Diary of Secrets (bxbxbxb)

Chapter 21

Jace's P.O.V

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We spent the day in the water playing with the football, playing chicken and seeing who can hold their breath the longest. Damon ordered pizza for lunch so that was yummy. 

Currently, The sun is setting so Damon and Sebastian are setting up the logs for the fire. Dakota and I haven't really talked since this morning. We've both been kind of avoiding each other. He went to the grocery store to grab hot dogs and buns so we can roast them in the fire for dinner. I'm sitting with Tanner and Charlie on the chairs surrounding the fire pit.

"Are you sure you guys don't need any help?" Tanner asked as Damon was trying to build a teepee with the logs.

"Nah, we got it.... Well, do you guys have matches?" Sebastian asked. Tanner dug in his s'mores bag and grabbed out some matches and offered them to Bash. "Thank you" Sebastian gave a smile.

"No problem...So how old are you guys?" Tanner looked at me then my brothers.

"I'm 17, about to be 18 in June" I told him.

"We're 23" Damon answered for both him and Sebastian "And Dakota's gonna be 19 next month" 

"Cool, cool...We just turned 18" Charlie slung an arm around his brothers shoulders.

"Oh, so you guys are twins!" I exclaimed happily knowing I suspected correctly. Though it's not hard to tell when they look alike like that. They laughed and nodded their heads.

"Yeah, can tell us apart by our eyes" Charlie said pointing at his light blue eyes. I nodded.

"Damon and Sebastian are twins too, obviously fraternal" I gestured to the two men lighting the fire and blowing on it to produce a bigger flame.

"Would've never guessed" Tanner commented observing the twins. 

"So, Jace" Charlie turned his body toward me "Are you gay?" he asked. If I had water in my mouth, I probably would've done a spit take. The twins eyed him as he awaited my answer. Tanner scoffed and hit his brother in the stomach.

"You don't just ask that Charlie, what is wrong with you. I apologize for his lack of filtration" Tanner exasperated

""Uh...uhm yeah I am" I said nervously as my shyness started to come on. 

"He answered, no biggie Tan....So, are you seeing anyone?" he gave me a charming smile.

"I am actually" I said proudly and I seen the smirks on the twins faces as they turned away to adjust their chairs. Charlie frowned at my response.

"Aww poo, figures though with a cutie like you" he winked at me. Then a throat cleared and I turned and seen Dakota behind me holding some plastic bags. 

"I got some precooked brats and chips too in case anyone wanted more than just hot dogs" He said as he sat in the open chair between Sebastian and me. He started pulling out telescopic roasting forks, the hotdogs, brats, buns and chips. 

"I can grab the condiments" I said getting out of my seat and heading into the kitchen from the patio. 

"Can't avoid him forever" Sebastian's voice appeared and startled me, making me clench my chest with one hand. "Sorry" he softly said coming behind me as I opened the fridge grabbing the mustard, ketchup and relish. I seen some pickles so I decided to grab those too.  

"I'm not avoiding him, but now isn't the time to have a chat with him. We have guests" I drawled turning around with my hands full. He plucked the pickles and ketchup out my hands so he could carry them out.

"This feels like deja vu" Sebastian chuckled.

"Well if he would stop doing/saying stupid shit...I wouldn't get mad at him" I rolled my eyes with a smile. I love Dakota to death, but he does some stupid stuff. 

" I wouldn't exactly say it was stupid, he just got a little jealous" he replied and I gave him a pointed look. "Okay, a lot jealous" 

"But he should trust me. Do you trust me?" I questioned.

"Of course" he replied with no hesitation.

"Okay, so should he then" I gave a curt nod in finality while opening the patio door. "Will you grab that little table from next to the couch so we have something to put this stuff on? I can take back the ketchup and pickles" I asked Sebastian as he shut the door.

"I got it, don't worry" He said as he picked the small side table up with one hand while holding the two items in his other arm. We went back to our seats and set the table down by the bricks that surrounded the fire. We each got a roasting fork and chose the meats we were going to roast and we had a chat filled dinner. Tanner and Charlie asked what college I was looking into, then they told me they were both attending Florida State University. Which sounds nice, the sunny weather would be so wonderful to be around all year. After eating our hot dogs and brats we started making s'mores. Tanner and Charlie brought reese's cups and cookies and creme hershey bars. We all gave them a questioning look and they laughed.

"You have to try it before you knock it" Tanner said handing me a piece of the cookies and creme bar and a reese's cup. I roasted two marshmallows and prepared my graham crackers. I placed the candy on one side of the crackers and when I was satisfied with my roasted mallows, I placed one on each and made the sandwiches. I tasted the reese's cup one first and it wasn't bad, the peanut butter was a nice additive to the s'more. I gave a thumbs up and tried the next one. It was very sweet but not bad. I gave another thumbs up, then my brothers tried each combo.

"I personally like the original s'more still" Sebastian said as he finished his. 

"I liked the reese's one" Damon said and Dakota and I agreed with an 'uh huh'. 

The sky was now dark and the moon and stars were shining above us. It was silent, a comfortable silence, as we all sat back just enjoying the crackling of the fire. The glow of the flames illuminating the front's of our bodies. I leaned my head on the palm of my hand and subtly glanced at Damon who was across from me, I just took a minute to appreciate my eldest brother. He's so strong, and can come across as a rough and intimidating guy but he's caring and nice with the ones he loves. I brought my eyes over to Sebastian. He's shown me so much love and compassion ever since I became apart of this circle, I mean he did before but not like how he is now. He really is a big teddy bear. Then there's Dakota, my eyes landed on his solemn face. The glow of the fire makes his hair look particularly fiery. Much like his mood. He's a wild card, he can be a goof ball, loving and then serious. I already knew this but I just have to say that I am completely and utterly in love with all three of them. Dakota must've felt my gaze because his eyes left the fire and met mine. We held our stare for a minute before I turned back to the fire.  

"It's getting late, so Charlie and I are gonna get heading back" Tanner said and stood up, stretching. Charlie followed suit and grabbed their bags.

"It was fun hanging with you guys today, see you tomorrow?" Tanner asked and we all nodded.

"See you guys" Charlie said and they turned and started to walk to their house hut. We all voiced our goodbyes. 

"I'm gonna head in, I'm tired" I yawned and stretched in my seat.

"Alright, we'll make sure the fire goes out, goodnight Jay" Sebastian said. 

"Night, I love you guys" I head inside and into the green and yellow room where my duffel bag was. I got out jammies and a pair of boxers before making my way into the bathroom. I turned the shower head on to wait for the right temperature before I shimmy out of my swim trunks and tshirt. I step in and close the curtain, relaxing instantly as the warm water cascades over my body. I scrub my body and rinse before getting out and doing my other nightly routines. After I'm done in the bathroom I hung up the wet trunks on the tubs edge before I head back to the room and Dakota was heading out of room. I guess we are sharing a room. We passed by without a word to each other and I sighed. Am I being too harsh? No, he should trust me. I shut off the overhead light and turned on one of the night stand lights so he could see when he came back in. I chose to lay on the side of the bed by the bedroom window. I laid facing away from the door and toward the window. The blinds were half open so I stared at the starry night sky. I was gonna try to fall asleep before he came in but my heart can't take not talking to him. So, I stayed awake waiting for him to come back in the room.

 I was lost in thought of what I'm going to wear for prom, when the bedroom door opened and shut quietly. I heard his padded footsteps and the bed dip as he got under the covers. He clicked off the light and I turned to face him. I was surprised to see he was already facing me. The moonlight shone brightly through the half opened window, so I was able to see his eyes watching me. After a few minutes, I concluded that he didn't seem like he wanted to start the conversation. I sighed.

"He asked if I was gay and I said that I was taken" I summed up me basically cutting off flirtatious advances from Charlie.

"I know, I heard" 

"Then why are you continuing to not talk to me?" I questioned.

"I am talking to you" he said with a serious face and I glared at him. 

"You know what I mean, smart ass"

"I was giving you time, I respect giving you space when you need it" he reasoned.

"Thank you, I appreciate that but the debacle shouldn't have even happened" I told him and his eyes cast downward. 

"I was just...jealous" he admitted

"You shouldn't have even questioned if I flirted or not. I already told you, literally this morning, I KNOW who I belong to" I stressed to him. 

"I know...I'm sorry" his eyes came back up to meet mine.

"You can't just keep saying sorry when you f**k up" I muttered. He brought his hands to cup my cheeks.

"Jace, you don't even know how much I love you. The thought of anyone having their eyes on you other than us, infuriates me and saddens me.....It infuriates me for obvious reasons, you're ours. But I say that it saddens me because I have a fear that you may come to realize that this is not what you actually want...that you would meet someone, who you can have open relationship with and go out and not care to kiss them in public without the fear of someone catching you with someone you're related to"  his eyes saddened while he held me in his hands. I felt tears brim my eyes and my heart ached in my chest with the growing worry and sadness in his voice.

"All three of you are what I want, I've wanted it for so long... I love you Dakota James Montgomery and I don't think you know how much I love you and the twins. As cheesy as it is, my heart beats for you three" I said with a smile as a tear escaped my eye. 

"You're right, that was pretty cheesy" he chuckled "But I feel the same way" he swiped his thumb across the tear track. We stared into each other's eyes for what seemed like hours before I looked at his lips. I flickered my eyes back up to his and he pulled my face to his and kissed me gently. I sighed in content, bringing one of my hands to the back of his neck as we kissed. We kept gentle movements with our lips, until I stuck the tip of my tongue out swiping it across his lip. Our kiss turned from gentle and loving to passionate as he parted his lips letting me in to explore before he pushed my body back on to the mattress and he was leaning over me, trying to take over my mouth with his tongue. Our tongues clashed together but eventually he ended up winning our dominance war. 

My other hand traveled up his bare torso, relishing his toned body, letting my fingers glide across every groove of his smooth skin. He maneuvered his body to hover over mine, straddling my hips. He parted our lips and kissed down my neck and I bent my neck back to give him room. He tugged on the end of my shirt and I leaned up for him to pull it off my body. His lips resumed on my neck once I laid back down. I moaned softly when he went over my sweet spot. He smiled against my skin, and started to nibble and suck lightly. I grinded my hips upward, making our hardening erections brush together through the thin layers we had on. 

" I want you, Kota" I whispered. He paused, his lips left my neck and I opened my eyes to see him staring down at me.

"Aren't you still sore?" he questioned with genuine concern etched on his face. 

"Not really, I'll be fine...Please, Kota" I pleaded pulling his hips into mine. He groaned and captured my lips in a heated and hungry kiss. I tugged his sleep pants and boxers down and he shimmied out of them, never breaking our kiss. My hands traveled down his body to his nicely sculpted ass and squeezed. I smirked against his lips as he moaned. He left my lips only to lay feathery kisses down my torso to the waistband of my sleep pants and boxers. He hooked his fingers under my boxers and pulled both layers off of my legs and on to the floor with his. He bent over the side of the bed quick to grab the lube from his duffel bag before coming back to me. He kissed around my fully erect d**k before he started to kiss up and down the length, worshipping it. He hummed as he started to glide his tongue up the underside to the tip before taking it in his mouth and swirling his tongue around the head. I moaned, delighted to feel his lips on me. 

He did the same thing Bash did with my legs, to part them. I heard the cap of the lube bottle open and relaxed, preparing myself. I felt the cool liquid on his finger as he circled my entrance. He slowly slipped it in, I tensed a little due to being sore still but relaxed as he graciously moved it in and out. He took more of my d**k in his mouth, sucking and licking around it. Once he felt I was ready for another finger, he added his second finger. It was a little painful still, but once he added a third finger, I hissed in slight pain.

"Are you okay?" he asked pulling his mouth off of me. 

"Yes, just tender, keep going" I squeezed my eyes shut. Only a little pain, it'll be okay. Once the pain subsided, he spent a little time working and stretching me. His fingers brushed my prostate and I moaned out grabbing his arm. 

"Now, I need you inside me" I moaned out as his fingers brushed over it again. He retracted his fingers and gave my d**k a quick deep throated bob before he sat back and generously lubed up his d**k and added a little more over my entrance. He crawled in between my legs and hovered over me, cupping my cheek with one hand.

"I love you" He said as his eyes bored into mine. 

"I love you" I smiled and brought his lips down to mine as he slowly pushed his d**k into me. I whimpered and squeezed my eyes shut from the tenderness from my ass. He went to pull away but I kept his lips on mine, so we kissed slowly and lovingly as he paused all other movements. I pulled on his hip with one of my hands to indicate him to further his actions. He slowly continued to penetrate me until he was all the way in. Some tears spilled from my eyes from the stinging pain of it, but I ignored it while deepening our kiss.

"f**k you're so tight" Dakota groaned against my lips. He parted his lips and I coaxed his tongue out and began sucking on it while he waited for me to adjust. Eventually, I stopped sucking on his tongue and told him it was okay to move. He pulled back and thrusted in a couple of times before it started to feel pleasurable. I moaned as he attached his lips back to my neck, thrusting in a steady pace. 

"Mmm Kota" I moaned out.

"God I love your moans" he grunted out and I wrapped my legs around his waist pulling him more into me. It encouraged him cause now he started going a little faster and my mouth dropped open with a loud moan as he hit my prostate. 

 "Ahhh...right there" I tightened my grip and he started to pound into me, aiming for that spot each time. "Fuck...yes...yes...yes..yes" I chanted out while clinging to him. My eyes started to roll to the back of my head as the pleasure intensified with each thrust. Much to my dismay he slowed down and pulled out.

"Get on all fours Jacey baby" he directed me as he sat back on his knees. I did as he said and he slipped himself back into my awaiting hole. He bent over and kissed my back before he gripped my hips and started back with his pounding. Damn, this position felt even better. 

"You feel so good around me" Kota groaned while slamming into me.

"f**k me...yes"  I yelled out, clenching the bedsheets rocking my hips back to meet his thrusts. I felt my release climbing at an astronomical rate. "I-I'm gonna c*m" I moaned out. I felt him move and then the angle hit differently and my head dropped against the pillows. 

"Kota!" I screamed as I came on the bedsheets, without even touching myself. I trembled as my orgasmic high was rode out with his continuous thrusts. A second later, I felt him grip my hips tighter and his c*m started to fill me as he let out a loud moan of his own. His thrusts slowed to a halt, pulling out slowly and he collapsed next me. We were both breathing heavily as we stared into each others eyes. 

"You know..they say make up s*x, is the best sex...I'd have to agree" Dakota said and we both busted out laughing. I leaned over and pecked him on the lips.

"That was amazing" I told him with a smile "I'm too tired to clean up though"

"I agree, being a top takes so much energy" he chuckled as we both just climbed under the covers. We scooted close to each other and entangled our legs then wrapped our arms around one another. I snuggled into his chest and let out a content sigh.

"I love you so much Kota" I said and squeezed him with my arms. 

"I love you Jacey, now let's get some sleep" He yawned, tightening his arms around me as well and nuzzling his face in my hair. I fell asleep with a smile on my face.