At his disposal

Chapter 1 - Something inside of me

Nathalie POV

I sat there, starring out of the window. It was all clouded and grey while raindrops fell on the glass so hard I was almost afraid of it breaking. It was perfect. I loved the sound of the rain, it made me calm and it matched my mood greatly. I was home alone. I hated it. It made me restless. The last few years hadn’t been the easiest.

I thought I found my real true love but turns out faith had other plans. I introduced him to my family, gave him everything, just to have my heart ripped out when he cheated on me with my best friend. But I wasn’t going to let him break me like that. Especially not letting him know he did, so I made it my ongoing quest for the last couple of months to move on, be better and show him what he missed out on. And the time passed had actually helped a lot.

I was so over him.

I had finally realized how great of a d**k he really was, and I was out and about every weekend partying with my girls, making up for what I'd lost, and having the time of my life. But in situations like this when I was home alone it still got to me just how much I missed to have someone close. Not my girls - even though they were a gift sent from heaven. No, I needed to feel loved and wanted like only a real man could make you feel. Or women. I actually was a little tempted at the idea, but I had to admit that what I truly craved at the end of the day, was a big man with just as big shoulders to keep me safe. I didn't need him that was for sure, but I wanted him, and I hated myself for that sometimes, but I couldn’t deny that deep inside of me ever since I turned 18 there were a little voice telling me that I was missing something, and that it was out there for me to find. I just didn’t know what or who it was and to the annoyance of my inner voice, I felt great on my own in every aspect, I mean who knew my body better than I. And at that thought I reached out for the little black vibrator on the bed side table.

It always made me feel better. I pushed my back down onto the bed, turned my little black friend on and gently pushed it under my panty line. It made my body shiver when it reached my c**t and sent sweet raves of pleasure through my body. Arching my bag from the bed I circled it around for a bit and felt myself getting closer, I moved it down a little through my all so well swollen and soaked lips just to peek at my entrance and then back up pressing harder against my c**t till I felt it rushing over me, the orgasm hit me hard and made me cramp all over, when it finally stopped I felt a relief and exhaustion, but only in a pleasant way which lulled me to close my eyes. My ex never had the ability to make me feel nearly like that when he touched me, that was for sure, thank god we never had s*x. That I would save for the right one. I felt myself drifting off into the darkness and everything around me disappeared.

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I was woken by the sunrays running down my cheeks with such warm and I remembered I forgot to put down the blinds yesterday before I drifted off. Then it hit me. We were in February and that meant the sun wasn’t up until way after I should be up. My eyes opened widely in shock and looked around the room in panic after my phone. When I reached it at the bed side table and looked at the clock, I could have killed myself for sleeping in. It was 7.45, school was in 15 minutes and there where no way I would reach that in time. Luckily for me mom and dad weren’t going to be home until tomorrow, Friday, so at least they couldn’t get mad at me for what they didn't know. I jumped out of bed and threw on the first dress in my closet - that way I only had to manage to get one item of clothing on my body in my still half-asleep state of mind.

I ran down the stairs grabbed my back and a banana on my way out of the door and while locking up I reached for my phone and dialed Marie my best friend in hopes of her saving me. As soon as she picked up, I heard her voice at the other end.

"I know, I am already on my way, I figured you sleept in when you didn't answer my text 20 minutes ago, I'll be on your doorstep in 2, be ready we are late!"

She hushed at me while somehow still managing to laugh at me instead of being mad and without even letting me say a word she hung up on me. I rolled my eyes. She was a pain in the ass, but a god sent pain who knew me to well and at 07.52 her car rolled up and I jumped in and before I was even able to buckle my seatbelt we were heading for school.

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The lunchbreak was nearly over and next up was the last class for today. Sports. I loved it unlike many of the girls, so to me it wasn’t even a punishment to be forced staying here the next couple of hours. I was - if forced to say it myself - very athletic. God had blessed me with long legs despite my lack in height and even though I was only 1.65 and with beautiful curves you’d think slowed me down, they didn’t. I was the fastest on the track team and even faster than all the guys as well. I was also a lot stronger than you would think and never felt sore or anything after practice. This I kept to myself though. It made me feel too masculine being this strong and it made me feel like I didn’t belong. On top of that there was no need to emasculate the boys even more, when I already totally beat them in every running contest.

“Sounds good to you Nat?”

I looked up at Marie and realized I had totally zoomed out and into my own world while the girls were talking, and I had no clue what she was asking me. She tilted her head and raised a brow waiting for my answer, but when she saw the look on my face, a look of disappointment crossed her face. I mimicked the word sorry with my mouth and luckily, she led me of the hook and started explaining;

“The girls and I were just talking about getting ready together at my place tomorrow before the party? Then we can go together? My dad is out of town, so we have the house to ourselves”.

I smiled at her

“That sounds great, I would love to join in on that honey! At what time did you expect us to be there?”

She lightened a little when she saw my excitement for her idea

“Well, if you had listened before you would know that you were welcome at any time after school doll” she said with a smirk winking at me.

“I know, sorry, I will be there just need to wait for my parents to get home, so I think I can manage about 4 PM?” I said putting on my best charm in hope she would forgive me fully for not paying attention.

She nodded

“That will do, now come on silly and stop daydreaming or else we will be late to your favorite class and my torture time of the week” She took my hand and we raised from the lunge table gathered our stuff and along with Emma, Alice and Sofie we headed for the gym hall.