I woke the next day there on the couch. Michael and I had watched movies all night. I had ended up snuggling in his warm embrace from behind me. Our fingers were laced together.
I feel his warm breath on the nap of my neck causing me to feel a patch of goosebumps to rise on my neck. I shiver with delight being there in his arms. I close my eyes back tight. Enjoy the moment we had together. It meant nothing really.
We snuggled off and on all the time. Like that one time he fell asleep on my shoulder during one of his tours. We were on a long plane ride over to Singapore at the time. Michael had a tough time sleeping due to long work hours. And the traveling out.
Time changes. He always would end up napping on me. Apologizing later for it. I wished we were a couple who had been making love all night long. Waking like this.
I always longed to tell Michael how I felt about him. But if I confessed then I was going to end up changing this friendship. And what if he did not feel the same way about me as I did for him?
Then I might lose him all together. I could not bare it if I lost Michael. He was everything to me. I loved him with my whole heart. So many other women in this world did to. And were like me, dying for a chance to be by his side.
I feel him yawn then stir from behind me. He was waking.
Darn!
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"Renee?" he whispers my name. He yawns again.
I sigh. "Morning Michael!" I say as we move apart. He brushes his long hair out of his face.
He looks a little ashamed that he fell asleep on me. "Sorry about that. I really should not have done this" he worries.
"It is perfectly fine. We needed rest. I did enjoy our long talk and watching movies together. I had a fun night with you Michael. As I always do. I still can't fathom that you gave up that date with Cindy for me though" I chuckle.
He smiles brightly at me. "You are my best friend and my top concern Renee. You know this" he reminds me. Suddenly his phone rings before I can answer him.
"Hello? Kendall? Hey, yes yes that is great! Actually, she is right here with me now. So, I can tell her for you myself. Oh, that is fantastic. When will it start? Gotcha. Okay, I am glad that they want to sign me on. Wonderful news! Thank you! Thanks Kendall. Bye!" he says.
Kendall Morgan worked for his music company. I wondered why she was calling here so early in the morning. And what was it that I needed to know to? Another tour?? I knew Michael had been waiting to go on a new one. But they had not signed him on yet.
"Well that was good news from Kendall" he informs me.
I grin. I had a feeling what that was about. "So, what did she say?" I ask him.
"I am going on the Dangerous tour! Starting this June!" he announces happily.
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He had a cd come out called "Dangerous" now he was going on tour. More than likely I was going to be going on that tour along with him. Being at his side. Helping out with the tour. It was all exciting and could be fun times.
"Michael that is wonderful!" I gush happily. He hugs me.
"I was nervous there might not be a tour. But already fans were wondering when the tour would begin for the new songs. They want to hear them live! I am thrilled!" he tells me.
He beams a happy smile. "I knew it was going to happen! See I told you not to worry" I remind him.
He nods. "You are coming along with me" he demands to me.
"Of course! I can't wait to begin work for this! Kendall probably wants to talk over the publicity with me and what will go on next" I say.
"Yes, I will be doing a few new ads on tv as well she told me. For Pepsi. And other endorsement's that will follow that" he tells me.
I frown. "But Michael, are you worried? I mean you were hurt so badly during that last ad you made with Pepsi. That was awful. I was so scared for you" I remind him.
In the 80's Michael had done an advertisement for Pepsi cola. He was burned on stage. Fireworks hit him in the head. He lost a good part of his hair from it. He went through so much hell during that time to get his full head of hair back.
He suffered from migraines and terminal pain only to be mocked and laughed at by the press. Calling him a baby for it. I only worried about him. I had been there when it happened. Watching from back stage.
He was rushed off the stage after the fire was put out on his head. I went with him to the hospital that day. Joe Jackson, his father met us there along with Janet. Michael was ashamed and in pain for months. He did not want to be seen in public with wigs on his head. I was there for him through all of it. I would do it again in a heartbeat. I place my hand on top of his. He lightly squeezes my hand.
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"Hey, I know it was awful. You were there for me through so much. I am better now. I want to move on past all that. I know that I can as long as I have you right here along for all of it" he says to me. Happy tears come to me for him.
"You are so strong Michael. If they all only could know you like I do" I mention wistfully.
"We better get planning for this tour. I have to contact my band. Hire some dancers. Can you help out and help me make calls? There is so much that has to be done here" he worries. "And we will leave soon for the tour. They are going to air it live on HBO to. So that fan who can't go can watch it live"
"Oh, wow that is wonderful Michael!" I gush.
He grins looking pleased. "It will be a lot of work. But I know we can do this! I only hope that the fans will love it as much as they loved my past music. What if I can't make a comeback?" he worries.
I laugh. "Michael! You can! You can do anything!" I remind him. "Look at all you have already done!" I remind him. "You are amazing!"
He smiles. "You only have to say that because you are my best friend" he jokes.
"I mean that Michael! Right from my heart. I really mean it" I promise him.
Later on, that week we got to planning. I was in the music studio to have a meeting with Kendall. I brought along my day planner so that I could write down all the things Michael was going to need to do for this tour. He was working in the studio that day with his bandmates. Kendall comes in the office with coffees in her hand for us. She hands me one.
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"Good to see you again" I greet her hello.
She smiles then nods. "Always a pleasure" she tells me. She sits down in front of me. "So, is Michael alright with the Pepsi ad? Or should I cancel that?" she asks as she opens her notepad. She has her pen in he hand.
"He claims he is fine to make the commercial. I talked it over with him yesterday about that. I was worried to. Glad to see that I am not the only one who was worried" I admit to her.
She takes as sip of her coffee as she places her dark black rimmed glasses on her nose. "I was concerned. Pepsi promised nothing will happen like that again to Michael on the sets if he works for them once more. I know they would hate to lose him as a client" she sighs. She tucks her pen behind her ear. Her long red hair was pulled up into a pony tail.
"I only want what is best for him. It was scary to see him in so much pain. Getting hurt like that. Then the media ripped into him. Calling him a big baby for what he went through! They were not there for all of what he endured. I really think he should go public about his story so that they understand him better" I mention to her.
She sighs. "He can talk to the press until he is blue in the face. It will not matter one little bit to them. They want to find a reason to tare the man apart. It will do him no good to talk about it" she warns me.
"True. You are right" I mutter as I pour cream and sugar into my cup of coffee. "Is Michael going to have to buy his outfits for this tour? Or will there be a designer for his outfits? And we have to plan music videos for the big hit songs from this new album" I remind her as I take notes.
"Michael has a designer coming in from Paris to make some outfits for this tour. I think he always looks great in black leather" she chuckles.
I feel my cheeks blush as an image of sexy Michael all decked out in black leather. Like in the Bad Tour. He did look fine. "I agree. But should he try something new?" I wonder.
She shrugs'. "They will come up with something great for him. I am sure" she mentions.
"When should they begin to make the music videos? Before the tour? I mean some songs are hitting the radio now" I tell her.
She nods. "He is going to be making Dangerous first. Then a few other songs"
"Oh, so you talked that over with him?" I have to ask her. She nods.
"Yes, MTV was in touch with me. They are thrilled about his new album coming out" she says to me.
Michael soon joins us. "Ladies! Having fun talking about me?" he jokes when he comes in.
He sits down beside me. "We were talking about what we need to get done for the tour" I tell him. "and if you should have a fresh look for the tour"
"I think my look I have now is fine" he says to me as his gaze meets mine. There was nothing I would change about the man. But fans would love to see him in a new light with new looks.
"We can get back to that later" says Kendall. "MTV wants music videos to play before the tour starts. That way others will want to buy tickets after they sample the music" she tells Michael.
"We can set that up" Michael says to her.
I sip my coffee. I listen to Michael and Kendall ramble on about the tour. I loved listing to Michael's ideas for the tour. His visions. Sometimes I could vision them along with him. I could picture just what he was talking about. He wanted to out do his last big hit "Thriller" I knew he would be ranking at number one on the charts in no time. I had faith in him. I hoped he would have faith in himself to.
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