Cleo's Heart Decisions.

Storm!

"If I die, you will have to know I love you and my heart is yours..."

~some time later, forest~

Cleo’s pov

He stops the car quite violently at the left side of the road although he was driving way to fast till one second ago and I put my right hand on the car dashboard to prevent myself from falling forward.

I was expecting from him to be furious but this is beyond any imagination! If you ask me, he is trying to kill us with the way he is driving, there is no other explanation but at least it’s over now!

We are about ten kilometers after our pack’ territory and deep in the forest. Everywhere around us there are only trees and as you can imagine he is doing it on purpose but do you know what?

This is exactly what I want because he needs a good lesson and I am done accepting such behaviors from him!

And… Yes, we are talking about Thor here because once I told them I am leaving the pack, he stood up, grabbed my arm and almost dragged me to his car. His parents were too shocked to react, my mom tried to stop us with the guys but I guess Thor’s anger made them all freeze so…

Here we are!

He wants us to talk, cool right?

All this time he is driving we are silent, he is fuming and I am enjoying it!

You know… This is ridiculous, really! I am trying to take it easy for now because if I don’t, I am going to get mad and then I will kill him!

I am sure you all want that and believe me so do I but I can’t because this nature’s mistake is an Alpha and everything is complicated.

He turns off the car and before he says or does a thing I open my door and get out banging it behind me. He does the same right after me without losing time and when his door closes, he locks the car and signs for me to follow him.

We start walking in silence for once more and I feel nothing!

I am just preparing myself for what is going to happen in some minutes from now. I will be mad, I will kick his ass, I will threaten him just like he has been threatening me and I will make him sign these damn contract tomorrow!

And he…

He is fuming, he is shaking all this time and it is getting worse, his scent has changed a lot, I can feel his wolf fighting to come to the surface (but who cares about him?) and he is breathing extremely harshly. And I am going to repeat it, he is getting worse and this is exactly why I have the hand above!

He can’t think clearly, I know Thor, his anger had been always blinding him and now it is happening the same thing!

After some minutes of walking with me following him in hurry, we stop in the middle of a small glade. Everything is green and too silent around us, the atmosphere is cold, the breeze is really cool and exactly what I need and the sky…

It’s like our mood! It’s full of dark grey clouds and it is getting worse! We are going to have a storm tonight…

He turns around slowly after a while and locks his eyes on mine. About two meters are separating us and he is a wreck. I think I have never seen him like this before!

His eyes are way too dark, they could look like black but my vision is prefect so I know they are not yet. His cheeks are red and the rest of his skin is pale and sweaty, this is another sign of how outraged he is and if you add his jaw that is clenching with noise then I am sure you can imagine how easily to get exploded he is! I won’t even mention his body, the veins on his neck or his fists…

I, from the other side, am very calm and if you ask me ironic already! I am not scared as I told you a while ago and not angry, not yet! I am just standing patiently opposite of him waiting for a move from him.

I am ready, I will make him pay, I will terrify him, I will do the same things with him because I am done from being patient and showing understanding!

I observe him taking a step forward some seconds later obviously mad at me for the way I am looking at him and growls breathless.

“How did you do this to me? Why do you want to leave?” he asks harshly and maybe a bit hurt and approaches me immediately.

He raises his hands to touch me with his eyes never leaving mine but I am in alert, I snap them away and before he reacts I slap him screaming with so much power that he falls back and lands on the ground.

The noise was echoing due to the silence and he wasn’t expecting it at all, this is why he fell and to say the whole truth, I put all my power in this slap!

I really needed to do this and I feel no pain although I should, I am angry suddenly and I feel nothing else at this moment!

I am not even hurt from the way he is looking at me from the ground, he is…

I don’t know and it’s now that I see red and I can’t hold back anymore!

“I am disgusted from you, I am leaving because of you, because you keep on acting like an insane bastard! I tried to be patient, I respected your wish, I am staying away from you, I am trying to not provoke you but you… f**k off! Enough is enough!” I scream outraged doing my best not to shift and attack him and take a step back in need of some space.

I can’t breathe and I don’t want to, not until he…

Bleeds!

I don’t take threatens so well and he ended it last day, he asked for it!

This time I talk and he listens no matter who the Alpha is!

He stands up slowly with a mixed expression full of wary, pain and anger and doesn’t lose time, he tries to touch me again and this is the worst thing he can do!

I allow him to come close to me and for once more he tries to touch me with his right hand but I grab it with my left and before he understands what is happening I am punching him and then kicking him on the stomach.

He leaves out a very loud cry full of surprise and pain and then falls on his knees gasping for air with his hands on his stomach and lips.

His blood’s scent fills my lungs and it doesn’t take me long to see from where it comes from. His lower lip is bleeding a lot and it is going to take some minutes for it to stop.

Yes… That’s it!

Thor Walker the great Alpha is kneeled in front of me devastated and I…

I am still standing although what he told me in that text last night!

“Who is going to bleed now? Huh?” I roar and kick him one last time making him curl in two groaning.

“What did you tell me yesterday night? Who did you threaten?” I continue in an even wilder tone and grab him from his hair forcing him to look at me.

I lock my gaze on his and Clea makes one step forward asking from me to hurt him more! I agree at some point but I want to wait for a while before that.

Thor looks lost, he is not moving, he has removed his hand from his lips and I am sure I can see the pain in his eyes but the more I am thinking about it, the more I am finding this sick and insane!

He has lost his mind, nothing makes sense anymore!

“Are you a man enough Thor? Are you?” I ask through my teeth and he shakes his head nervously in despair.

“Prove what a man you are! Keep your promise, make me bleed, I dare you!” I continue and my eyes land on his bleeding lip that now looks worse than I had thought before.

“Cleo…” he whispers weakly and I tighten my hold around his blonde hair even more.

I feel my rage growing bigger and I can’t listen to him, no!

“Shut up! I am talking now!” I roar out of nowhere and he stiffens not protesting.

“The King knows everything so you better sign the damn papers tomorrow because I want to leave! End of discussion here! This is the end!” I state through my teeth and he gasps shocked turning completely pale.

His heart has stopped beating, he can’t breathe and now he looks panicked and terrified and he is right to feel this way! I mean, he can’t mess with the King, it was the worst case scenario for him, he had no idea I could get that far!

“What? Did you tell him? Why did you do this?” he asks trembling and I growl losing my self control.

What an i***t and pathetic man!

“You asked for it! I put an end because you were never going to do that!” I reply under my breath and with this I slap him again because he tries to touch me for once more.

“I love you… I really do…” he cries out and falls on the ground as I leave him suddenly and he can’t keep his balance.

What the hell is wrong with him?

How shameless he can be?!

I can’t believe he just said that! This is unbelievable and disgusting!

He is joking, he can’t possible mean it, he is not serious!

He has done so many things, he is trying to hurt me all the time, his actions are not agreeing with his words and now he loves me?! Like really?

I want to kill him, that’s it, I had enough! This was the drop that overflowed the glass!

“f*****g liar bastard!” I scream and push him back when he sits up.

He crashes on the ground again fighting to breathe and struggles to stand up but I kick him again screaming but then…

“Cleo, Thor!” he screams from somewhere on my left and I snap my head to this direction breathless.

He is standing right after the woods with a panicked expression that faints once my eyes land on his. He relaxes quickly, his body is not in tension anymore and I find my lost breathe after some seconds of looking at him in the eyes. I don’t know what Thor is doing at this moment, I think I don’t care, I am too surprised, I wasn’t expecting him.

“Finn…” Thor mutters and I shake my head gaining my composure.

Alright, it’s over, I am done from here!

I start walking to Finn in determination and leave Thor behind me. I am not mad anymore or not so much, I am better because I somehow released my anger!

I approach Finn that is following my every move with his eyes and stop right next to him some seconds later. I turn to face him and point Thor that is probably still lying on the ground.

“I am glad you came to pick up his pieces!” I whisper angrily and he smirks holding back a laughter.

He looks like he is enjoying it and I don’t know why. I just roll my eyes and start walking away but he joins my side and leaves Thor.

Alright this is really surprising and confusing for me and I have no idea what is happening. I mean, he has changed a lot but I don’t understand him now!

I turn again to him while we continue walking and find him already looking at me. It’s like he is reading my thoughts and I get ready to ask him what he is doing but he clears his throat and I bite my lower lip nervously.

“I came here to take you back, I don’t care about him!” he states and I nod fighting to hide how shocked I am.

Did he just say what I think he did?

What is wrong today?

“Maybe he is not that bad…” Clea murmurs thoughtfully and I groan in confusion.

Maybe but… I am never going to be sure, I am leaving in two days.

“Are you alright?” he asks me worried after a while of walking without talking and I nod weakly forcing a smile.

He looks honest and to tell you the truth… He is a different Finn I like a lot so I can’t be so rude at him.

“I am now Finn, thank you!”

~some hours later, night, hotel, city~

Thor’s pov

I fill my glass again and leave the bottle on the table with force. The noise is getting on my nerves and it is one more reason for me to want to break every around me but I am trying to control my rage!

After that incident with Cleo in the forest, I came at the hotel in the room I have booked on my name all the time and I didn’t go to the pack at all! I don’t want to go, I can’t and I am not alone…

Lillian is here with me and she is not talking which is something I am thankful for!

She knows I am not in mood and I keep on drinking all these hours.

I am acting like a ghost from the moment Cleo left me with Finn going with her!

I am hurt, I don’t want to lose her, I love her like crazy but last night I ruined everything! I got drunk and I did the worst thing I could, I threatened her because I was desperately jealous and mad at her for being with that asshole and today she…

Killed me!

She broke my heart in two and the pain in unbearable! I feel like dying from that moment, I don’t know how to deal with it, I don’t want to accept it, the thought of her leaving me is a real nightmare!

She has changed, a lot! She is not the sweet sensitive Cleo I knew. She used to love me some years ago, she was crazy for me, we were together all the time, we were doing everything in union, we had no secrets, we were acting like we knew we were mates and now…

Now she hates me, it’s like she never loved me and I want to believe I am wrong but I am sure about the exact opposite thing!

It is very easy for her to stay away from me, she didn’t seem so hurt when I told her I don’t want her as my mate, she is constantly around other males, she keeps on pushing me away and now this…

She is leaving, she talked to the King about us and now I am trapped like a rat! I don’t know what else I can do to keep her here, I have no idea, she won’t stay, she is determinate and I am devastated yet desperate!

I don’t want her to go! I want her here with me, I need her and I am trying to think of a way of preventing her from leaving but till now nothing!

Lillian clears her throat discreetly and I roll my eyes turning to look at her. It’s the first time she made a noise and now…

I realize she is wearing only a pair of black, satin revealing underwear with a matched bra.

She is in a completely different mood than I am and she is walking to me trying to be seductive. After two years together I know what she is thinking of and when, it’s not so difficult anyway and the last days she is acting like a hungry b***h.

She approaches me smirking wickedly and caresses my left arm. She is standing next to my armchair in the small living room some meters from the big, double bed and I groan while taking a big sip from my drink.

I do my best to ignore her so I don’t even turn to look at her. The truth is I don’t feel any lust for her from the day Cleo came back and she knows it. She is not affecting me anymore and I never loved her, I have no feelings for her but we always had fun in bed. She just knows what to do to please a man, there is nothing else that made me choose her.

I close my eyes in frustration when I feel her hand travelling on my chest and try to remove it not wanting her to touch me for more but she takes a step forward and sits on the armchair’s left arm next to me. I shake my head nervously and she continues caressing my chest above my shirt.

“Why are you like this when we are getting rid of her?” she asks in a low wicked tone and I throw my glass on the wall on my right.

The glass breaks, the pieces get scattered everywhere but I don’t give a s**t!

Damn it!

“Shut up!” I growl warningly and she stiffens leaning closer so she can look at me.

My eyes meet her fake ones and she narrows her eyes with me getting angrier than I already am. She is also mad… This is something I don’t see so often because I am always giving her everything she wants but this is not affecting me.

“Stop being like this!” she groans breathless.

“Then stop bothering me!” I reply immediately without thinking about it and she gives me an ironic smile that gets on my nerves.

I wish I could kill her right now, believe me!

“You bothered me first, you asked from me to become your mate and Luna so watch your mouth when you are talking to me because you need me!” she says and this time I don’t try to talk.

She has a point here, she holds me like this! It was my choice and she accepted…

She stands up and takes one more step coming right in front of my legs. She gives me a very seductive smile and sits slowly on my lap. I don’t stop her, I am not moving at all and she takes it as a positive sign because she starts unbuttoning the first buttons of my shirt.

“You don’t need her because she doesn’t love you! All she does is hurting you so… Hurt her, do the same, now it is the right time…” she whispers and moves her other free hand low on my manhood that has begun getting hard.

Shit!

I know exactly what she is talking about and I had been trying to push it away from my mind these last days! Cleo’s presence is a good distraction for me, she stopped my plans and now Lillian reminded me everything I was planning to do.

I don’t know anymore, I mean… If I do this now then I am going to lose Cleo for good but what if I hurt her and she understands she loves me?

Maybe she stays in this way, maybe I have a chance with her like this…

I close my eyes when I feel Lillian rubbing my manhood and she leans on my neck. She starts licking my skin and I press my lips together to hold back a moan.

I try to think of Cleo doing this because only in this way I am getting aroused enough these days and my skin shudders.

And just like that I know what to do! If I want Cleo, I have to hurt her and make her realize how important I am to her, yes…

I grab Lillian’s hand and press it more on me, she moans and licks me close to the crock of my neck. This is the last thing I need to take the decision and lose my patience for good.

Yes…

“What is it Alpha?” she asks wickedly and I turn my head slowly to her.

“Lay on the bed!”

~at the same time, Cleo’s grandma’s house~

Cleo’s pov

I keep on staring outside the window and all I see is black!

I am at my grandma’s house in the forest the last five hours because I want to stay alone and everyone respected my wish for some privacy!

It is hard for me to be here for the first and probably the last time, this house is important to me and I will have to leave it behind now that is ready! I wish things were different but they are not and I have no other choice.

It hurts like hell and not only me but that’s it…

I have to say I am worried tonight, I am freaking out to be more specific and this is because my dad is still nowhere to be found, we have no clue as to where he is and I can feel he is suffering alone. This is the worst thing I wanted to happen, I failed him, I broke his heart and I am never going to forgive myself for this! I want him to come back, I need to see him, talk to him and hug him but I am sure he will be still mad and I am hurt about it.

Also, I am thinking of my friends and mother! I am leaving them behind and it costs me because I love them like crazy and I really wanted to be here next to Adelaine because in about a month she is going to give birth and she needed me here. I wish I could be here to see and hold the baby but it won’t happen and I am trying not to think about it!

My mom is a mess… I don’t know why but I have a feeling she is partly relieved and partly sad about me leaving and I already know the reason! She feels I am not happy and she wants the best for me so she hopes I will be at the palace!

And last but not least, I am getting crazy waiting and praying for the white wolf to come! This is the last opportunity I have to see him because I am sure tomorrow night I won’t be able to leave home, my family and friends are going to keep me there and I am scared.

All these hours I am sitting next to window with my eyes locked outside but nothing has happened and I see black! You see, it is raining heavily and the only noise I can listen to is from the raindrops that are falling on the roof.

Clea is moving impatient in my mind and she is making me dizzy, this is not helpful but I don’t want to scold her now, she is in the same state of mind with me and she really wants to see the wolf!

I stand up feeling like drowning and walk to the door in hurry. I need some air and once I open it, the cool breeze hits my face and I sigh relieved. Alright, this is much better and I walk and sit on a wooden chair there is next the door on the small balcony.

So, now we can go back to our topic because I need to tell you more about the wolf!

I want to talk to him and explain to him that I don’t want to lose him! I will ask from him to show me his human, this is going to be our last chance and there are lots of things I want to share with him and one specific I want to give him because…

This is the right thing! He deserves it!

I feel a connection and it hurts me when I think I won’t be able to see him in less than two days from now! I have to know why I feel this way, I am sure he feels the same way and he certainly has some answers so I am going to do anything I can to make him appear in his human form and tell me everything!

He is not alone in this, we are together and I have every right to know about us or else I will get crazy! I can’t live with questions that are not answered!

I stay like this with my eyes locked on the dark, silent forest and listen to the raindrops with the rain’s scent making my skin shiver. I really love the smell, it is relaxing!

I close my eyes sighing heavily and Clea moves nervously in my mind. She is murmuring something I don’t understand and my heart aches for a second with a weird, displeasing feeling building up out of nowhere and just then I listen to them…

Howls, lots of howls and from quite close…

Rogues!

SHIT!

I jump up, the very next second shift not caring about my clothes that get ripped into pieces and once my black paws touch the wet ground I open my link.

I call Thor, don’t get me wrong and wait before you accuse me about it but he is the Alpha and he has ordered me to inform him about everything before anyone else. So, I call him for some times but he doesn’t reply and the howls get louder which means that the rogues are too close.

Next I try to call William with my eyes travelling all around me but for once more he doesn’t reply and this is way too weird!

I think I am really trapped this time and the damn rogues found the best opportunity because of the weather, the rain didn’t help me with their scent and now I can do nothing else than fight and wait for the others and by the way…

I call Gabriel! He is my next choice and thankfully he replies almost immediately!

Yes!

“Cleo?” he asks in agony and I sigh relieved.

“Gab, rogues! I don’t know how many of them! I am at my grandma’s!” I say in hurry and he cries out worried.

He really loves me and I know he is acting like my big brother, the one I never had! He is more logical and serious, he is the self collected of the group and I know I am killing him right now!

“I am on my way! Finn is in lead of the guards tonight! We are coming!” he shouts and I groan in approval when three rogues appear from the woods on my right and start their attack on me.

“Ready Clea?” I roar and she howls outraged.

The first one that reaches me is a dark grey one and not so big. In fact he is too small in front of me and once he jumps on me, I stand on my two back legs, hit him on the jaw with my right paw and send him two meters back.

A second rogue makes his attack on me and this time I jump on him before he tries it and I land on him. He is not so small to be honest, he is larger than the previous one but he is still an easy opponent and it is not difficult for me to press my sharp nails in his throat and leave him dead.

The third rogue growls from my right and I turn to him but about seven more rogues jump all around me from the woods and I get in a bigger grade of alert because this means…

Too many troubles if not death!

If they make their attack all together, I don’t think I am going to have many hopes, let’s be realistic!

“Watch out!” Clea roars because the rogue is too close now and I take my position but then…

I feel a strong wave of pain accompanied from a burning on my heart and I lose my breath.

It is the first time I feel something like this and I freeze, I can’t move, the shock is huge and before I react or realize what is happening the rogue bites my right arm and soon the others run to us with deadly intentions.

What the f**k is this? It is getting worse, the pain is more intense and this burning is travelling all over my body!

“Thor!” Clea screams being in more pain than me and it hits me like a flash…

He is marking her!

He…

Damn!

I can’t move enough, my strength is leaving me and I feel like electricity is running through my body, I am going to have spasms too soon and the only thing I am trying to do as the rogues are reaching us is to protect my neck and my head.

I don’t know how, I have no idea what I am doing, my vision is blurred and the next second they are tearing me everywhere expect from my head and neck and Clea howls in pain with the rogues growling.

I think I can feel their teeth cutting my flesh and the pain makes me kneel.

I feel nothing than pain and soon I get too dizzy! I think I am passing out but some more howls sound and I am almost sure the rogues leave me because I fall on the ground with the rain falling heavily on me.

I have my eyes closed, I can’t open them and I smell blood, my blood and nothing else. I am having spasms now as the burning is everywhere and I listen to my bones cracking, I am shifting back to my human form.

I am not sure but I listen to lots of howls, growls and generally noises and Clea’s howls stop, I don’t feel her anymore, I am alone, she is gone!

I leave out a loud cry full of despair and force myself to open my eyes although it seems pointless for me to try it but after some seconds I somehow make it and the first and only thing I see is…

His eyes!

He is here, he came to me!

The wolf!

He is kneeled on me, his big, bright silver eyes are shining in the dark and all I can distinguish is agony, pain and fear.

My pain feels not so strong anymore, all I am trying to do is focus on the wolf that lays down next to me in a try to keep me warm or help me somehow and I give him a weak smile.

That’s all I can do for now, I am too lost!

I keep on listening to noises around us, growls, howls, bones breaking, footsteps but I do not care!

I need to do something, I can’t risk it, I may die and I want him to know, he has to have it, it’s his!

I force myself to move my hands at any cost! At first it feels too hard because my body is not listening to me, no matter how much effort I put I can’t move them even an inch and the wolf opens his eyes widely in confusion.

I press my lips together and try even harder. I focus on the wolf, only on him because he is my power now, my motivation and after a while I manage to move them towards my neck.

I leave out another loud cry as a new wave of pain hits me but this also helps me because I leave my hands fall and they land on my neck.

God, this is good, at least it is going to be easier now!

I ignore the battle that seems to continue taking place around us and I move my hands at the back of my neck with my eyes never leaving his. I am drown in him, my heart is breaking but at the same time it feels like the pieces are fighting to stick back together like an unknown power is controlling them.

I manage to take my necklace, the heart in my hands and I see the wolf’s eyes widen even more following the necklace. It’s like he knows how important this is for me and I wish I could tell him everything but I don’t have time…

At least if I die, he will know, he will have it!

I push myself up to my limits getting at the final part and with slow movements I pull the necklace close to his mouth.

It is his from now on and now I have to tell him!

I don’t want to leave this world without telling him!

Do it Cleo, you can make it!

I cry out again with the burning in my heart getting even more intense and gasp. I am running out of oxygen and I have no other choice than tell him the sooner so I pray from inside me to make it and open my mouth with the wolf even closer to my face, he is almost touching me.

“This… Is… M… Heart, it’s… Yours now…” I whisper trembling and although my vision is blurred I think I can see some tears falling from his eyes.

Does he feel the same way?

Maybe I will never know…

“I… Love… You!” I add and feel my heart exploding in my chest.

At this moment a lightening strikes somewhere close and the ground above me is shaking, I feel the waves of electricity and the light is blinding for a second!

I have never felt anything like this and this is the last thing I could take because his eyes is the last thing I see and…

Everything turns black!

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Hello my dear friends!

This is the 13th chapter and it was a chaos, right?

I really need to know your thoughts and feelings so please let me know!

What do you think about this chapter? What about Cleo's behavior to Thor? What about the him? How do you feel about Thor's moment with Lillian? What about what happened to Cleo? And how do you feel about the last scene and Cleo and Axel (Alexander's wolf)? What is going to happen next?

Also there is one more new book, its name is Thorns Of The Past so please go and check it out if you are interested!

Thank you very much for everything, your love, support, commends and impatience in order to read the next chapter! I also read all the comments and I try to answer them the sooner so I am sorry if I am delaying it sometimes, I am reading everything and I love it! I am trying my best so please continue showing me how much you want more and commend and tell me your opinion, or share the story.

This is it for now, I will see you again in the next chapter or in my other books! Until then stay safe, smile and have fun!

I love you all very much,

                                   Marie!