At his disposal

Chapter 15 - Not everyone has to be a manwhore

Alexander POV

I was on my back in my bed, eyes closed, daydreaming about the last couple of days. They had been some of the best in my life till date. After our night together Friday when I had shown her our packhouse and we finally agreed to date I had picked her up the next morning to go on a simple first date. Watched a movie and eaten some pizza and I didn’t care what we did I just wanted to spend the most time I could with her.

She was amazing, her laughter which were the warmest and her smile the brightest. Her eyes the most caring but on top just such a pure and caring soul. Stubborn as well I had learnt and a woman who clearly knew what she wanted and how she liked it. Which turned me on even more than I already was by just the sight of her.

Even though she was virgin and had never been with a man for real before I knew she had had a boyfriend. Just thinking about it infuriated me. She had told me what an abusive peace of s**t he’d been, and I had wanted to kill him straight away. But I couldn’t, I had to keep it cool and contain my wolf, because she was still not aware of that side of me. But the thought of anyone hurting her was so hard for me to deal with. At least I knew she was a strong woman, even if she didn’t know it herself, she was a werewolf and just having those genes made her a thousand times stronger than any human who tried to put their hands on her.

Oh, hands on her. I wanted to put my hands on her. In a so tender and caring way. It was all I could think about and having to keep it in my pants was so hard, because she wanted me just as much as I wanted her. More than once we’d been so close to crossing the line, and I had to be the one who had to restrain myself and stop the act. I didn’t want her first time with me to be before she knew the whole truth. It had to be honest and no secrets between us. If I had to take away her virginity, I wanted her to want me. All of me, before anything like that happened between us. I loved her. I hadn’t told her that yet though. It was too early.

Of course, in a werewolf world it was not too early. It was instant when it came to your mate. But she didn’t know it worked like that and I could only imagine how freaked out she must be by all these overwhelming feelings and of loving someone you just met. She hadn’t told me that either. I wanted her to tell me at her own pace.

Tomorrow was her graduation and prom night. I had promised to pick her up after it was all over. I wanted to make the night special so I had planned to take her to a little spot in the woods, our woods, by the lake where you could see the stars and the moon clearly. I was going to tell her the truth there and then. I was hella nervous, but I couldn’t wait anymore I needed her to know, so that she could get to know about herself as well. I knew it would be a big shock for her, so I just hoped she wouldn’t leave me forever. Hope was all I had.

I jumped of the bed totally disturbed in my thinking as the door to my room sprang open with a big crack. In walked Lucas in front and Zed behind.

“Get out of your bed already and stop daydreaming, are you ready or what?” Lucas asked looking at me with a smirk

Zed just mouthed the word ‘sorry’ in my direction and I rolled my eyes at them both.

“Have you ever heard about knocking?” I said ignoring Lucas’ question glaring at him.

“You had not opened if I had knocked, you were way too deep in the thoughts of your little lovely mate, weren’t you?” He smirked at me again.

“Watch your mouth Lucas.” I spit his way and he waved his hands in surrender.

“Hr..hrump…” Zed cleared his throat trying to bring the attention towards him and stopping our childish chit chat.

He gave us the look and motioned with his hand out of the door wanting us to just get going already, and he was right, so both Lucas and I followed his lead.

Tonight, there was going to be a party hosted by my mom and dad, to gather all the neighboring packs. Everyone except The Red Sky Pack. I didn’t really know the details but ever since I was born there had been no bond what so ever between our pack and theirs. Something bad had happened in the past but mom and dad never wanted to talk about it. But that was also one of the reasons for this party. It was an annual thing to remain the friendship and bond of peace between the packs and this year it was hosted at our packhouse. The whole house and garden had been buzzing with people all day both inside and outside, getting every last detail in place before the guests arrived. That’s why I was in my room in the first place. As long as I was not the alpha I was not going to join in and just be in the way of my dad and definitely not my mom when she was in full on Luna mode. But with that said I didn’t dare to show up late and neither could the upcoming beta or gamma. So, we were going in together.

“Let’s hope there’s some beautiful ladies coming here tonight” Lucas said as he clapped both Zed and I on the back with a wink.

“Jesus Lu. Don’t you ever think of anything else?” Zed asked and sighed.

“I got my mate, you know that” I tuned in supporting Zed.

“Your guys are so boring, and hey you haven’t marked her yet Alex boy, so you can still enjoy, as for you Zed don’t be so stuck up on the saving yourself for your mate, don’t you want your future mate to be in good hands of an experienced and very well trained wolf?” He said with a smirk

“Oh, come on that was a low blow, it will all come natural. It’s animal instinct, raw and pure and you know it man, just because you might not have it, doesn’t mean everyone else needs to be a manwhore to be good in bed” Zed spit back at him.

“The more the merrier, for me I guess” Lucas answered as he walked in front of us joining the crowd of guests heading for the ladies and the dancefloor.

“Oh, shut up Lu!” Zed and I yelled after him simultaneously, but he just brushed it off already on the way to his first prey of the evening.