I made a pregnant girl stand outside in the cold air and worry about me. While I came here with her husband, who has been begging me to take him back because his marriage is all pretend. Clearly, it wasn't all pretend. I do understand their reasoning. They had to do it. Now I am lying here in the most comfortable bed I have slept in in the last two years and I can't get my mind to be quiet for even a second so that I can enjoy it. How am I supposed to relax when the only guy I ever loved is in the next room with his lesbian, pregnant wife? Yes, they can help me with the program, but is it worth it? Is it worth sacrificing my sanity? That is what I would have to give up when I do this because no sane, rational person would do this. All I can see in my future is heartache and a lot of offeri

