I was really loving this time at home alone with MJ. But I wanted to know if Toby was going to get a new trial. It was really starting to put me on the edge of things. Almost to the point where I wanted to go back on those pills.
But I did not. Because we were trying to have a baby. And I was a few days late now on my period. That did not mean a thing. But I hoped maybe I was having a baby here. Then the pills would not be a temptation for me. Not right now.
I needed to just flush those pills down the toilet. And forget they were there. But they helped me. I was battling with keeping them.
For now, I kept them in my makeup case. That was in the walk-in closet that my husband gifted to me. I sit in my closet going through more things. Then I sit up. I walk back into my bedroom. I hear
