway, I talked to him and told him we've wanted him to join for awhile now and that we love him" I paused trying to find socks in my clean clothes basket. I really need to put my clothes away, Jace is probably the only clean and organized one of us all. 

"And?" They both said impatiently.

 I rolled my eyes "And he told me he would like to spend individual time with each of us before jumping head first into all of this" I gestured between us three to get my point across "I told him we would go at his pace and if he's not comfortable with something, he'd let us know" They both nodded. Then I looked to Dakota.

"I said you were a bit forward but apparently he didn't mind that" he smirked in response.

 "I'm irresistible" he said cockily. 

"Do you need more time in a headlock" Damon lightly threatened and Dakota's eyes widened with a quick 'no'. I laughed and started to change into my work clothes. 

"Do you have class or work Damon?" He shook his head and I pouted a little and he came over and kissed my lips. 

"Don't worry Seb, I'm sure Dakota wouldn't mind a ride to class today" He said as he tucked a strand of hair behind my ear. 

"He's not as good of a singer as you" I teased eyeing Dakota in my peripheral and his jaw dropped

"Rude" he retorted and I just laughed "I'm only teasing, get your butt ready, we have to leave in 15 minutes" 

"Aye aye cap'n" he saluted me walking out of my room. 

"And you" I poked Damon's chest " Behave, especially no daddy stuff yet, he's embarrassed enough that Dakota read his diary in the first place" 

"I wouldn't dream of embarrassing him more love" he said, his fingers looping into the waistband of my pants pulling me against him "You can trust me" he said as he kissed up my neck. I hummed with satisfaction but then groaned remembering I have to go to work. I cupped Damon's face and kissed his lips fiercely before pulling away.

"I have to get my lunch ready" and now it was his turn to groan. I laughed and pulled away heading to my door with him in tow. 

Dakota's P.O.V

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I made my way to Jace and I's bedroom and slowly opened the door to peek in. He was up in his bed writing, in what I assume was his diary. He looked up at me then darted his face back down. I let out a sigh. 

"I'm sorry Jacey" I said genuinely. I wasn't expecting a reply back, but I still hoped for one. I frowned when my ears were met with only the sound of his pen against the paper. I got to get going so, I hurried and gathered some clothing and went into the bathroom to change and make myself presentable. I spritzed some of my cologne on and walked out of the bathroom to gather my bookbag. I took one last glance up at Jace and to my surprise he was looking at me. "I don't expect you to forgive me for invading your privacy, but I am sorry for doing it, it was very selfish of me" I told him honestly. It was very selfish, just because I read that paragraph I continued to read it. I was just too curious. He just sat in bed watching me. Silence. Ugh, I hate when he's mad at me. 

"Dakota! Let's go!" I heard Sebastian yell from downstairs. 

"I'm coming!" I yelled back "Have a good day Jacey" I told him at one last attempt of getting a response from him. 

Nothing.

 I internally groaned. I deserve it but f**k, it sucks. I walked to the door and walked out quickly, running down the stairs. 

"Not talking to you?" Damon questioned when he seen my frown. 

"Nope" I shook my head 

"Aww, give him some time babes" Sebastian pinched my cheek, I swat his hand away "Yeah, yeah..I know" 

"Okay let's go" Sebastian says then goes and pecks Damon on the lips before walking to the door. I follow suit leaning up and giving Damon a peck as well. 

"Have a good day boys!" Damon calls to us as we walk out of the door.

Damon's P.O.V

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After Sebastian and Dakota left, I cleaned up the dining room and kitchen of the Styrofoam containers and the forks. After everything was cleaned up, I headed down to the basement in our little workout room. I turned the radio on and took off my shirt and hopped on to the treadmill. 

I started with a slow jog at first but worked my way up to a steady run. I began to sweat and noticed I forgot a water bottle. I let out a curse before stopping the treadmill. I hurried up the steps to the fridge for a cold bottle of water. I twisted it open and downed it in less than a minute. I wiped my mouth and put the empty bottle in the recycling. I heard footsteps and I looked over at Jace walking into the kitchen. 

"Hey Jace" I offered him a smile. 

"Hey Damon" he smiled back "I was wondering if you'd want to watch a movie with me?" he fiddled with his shirt. He's so cute when he's nervous. 

"I would love to, I'm just gonna finish my workout downstairs and then I'll shower before we do, okay?" he nodded and walked out of the kitchen into the living room. I quickly ran downstairs to finish my workout. I disregarded going back on the treadmill, I went and did some leg presses and then did some reps with hand weights. After 20 minutes, I trotted up the steps and made my way to the living room.

"Going to go up into the shower now, Jace" I informed him when he looked over his shoulder to me.

"Okay, do you want to pick a movie or can I?" he asked me with the remote in his hands. 

"You can pick whatever" I smiled at him and ran up the steps. I entered my room and found some sweats, boxers and a muscle shirt to wear after my shower. I made my way to my en suite and started the shower, I stretched my muscles before stripping out of my sweaty shorts. I hopped in the shower when it was at the right temperature. I washed my body and hair thoroughly before turning the water off and stepping out. I grabbed a towel out of the cabinet and dried my myself off. I changed into my fresh clothes and then put my deodorant on and spritzed a smidge of my cologne on. I like to smell good all the time. Then again, who doesn't? I walked out of the bathroom, out of my room and down the stairs. 

I plopped down on the other end of the sofa with an arm stretched across the back of it. Jace pressed play on whatever movie he picked and in my peripheral I could see him eyeing me. I looked over at him and he bit his lip, I jerked my head at him in a way to tell him to come here. He blushed and scooted over, curling into my side. I brought my arm down from the back of the sofa to hold him, I heard him inhale and sigh contently. I smirked, he didn't think I noticed but I know he did that in the movie theater too. Makes me happy that he relaxes by smelling me. Sounds weird but I get it. I kissed the top of his head and began to watch 'John Wick' with the comfort of sweet little Jace in my arms.