Before doing another experiment, I felt like it would never end. I've always thought that it's not right if I refuse or don't want to participate in the experiments that have been carried out for quite a long time until now. I am currently experiencing an inner struggle in my life. Right now, I feel like I'm being relied on by a handful of people who seem to force me to do something in the name of saving the country. I know I was willing in the end, but somehow I feel that my responsibility is so big that I have to bear it myself. I feel grateful to have an advantage that no one else in this world has. But somehow, sometimes I find it very hard to carry it myself. "For the sake of saving the world." that's how they always say in front of me. But somehow, the more I come here. I fee

