DIARY
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Thursday
Yesterday I could write only that much , sorry Jack woke up at that time and I got busy playing with him so I forgot to write further ...
You know I took Jack today for a walk ok and we did so much Masti ... and you know whenever I talk to him he responses to what I say ... and his eyes are same as Jennie , I always used to tell Jenny that " I wish our children will have eyes like yours " and she used to laugh hearing my words ...
You know that when Jack came to our life she told me " see your son's eyes alike mine now ... happy ? " ( a laugh came out from Jack's mouth , who really forgot about few minutes before feelings and was only enjoying his father's words and feelings where care and love could easily be sensed from each word that he wrote )
Jack's smile is is same as mine but whenever he smiles I think that he is more cuter than me ...
Aryan always says to me that " Jennie it always seems you did not get marry but you adopted an oversize child ...
But don't know that from where he got this acting skills ... he cries too much but no tears come out from his eyes ... he doesn't stay still for a moment if you lay him down he will immediately start crying ... whenever Jennie used to tell before that nothing happened to him he is just acting like that I never used to believe her but it now I know that this is his acting skills only ...
Jennie was a mother so she understood him well , not only me but she used to understand everyone so well , she understood me that time also when I told him about my past ...
Yes I told her about my whole past before the marriage only and what happened with me in the past everything ... and also what happened between me and Tanya and that day I proposed her also ...
You know I was so much scared that she me reject me e e because all that but she strongly said " Daksh every Saint has a past and every sinner have a future ... I want to have part in your all smile and sorrows ... and now after knowing all from you , yours respect in my eyes has increased very much and I just want to be yours life partner because I love you ... " and then on the next day court marriage ... what she told she so that also she became my life ... but here her life betrayed her hand she went very far from all of us ...
FRIDAY
Yesterday I so much got lost in thoughts that I was not willing to write anymore ...
Today I promised to myself one thing that I will never tell anything to Jack about my past life because my past life is full of sorrows and sadness and and that all I don't want to share with Jack at any cost ...
Today he cried very much because today was his vaccination day and the doctor give him injection very hardly , and when I went to hell to tell to do it carefully he told " If now now you will not stop interfering then we will send you outside " because according to them I was making more fuss then Jack over there ... ( there was a continuous smile present on Jack's lips while reading ) I decided today that next time I will take him to another hospital , he is is having fever now and the doctors said it will be fine ...
Ohh god he is again getting disturbed , making him sleep is a very difficult work , so I have to go now , bye bye ...
Saturday
Today finally his fever lowered down , doctor told me that due to vaccination mild fever is nothing ...
After having Jack in my life I don't want anything from my life now ... before I used to be a little sad that he didn't even listen to me what I was saying , he didn't even give me a chance ... you know how much trust I had on him that at least once he will listen to me just at least once but ... maybe e what I did to him after that what he did to me is right and also I did so much late in telling him the truth ... when he was asking me again and again what is the truth at that time I left no chance in breaking him and hurting him in every way so so doing all this is right of him ... the pain which I give to him he had to repay me back that ... but at least Ram sir or Ajay sir or Frenny anyone could have at least listen to me once ... Tanya was like Ajay sir's daughter he also so every time proved me wrong and took side off Tanya only ... today also I think ok that it if someone would have took my side also ... someone would have at least 1% trust at me that I can't do this type of things ... if that evening I would not have gone to Tanya's house then this would not have happen , if I I not have listened to all that then ... but thank God that I listened to all that if not then something more serious and more storm would have come into all of our lives then this one in that one I was only one who broke but if more storm would have come then no one would have existed ever if I had not done all that ...
Sunday
I will have to join office from tomorrow ... from two weeks I didn't went to the office ... but I am not getting how will I tackle both Jack and my work ... here I don't know anyone ... if I would have been in India then there were so many solutions but what now ...
Yesterday Aryan suggested to keep a nanny for Jack so that she will take care often when I am not there ... but I think I am very over protective when it comes to my son and that's why I can't see lie on anyone ... thank God I made my own company if I would have been doing a job then I would till now have got a termination letter ... telling truth I started this company only because I never wanted to call anyone sir all Boss ...
From tomorrow I am going to take Jack with me to office .. he does not do any type of problem and he sleeps most of the time so there will be no problem ...
Monday
I am very much tired today ... I had so many pending work left because I was not going to office from so many days ... and I am very glad that all of my office staffs aaja re mat supported , they took a very good care of him ...
You know today I went to a site for inspection and when I came back I saw all of my staffs are running here and there ... because Jack was crying very much ... and when he came to me he stopped crying and give me a cute smile and then suddenly he remembered that he was acting so he again started crying ... but afterwards I got to know that he was feeding so much sleepy that's why he was doing all that ... and his left after ...
The intercom in his room got rang which broke his tempo and he really gave very annoyed expression while looking at the phone and then grabbing the receiver making his voice heavy to show that he was sleeping he said : Yes ... ?
SERVANT : Sir its 6 in the morning ...
JACK ( looked at the clock in shock and then said ) : Oooh ok , thank you ...
And then he placed the receiver back and mumbled something ...
JACK : I kept reading the whole night ... well it is much interesting that I can't resist ... thank God dad wrote his diary otherwise how could I know about all these things ... ( while placing the laptop on his lap again ) well I am not going for exercise today as I am having much important work than that ...
And he again started reading ...
doing a lot of tantrums ... now I should also go to sleep , or else I will have problem tomorrow at the work because I know Jack will wake up a multiple number of times at the night ...
Sometimes I feel so much astonished that I am the same Daksh , who was so much carefully , everytime relaxed and always wanting a security around him ... Jeet really pampered me a lot ... he gave me so much love and secured me in a shell and gave me so much protection but broke all that in a fraction of second ... its a kind of positive because I always want my son to have a strong and independent father and if I had been that Daksh used to be then I would not have given that much to Jack what he needed ... I wish Jack become strong and independent just like his mother because I don't want my son to be like me , are sensitive , sentimental and emotional , whom anyone can exploit because of that person's nature and this qualities gives only sorrows and sadness and nothing else ... like what happened with me ...
Sunday
Today after so ...
His room door got knocked and he heard Punit's voice ...
PUNIT : JJ wake up quickly , we are getting late yar ...
JACK ( annoyingly mummered ) : Now how can I escape from him ... ( he said with a disgusting voice )
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