how could I do this to him?
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the guilt was eating me alive I couldn't even look at Keith without wanting to cry. it was effecting my home and school life too I had to stop ot but how? everytime I got close to Dan we end up in bed together.
no I have to stop this at once it can't go on any longer. I was irritable at home all I wanted to do was agrue with my parents and sister adthat got me grounded which wasn't the worst thing.
I wasn't focusing in school either I was failing I never failed. and my stomach hurt all the time what was I going to do?
I went through the next few weeks of school with my head down I tried to avoid Dan and Karen and with Keith I debated breaking up with him. but I couldn't do that I loved him so much.
Then why would I hurt him if I loved him? I didn't know what to do. I was racking my brains trying to fix this. I was confused and scared and mad a myself no I hated myself.
I set up a meeting with Dan I texted him I told him to meet me in a place we wouldn't be seen. the lake house.
I stood there on the lake house porch it was cold out and I was shivering I didn't dress warm enough I could see my breath. Dan's truck finally pulled up.
He got out of the vehicle and strutted up to the porch. "returning to the scene of the crime Luca?" he smirked. usually I'd find him charming but I wasn't letting myself feel that way anymore no way. "You're late" I crossed my arms over my chest.
"Oh I'm sorry princess I had to get away from Karen " he rubbed my arms. I shrugged him off quickly. "Oh come on babe don't be like tha don't be mad I'll make it up to you" Dan spoke softly trying to pull me in I fought against his grip.
"Dan stop it we have to stop this" I spoke he dropped his hands. "What?" he asked "you heard me Dan no more making it up to me no more sneaking no more us I can't do this anymore I...." I started and Dan cut me off he grabbed my hands. "I love you Luca" he spoke he sounded desperate.
I looked at him and blinked a few times "Dan I love...." I started he cut me off again "yes luca?" he asked. "Keith I love Keith I will always love Keith " I spoke and he dropped my hands he was mad I could tell.
"Luca you can't end this you can't I won't let you" Dan spoke and he looked at me "come on its freezing let's go inside and talk." he spoke and got the keys from his pocket. I knew if I went to that lake house I'd loose all my confidence. "no Dan it's over I'm done I'm not doing this anymore Karen is my sister and I love Keith. " I spoke and Dan grabbed me I flinched.
"You can't do this " he spoke harshly. "stop it You're scaring me" I spoke and looked at him. "you won't leave me Luca you won't" Dan spoke his eyes locked on mine. "Dan I can't live like this" I spoke on the verge of tears. "I'll tell him" Dan smirked. "what?" I asked stunned "I'll Tell Keith if you leave me I'll tell him everything" he threatened me.
I didn't know what to do I couldn't loose Keith but I couldn't keep doing this dance with Dan anymore I'm hurting the people I love my boyfriend my twin sister. I couldn't and I looked at the man infront of me who had a grip on me. "Dan I'm done" I simply spoke. "then I'll tell him" he tightened his grip on my arms.
"and I'll tell Karen and you'll lose us both" I spoke matter of factly I wasn't backing down. he tightened his grip on me I winced it hurt but I didy let him know that. "your wouldn't dare" he spoke through gritted teeth "try me" I spoke. he let me go right then and I ran for it.
"Luca wait?" he called after me but I didn't stop. I got to my sister's car and drove away Dan chased aftertge car till he couldn't anymore he then went back to his truck and drove back home. when I got home Keith was waiting in my room I crawled through the window and seen him.
"Keith?" I asked he just smiled weakly he knew something.
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