The Luna we waited for

Chapter 4

I was sweaty, having back to back panick attacks, I was crying and didn't know why and my chest just felt like a huge open hole. I've been here rocking back and forth in my room for 30 minutes now when Marcy finally decides to speak up, "go to the woods like he told you, let nature help us." I seriously wanted to disagree with that, the woods, all alone, at midnight, didnt sound like a good idea at all. But after sitting here and dreadfully continuing this nonsense for another 5 minutes I decided that I had to do something. After all I wasnt a very fearful woman. Nothing really scared me. So I packed a small bag with a change of clothes because I know when I start wandering I sometimes lose track of time. The woods were my favorite place to be. I climbed out my window very quietly and closed it back when I landed on the ground outside. I took off to the closest patch of trees so no one saw me as quickly as I could. Marcy was rambling about how we finally did it. We finally got out. She acted like we would just be out here forever. "We are just taking a walk" I responded, and I could tell she was annoyed. I kept walking, I tuned marcy out and just walked and walked for what felt like miles. Still sweating, and panting, my breathing was slightly out of control, when I finally came to a clearing in the woods, I've never been here before. It was a small open field, it was beautiful. I just looked and took in all of its beauty when Marcy finally spoke up and said "this is it". What is she talking about? Is she setting me up? I thought to myself. "You know I'm in here and can hear you right? Why would I set us up for anything bad? You realize harm to you, means harm to me right? You realize I care about you and love you right?" Marcy explained. "I know, I know, im just confused. Why do I feel like I'm supposed to be here? And why do I feel nauseas?" Right as that thought hit me I began vomiting. My whole body hurt. Still pouring sweat and feeling terrible I walked into the clearing a bit more. I looked up at the moon so full and bright and thats when it hit me, agonizing pain, my whole body felt like it was breaking I was hearing parts of my body cracking and popping, that's never happened. Marcy was howling like a dog, it all became too much. Complete physical and sensory overload. Things got dark and I passed out from the pain . When I woke up everything was different.