Cleo's Heart Decisions.

'Awaken'.

She 'woke up' after all that pain and she took her decisions to protect what she had to... Her heart!

~Diamond Heart Pack, hospital~

Cleo’s pov

I open my eyes slowly but everything I see is a blurred and this is really confusing!

All I feel is my body hurting everywhere, I have never felt any pain as strong as this one, not even when I was shifting and my bones were breaking! I want to scream, I don’t know how I am breathing but I can’t move to ease the pain either and I think I am shaking and I can’t control it!

What happened?

Did a train hit me?

Am I dead?

What the hell?

I groan annoyed as I listen to voices calling my name and close my eyes again. The bright light is blinding me and these voices are not clear, my ears are ringing and everything feels way too sore!

I try to open my eyes again when I think someone is touching my hand, I am not sure because every part of my body feels like it’s electrocuted and my touch is not working that much. I can’t even smell, I have almost no communication with the environment!

My vision is better this time but not completely clear, so I close and open my eyes again. The voices keep on calling my name giving me a stronger headache and more confusion and when I manage to open my eyes widely after some more seconds of trying, I see my parents crying and smiling above me.

My mother looks much older, she has bags under her eyes that are red and wet. Her hair is messy, her top has some blood on it and she is shaking.

My dad is smiling and sobbing at the same time! I have never seen him crying, this is the first time and he is fighting to breathe but he can’t. He has lost his strength, this is how I feel from the way he is behaving and he is talking to me but I don’t get a thing! all I can understand is my name and I can’t read his lips either.

With all these it takes me only some seconds to understand what is happening or where I am!

I am sure I am a hospital because something happened and this is why I am in pain and my parents look so broken yet relieved but I can’t remember a thing except from…

The wolf!

I was with him, I think…

Yes, the last thing I remember is his eyes looking at me and then nothing, darkness!

I have no idea what happened before and after this but I am sure that was happened after was not so pleasing, s**t!

THIS IS KILLING ME!

Did I fall from a cliff or something?

But…

If I was with the wolf, then… No, I was safe with him by my side, like every other time so he has to be safe, he is fine, he is not hurt!

“Cleo?!” my dad cries out ready to sob and I groan again as his strong voice is really frustrating and torturing for me right now.

“Baby, you scared us! Are you alright? How do you feel?” my mom asks crying and I try to move again but I can’t.

I leave out a loud cry when I feel them hugging me and close my eyes. I don’t know how this scream came out of my lips because I feel like I have no strength in me but I am glad I did it because the next second both of them pull back terrified and I manage to breathe.

The truth is that this doesn’t help me at all, the pain is not decreasing, it is getting worse because I do the big mistake of taking a deep breath and my chest gets more air, it moves more than it should and I bite my lower lip to hold back another scream.

“Etan, call the doctor!” my mom shouts panicked and he nods immediately, turns around ready to go to the door but…

The next second the door opens and Kevin, Thor and Finn break into the room worried.

Huh?

“CLEO!” the three of them yell in union and rush to me with my dad blocking their way protectively.

“Are you alright?” Kevin asks panicked and I stiffen ready to break into sobbing from the pain.

This is getting worse, way worse!

“Cleo, are you in pain?” Thor screams next and tries to pass by my father but Finn pulls him back.

Um…

I have no damn idea what they are all doing here and why this asshole is so worried but I think I don’t want to know now, not when I am dying from pain!

And he is a genius, right!? The man asks if I am in pain like I seem to be fine!?

“Sweetheart, can you talk to us? We are worried here!” my mom says gently and in a low tone that is not annoying me and I sigh weakly.

Can I?

I am not so sure about it! I mean, I screamed unconsciously before but now I don’t know if I can repeat it or most importantly talk!

“I think she is in too much pain and she is confused!” Finn states nervously and I groan in agreement but I guess it is difficult for them to understand me.

I close my eyes again and take a short, slow breath. I am exhausted for an unknown reason and looking at all of them is overwhelming yet confusing me.

“Doctor!” my father exclaims after some seconds and I listen to footsteps.

“She is awake!” Thor says next in a loud tone for once more and I open my eye to look at him angrily.

I am going to kill him once I feel better, I promise!

Is he doing it on purpose or something?

Isn’t it obvious I can’t bear so strong voices?

He stiffens awkwardly under mine and all the others’ gazes immediately realizing his voice’s effect on me and the doctor clears his throat.

I don’t know him, I mean personally! I have seen him twice since the day I came back but he is young and he probably came at the pack after I had left to the college.

To be honest, he is a good looking man about his 28’s! He is tall with black, short, stylish hair, three days beard, a normal weight and board shoulders and his eyes are dark brown.

I observe him walking to me passing by the guys and then my dad with my mother taking some steps backwards leaving him space to come to me. His eyes are never leaving mine and he is smiling warmly obvious pleased.

“I am happy we have you back Beta, you scared us all!” he says calmly and touches my hand.

“Doctor, why isn’t she talking, she is not moving and…” Thor begins but the doctor turns to him and Thor stops.

I already love the doctor, do you know that?

“I told you before about the side effects! She woke up earlier than the predicted and she is still in great pain!” he states firmly and Thor lowers his head with all the others nodding in understanding.

Um… okay, I caught two key words!

Side effects!

So… Something happened and I was really with the wolf and now I am freaking out because what if something has happened to him as well?

Or it is just in my imagination and I wasn’t with him?

God, I hope he is safe and I just imagined everything because I won’t bear it if anything has happened to him but how am I supposed to find him now?

“Is she going to be alright? Is this normal? What can we do to decrease the pain?” my mom asks next and the doctor turns again to me but his eyes land on the wall above me.

Huh?

Oh, now I get it! He is looking at my heartbeat, my vitals and I am full of cables!

Great! You could say I am a robot!

“I would like to stay alone with the patient before I say more! I need to check on her in private!” he states calmly and snaps his head to them again.

They all nod, even my parents but it’s not a surprise for me that Thor takes one step forward with a frustrated expression I know very well what it means and locks his eyes on the doctor that keeps on being calm and confident.

Of course he has a problem, again!

What does he care now? Why is he so angry?

“Why do we have to leave? I don’t get it! You can check on her with us present!” he says through his teeth and my mom stiffens with Kevin and Finn getting angry while my dad is staring at Thor confused.

SHIT! s**t! s**t!

I want to shut his mouth so damn much!

And just like that, he is going to have a fight with the doctor because he wants to do his job and he doesn’t even respect my condition!

I AM DYING HERE! HELLO!?

“I am sorry Alpha but this is a hospital and I decide what happens and when! I didn’t ask you, I ordered you but I did it politely! I want to stay alone with the Beta and if I had to ask from someone to stay, it would be from her mother! Allow me to do my job without you interfering!” he replies back in a serious tone that leaves them all speechless and Thor coughs ready to reply but Finn groans and taps his arm.

At least he is the logical one! I can’t believe I am saying this but Finn is getting high in my eyes, seriously! I have missed lots of things, I am sure but Finn is certainly not supporting Thor and I am amused!

“Come on, he is right! What is happening to you?!” Finn murmurs nervously and my father walks to Thor with Kevin smirking at me.

I missed him so much and I need him here! I have no clue as to how he came but I am glad he did! I feel safe with him but my side, I can be calm and honest with him and he knows me better than almost everyone in here!

“Thor, thank you for being worried for Cleo but the doctor is trying to help her and we have to listen to him! I don’t want to go out either but I have to, so you better do the same thing! We are all tired and frustrated here, let’s keep things simple!” my dad says clearly angry (I know this tone and I don’t like it, this means deep s**t) and with this, Thor seems to step back.

Thanks Goddess there is still some brain in his almost empty head!

He nods timidly but not happy and gives a meaningful look to the doctor and then to Kevin that is staring at him in a challenging way.

I hope they stop it the sooner because I don’t need my parents getting suspicious here! I know Kevin wants only to protect me and he hates Thor and Thor with his turn is somehow jealous of Kevin but my parents mustn’t know about Thor and me and…

WAIT!

This is it!

I think I remember something! I felt that…

He marked her! He did!

This is why I couldn’t fight those rogues!

Yes!

And the wolf came, he was there with me and I gave him my necklace, I told him I love him!

Everything is clear now…

~flashback~

I am in front of my grandma’s house and I have just mind linked Gabriel to tell him about the rogues because William and Thor didn’t reply when the first rogue reaches and jumps on me but I stand on my two back legs, hit him on the jaw with my right paw and send him two meters back.

A second rogue makes his attack on me and this time I jump on him before he tries it and I land on him and it is not difficult for me to press my sharp nails in his throat and leave him dead.

A third rogue growls from my right and I turn to him but about seven more rogues jump all around me from the woods and I get in a bigger grade of alert because this means too many troubles if not death!

Clea roars to me to watch out because the rogue is too close now and I take my position but then I feel a strong wave of pain accompanied from a burning on my heart and I lose my breath.

It is the first time I feel something like this and I freeze, I can’t move, the shock is huge and before I react or realize what is happening the rogue is biting my right arm and soon the others run to us with deadly intentions.

The pain gets stronger and more intense and that burning is travelling all over my body!

“Thor!” Clea screams being in more pain than me and it hits me like a flash…

He is marking her!

He did it and now I can’t move enough, my strength is leaving me, I feel like I am going to have spasms too soon and the only thing I am trying to do as the rogues are reaching us is to protect my neck and my head.

I have no idea what I am doing, my vision is blurred and the next second they are tearing me everywhere expect from my head and neck and Clea howls in pain with the rogues growling.

I think I can feel their teeth cutting my flesh and the pain makes me kneel.

I feel nothing than pain and soon I get too dizzy! I think I am passing out but some more howls sound and I am almost sure the rogues are leaving me because I fall on the ground with the rain falling heavily on me.

I have my eyes closed, I can’t open them and I smell my blood and nothing else. I am having spasms now as the burning is everywhere and I listen to my bones cracking as I am shifting back to my human form.

I am not sure about what is happening but I listen to lots of howls, growls and generally noises and Clea’s howls stop, I don’t feel her anymore, I am alone and she is gone!

I leave out a loud cry full of despair and force myself to open my eyes although it seems pointless for me to try it but after some seconds I somehow make it and the first and only thing I see is…

His eyes!

The wolf, he came to me!

He kneels on me, his big, bright silver eyes are shining in the dark and all I can distinguish is agony, pain and fear.

My pain feels not so strong anymore, all I am trying to do is focus on the wolf that lays down next to me in a try to keep me warm or help me somehow and I give him a weak smile.

That’s all I can do for now, I am too lost and I keep on listening to noises around us, growls, howls, bones breaking, footsteps but I do not care because I need to do something, I can’t risk it, I may die and I want him to know, he has to have it, it’s his!

I force myself to move my hands at any cost! At first it feels too hard because my body is not listening to me, no matter how much effort I put, I can’t move them even an inch and the wolf opens his eyes widely in confusion.

I press my lips together and try even harder. I focus on the wolf, only on him because he is my power now, my motivation and after a while I manage to move them towards my neck.

I leave out another loud cry as a new wave of pain hits me but this also helps me because I leave my hands fall and land on my neck.

I ignore the battle that seems to continue taking place around us and I move my hands at the back of my neck with my eyes never leaving his. I am drown in him, my heart is breaking but at the same time it feels like the pieces are fighting to stick back together like an unknown power is controlling them.

I manage to take my necklace, the heart in my hands and I see the wolf’s eyes widen even more following the necklace. It’s like he knows how important this is for me and I wish I could tell him everything but I don’t have time…

At least if I die, he will know, he will have it!

I push myself up to my limits getting at the final part and with slow movements I pull the necklace close to his mouth.

It is his from now on and now I have to tell him! I don’t want to leave this world without telling him!

I cry out again with the burning in my heart getting even more intense and gasp for air. I am running out of oxygen and I have no other choice than tell him the sooner and open my mouth with the wolf even closer to my face, he is almost touching me.

“This… Is… M… Heart, it’s… Yours now…” I whisper trembling and although my vision is blurred I think I can see some tears falling from his eyes.

“I… Love… You!” I add and feel my heart exploding in my chest.

I have never felt anything like this and this is the last thing I could take because his eyes are the last thing I see and…

Everything turns black!

~end of flashback, present~

He was there with me and he was not alone! He had other wolves with him, they were fighting and he was keeping me warm, he was above me and I gave him my heart, he has it, he knows!

Oh my Goddess!

I did it, I told him and I don’t regret it! I really love him and now I know he deserves my love, he deserves my heart and I am sure he is going to take care of it!

I need to see him again, I have to but how?

“Cleo? What is it? You got pale!” Kevin asks bringing me back to reality in a quite ‘violent’ tone and I gasp panicked while snapping my head to him.

They are all staring at me worried, even the doctor and I guess my expression is the problem!

Damn you Cleo!

Focus and be patient for a little bit longer!

You have to know what happened! The wolf was there with more wolves! What if they saw them?

FUCK!

“I…Am fine…” I mutter forcing myself to smile weakly and Thor takes one steps to me but Finn and my dad get in front of him and Kevin finds the opportunity to close his eye to me smiling.

“Okay baby! We are leaving you alone, the sooner the doctor checks on you, the better!” my mother says walking to the door and Finn pulls Thor with him as my dad looks at me for one last time and leaves with Kevin after I smile again to them.

That was close…

The door closes some seconds later and the doctor turns to me with a worried smile and walks to my bed to sit on it next to me.

He says nothing for some seconds, he is not moving, he is just looking at me and I think I blush although I don’t feel uncomfortable. There is something sweet on him, he is calm and he seems to be honest, he is not pretending!

“I am glad you are alright and you woke up so soon! I thought it would take you more but you are a very strong woman, a quite surprising patient! Do you remember what happened?” he begins after a while and I freeze once he asks me.

And what do I do now?

What am I going to tell him?

I don’t want to say anything stupid and I can’t tell him about Thor and what he did!

Perfect Cleo! You are going to keep on lying to cover that asshole but at least you are going to say nothing for the wolf, you are going to protect his existence.

I groan worried not knowing what to say and he shakes his head in understanding. He taps my hand extremely gently and I am impressed he is not hurting me and then leans closer to me.

“Delta Finn found you almost unconscious in your human form last night at your grandma’s house! You had killed the rogues but you got heavily injured, you lost lots of blood and he brought you here in time! Did I help you remember?” he says next and I sigh relieved nodding as much as I can.

YES!

Finn didn’t see him of else he would have said it already, thanks Goddess!

And they all think I got injured from the fight and not because Thor marked that b***h and I couldn’t fight or protect myself because I was in great pain!

Well, I am sure the guys know, it is not so difficult for them to think about it and he also knows but I don’t care as long as nobody else knows!

Perfect!

“Okay, so… Your father gave blood for you but your body suffered a lot and it is going to take you some hours to stop being in pain! I think it won’t take you long to recover completely but your body is going to decide about it! I can give you something to ease the pain a little bit although! Also, you are going to be dizzy the next hours but it is logical and you probably won’t be able to eat! You can try with some soups, I will be here but I want you to know everything. I don’t want you to get up for any reason and there is a small possibility of you to throw up some times and if you see blood when you do, don’t get worried, it’s logical and it won’t last for more than two days! Once you start to eat, your stomach is going to be fine, it just needs some time!” he explains and I nod again.

Well, I was worse than I had imagined!

Fucking awesome!

“And I would like to ask you if you feel your wolf! We are sure she is alright because she has almost healed you but I want to know if you feel her presence!” he continues and I am about to get panicked realizing I haven’t talked to Clea yet but he prevents me and gives my hand a soft squeeze.

“She is fine, I assure you! Just try to talk to her and tell me if she is responding somehow!” he says encouragingly and I bite my lower lip worried yet defeated.

If he says so I have to trust him and I hope he is right or else I am going to kill Thor and then I am going to die!

If I lose Clea, I will be done!

I can’t live without her, we are one!

I exhale doing my best to get rid of my nervousness and ignore the pain, I don’t care about it anymore.

“Clea? Please, tell me you are here!” I say scared and call her for some seconds in agony.

If she doesn’t reply, I will…

“Mmm, I’m here…” he mutters after a while with no response from her and I smile emotional ready to cry from relief.

“You scared me!” I whisper holding back a sob and she purrs unable to say more.

She is dizzy and weak I guess, she healed me so I have to give her some time but how can I complain about it when she is not gone for good?!

“She’s dizzy!” I whisper touched and the doctor smiles brightly.

“Great! And now, how are you?” he asks immediately and I stiffen.

Mmm, this is a difficult question because I have a lot to think about but anyway!

“It hurts a lot to be honest… And I am still confused!” I reply truthfully.

“This is completely normal, don’t worry and don’t pressure yourself, take your time! Okay?” he says and I nod.

Like I can do otherwise you know…

“Also… I would like us to talk about something else, this is why I wanted us to stay alone!” he continues but this time he’s whispering and I narrow my eyes worried.

Why do I have the feeling I am f****d?

“Yes?” I murmur and he gives a quick look at the door and then turns to me with a nervous expression.

My heart is going to explode, it hurts more now!

“Who knows you are the rightful Luna?” he whispers and I cough shocked to groan again from the pain.

What did I tell you?

Why do I have to be so damn unlucky?

You are f****d Cleo but you can’t lie to him! You can’t deny it, he is serious, he is not playing here and maybe Thor the asshole told him! It is pointless to step back now, you can’t!

“How do you know?” I ask running out of patient because I am getting desperate here and he shakes his head in frustration, he is getting mad.

Really now?

I should be mad, well I am but I think I should be at least furious!

Everything is Thor’s fault, he is nature’s biggest mistake and I am cursed I had him as for my mate! At least we aren’t mates anymore, he marked the w***e and now I am completely free, not that I wasn’t before but now it’s more official!

“I am a doctor, it is my job to be observational, I combined lots of things, I read your file… I know you are one of the best young fighters our Kingdom has so… You couldn’t protect yourself in the end when he was marking… Her… And I was informed you want to leave the pack as well, I saw his behavior… It was not so difficult!” he replies and I press my lips together in acceptance.

He is very clever and he is a doctor, he is right! It’s his job to think of everything and especially of the smallest details.

“I would like to you tell nobody about it, please…” I whisper and he shakes his head in agreement.

“Don’t worry, I won’t! I want to tell you that I am here for you, I never liked Thor anyway… I am older than you and him but I remember you when you were kids, he was always an ass and you… You are my Luna no matter what he did and I am going to do anything you want! I am going to support you, all you have to do is just ask me!” he says and it’s my turn to squeeze his hand smiling grateful.

I do believe him and I feel great to know he is going to support me because I just took some more decisions! I will have to talk with David again anyway but I am sure he is going to support me and I need some rest!

I am not worried about my health, I know what happened, the doctor told me it was serious, I feel it as well but I need time away from everyone because I need a break!

I want to spend some days peacefully with people I know that love me and I need to change environment! I was planning to do it, I wanted to leave with Kevin and what happened now won’t stop me, in fact this is forcing me to leave with him the sooner!

My heart needs peace to heal because what Thor did broke me in a weird way! I don’t feel betrayed, I was feeling this way at the beginning but not now! This moment I feel he hates me and it somehow hurts yet gets me mad because I did nothing to him, I respected his wish although it was killing me and I just didn’t accept to become his toy later when he began behaving abnormally!

I feel hurt because he meant his threat, he made me bleed, he was serious, he wanted to take his revenge for me staying with Kevin, he feels no love at all for me, he forgot the days we were friends and I didn’t want to believe it before, I was trying to deny it and this is what broke my heart now!

I don’t know why he hates me that much! He is always confusing me, he is changing his behavior all the time and I am tired of these games! He wants me to stay here and suffer, he doesn’t want me for his mate and he wants Lillian but he also wants to have me here and be close to me only when he want and however he want!

With few words he wants to have it all but he is willing to give nothing and all this is bullshit!

He doesn’t want me happy, he just wants me to suffer for him and accept his selfish behavior and I was not fine with it, I reacted and this is why he chose to take his revenge and I choose to take care of myself from now on!

I don’t give a damn s**t about him!

I am leaving and I am sure the King is going to agree with me and give me some weeks to relax and have some fun at Kevin’s but I need the doctor’s help us well, he has to allow me to go, I can’t go otherwise…

“Doctor…” I state determinate and he signs for me to continue noticing I want to say more.

Here we are Cleo! Do it! Take care of yourself because you have to, you owe it to you, your family and friends! Leave from here and be happy, you can make it, heal yourself on your own!

“Actually, I want to ask something important from you!” 

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Hello my dear friends!

This is the 17th chapter, Cleo is awaken and she is probably stronger and more determinate than ever although what happened to her!

I know this chapter doesn't have so many incidents but don't worry! The next one is going to be strong, this was just a small taste of the new Cleo and what she is capable of doing, Thor is going to be shocked!

I really need to know your thoughts and feelings so please let me know!

What do you think about this chapter? What about everybody's reactions? What about the doctor? Do you like him? How do you feel about Thor's behavior (he seems to be overprotective)? And how do you feel about how Cleo feels about the wolf? What her decisions and plans? What is going to happen next?

Thank you very much for everything, your love, support, commends and impatience in order to read the next chapter! I also read all the comments and I try to answer them the sooner so I am sorry if I am delaying it sometimes because my memory is not very well, I am reading everything and I love it! I am trying my best so please continue showing me how much you want more and commend and tell me your opinion.

This is it for now, I will see you again in the next chapter or in my other books! Until then stay safe, smile and have fun!

I love you all very much,

                               Marie!