Ronan grunted in vexation, the restless energy thrumming beneath his skin a relentless tormentor. Sleep, it seemed, was a cruel mistress tonight, deliberately withholding its solace.
The digital clock on his bedside table glowed a sterile 2:00 AM, the digits mocking his inability to find peace. His mind, usually a fortress of calm and calculated strategy, was now a chaotic battlefield, besieged by images of Alma.
Her tear-streaked, pouting face haunted him, twisting his gut. Then came the flash of her bruised n*****s, a small, angry red mark that Dante's cruel touch had left behind.
Shit, he hissed, rolling onto his back and staring at the ornate ceiling, seeing nothing but the ghost of her flushed skin. The anger at Dante still simmered, a low, persistent burn, but beneath it, a far more unsettling truth writhed its way to the surface. He knew Dante was right.
He hated to admit it, refused to acknowledge it, even in the privacy of his own thoughts, that Alma, without even trying, turned him on immensely.
It was a dangerous admission, a forbidden desire that he had meticulously walled off, building layers of brotherly duty and protector's responsibility around it.
Alma was family. She was theirs to safeguard, a fragile bloom in their brutal garden. Yet, every time she moved with that unconscious grace, every time her laughter echoed through the halls, every time her innocent eyes met his, a flicker ignited deep within him, a primal heat he ruthlessly suppressed.
He clenched his fists, knuckles white against the dark sheets. The thought of Dante's words, his sneering challenge, was a poison in his veins. "Do you honestly think her behavior, the way she dresses, doesn't turn you on?" The memory of Alma lifting her blouse, revealing her vulnerability, her trust, and the painful mark Dante had inflicted... it had stirred something dark and possessive within him.
Not the cold, calculated cruelty of Dante, but a visceral, protective rage intertwined with an uncomfortable, unwanted yearning. It was a volatile cocktail.
He sat up abruptly, throwing his legs over the side of the bed. The silk pajamas felt suddenly suffocating.
"This is stupid," he hissed to the empty room, the words a desperate plea for normalcy.
He needed to wash away the thoughts, to douse the insidious heat that had taken root.
With a decisive jerk, he stripped off his pajamas, letting them fall in a heap on the marble floor. His body, honed and muscled from years of rigorous training, felt restless, coiled tight with a tension that only physical exertion could usually alleviate.
Tonight, however, it was a different kind of tension, one that resonated deep within his bones, originating not from the demands of their empire but from the unspoken, forbidden desires Dante had so casually laid bare.
He strode into the bathroom, the cool marble tiles a welcome shock beneath his bare feet. He turned the shower knob to its coldest setting, wincing slightly as the icy spray instantly blasted from the rain shower head.
He stepped under it, letting the freezing water cascade over his head and shoulders, gasping as the initial shock stole his breath. It was a baptism, an attempt to purify, to wash away the insidious thoughts and the undeniable truth that clung to him like a second skin.
He closed his eyes, tilting his head back, letting the frigid torrent assault him, hoping it would numb the part of his mind that was fixated on Alma, on the dangerous, alluring paradox she represented in their ruthless lives. He just needed to forget. Just for a few hours.
*******
Zade moaned, a low sound that vibrated through his body, raw and primal. His eyes rolled to the back of his head, lost in a haze of sensation, his body rocking with the escalating pleasure as he massaged his erection in his hand.
The images flooded his mind, unbidden and insistent. Her eyes, wide and innocent, yet so expressive. Those pouty lips, trembling with suppressed tears one moment, curving into a bright smile the next.
And then, the vivid, infuriating image of her reddened n*****s, a stark, angry testament to Dante's cruelty, yet undeniably, maddeningly, alluring.
He came hard, a guttural cry tearing from his throat, spilling onto his hand, splattering across his chest.
His body heaved, breath coming in ragged gasps as he lay back in his bed, the aftermath a heavy, sticky warmth against his skin. The immediate intensity faded, leaving behind a profound sense of unease.
"f**k. This is not good," he mumbled into the stillness of his room, the words a rough whisper against the sudden quiet. A chilling realization, like a cold, venomous serpent, uncoiled in his gut, its presence undeniable.
Dante was right.
The admission clawed at him, tearing at the carefully constructed walls he'd built around his desires. He'd always prided himself on his control, his ability to separate the dangerous undercurrents of their world from the sanctity of their home. Alma was supposed to be the exception, the one untouched by their inherent darkness.
He was the gentle one, the reassuring presence, the one who offered comfort where Dante offered cruelty. But Dante's brutal honesty had ripped away the veil, exposing the raw, undeniable truth.
Alma was not just their responsibility; she was a temptation. A constant, alluring presence that stirred something deeply primal within him, something he had rigorously denied. He had seen the way his own gaze lingered on her, the subtle softening of his voice, the almost imperceptible tilt of his head when she spoke. He had attributed it to paternal affection, to a brother's protective instinct. But tonight, that thin veneer had shattered. The guilt was a heavy weight, pressing down on his chest, suffocating him. Guilt for his own thoughts, for his body's betrayal, and for the sickening realization that Dante, the very man he despised for his coldness, had seen him more clearly than he had seen himself.
He scrubbed a hand over his face, trying to wipe away the lingering haze of pleasure, the self-loathing curdling in his stomach. This wasn't how it was supposed to be. Alma was a symbol of what little purity remained in their lives, a fragile hope in a world consumed by shadows.
And he, Zade, the protector, the gentle giant, was now just as compromised as Dante had so gleefully implied. The idea sickened him. He had always believed he was different, that his control was absolute. But the vivid images, the unbidden desire, had proven him terrifyingly wrong.
The night stretched out before him, a vast, oppressive expanse. Sleep remained an elusive fantasy, replaced by the disquieting echo of Dante's words and the damning evidence of his own forbidden lust. Alma, unknowingly, had become a dangerous spark in their volatile household, and Zade knew, with a horrifying certainty, that the fire was only just beginning to spread.