When Love Prevails

Chapter 1

Chapter 1

Inside of a cold dark room. The four corners of this room witnessed all my sufferings, miseries and agonies. Every fall of my tears gushing from my eyes and how I wiped it away. Should I end my life here? Because I don't know what to do anymore. I want to rest. Forever. Just come to think of it.

No one knows about my pain.

No one knows about my struggles.

No one knows what I am feeling.

No one cares.

Literally, no one.

I'm tired. Tell me how to live with this kind of life.

"Shendaya! Go down here! You have nothing to do but to lock yourself in your room! Drown yourself in your bed with your phone?! You do not know anything, you lazy worthless kid!" Mom's voice thundered downstairs. That was her usual voice whenever she's calling me.

A felt a slight pang on my chest. I closed my eyes and sighed heavily. I stared at the book that I'm holding. I love reading novels. You can tell that this is just a waste of time but for me, this is my escape from reality.

I am currently reading a novel about a man who is willing to protect the woman he loves no matter what happens. He's willing to sacrifice everything for her. He'll fight for her no matter what. He wants happiness for his girl. He was not leaving even though he got no attention. The girl was in a deep problem but he's staying by her side. He's staying even though the girl was pushing him away. He's hurting as he sees his girl suffered.

Who wouldn't adore such a man? How I wish this fictional character would exist. Can I have someone like him? I need someone like him. I need him but I know that's hella impossible. He's a fiction.

"I'm leaving doing some errands. When your Dad arrives, just let him, he's probably with his mistress right now. Damn him!" Mom slammed the door as she stormed out of the house.

After a few minutes, I heard nothing but silence in our house. I looked at the ceiling to prevent my tears from falling, once again. But it seems like nothing can stop it when I remember what just happened today. I closed my eyes as I recall what happened.

I woke up because of my cellphone's vibration. Someone texted me. I brushed my sleepy eyes as I looked at my phone to check the time. It was already 11:35 in the morning. I was shocked because it was almost lunch! I do not have any idea what time I fell asleep last night because I cried myself overnight. I was planning not to open the message but when I had a glimpse of who it was, I quickly arise.

Ken:

Let's meet.

It was just a short message from him but it got me excited.

Ken is my boyfriend, we're not in good terms these past few days. He's also the reason why I'm crying every single night so I'm now surprised because he wants us to meet. I quickly dress up, I fixed myself and put light make up. My swollen eyes due to crying were still evident as I was forced to wear sunglasses. I should make myself beautiful in front of him. He probably missing me. I giggled.

Ken texted where we will meet and that was our usual spot. So I rode a taxi after I got myself prepared. I went there immediately, good thing he was quick to look for. He's tall, white and handsome, no one could not notice him. He's sitting in one of the benches under the Narra tree. So the moment his gaze darted at me, I immediately flashed a smile.

Today is Feb 13, 2020. Our first anniversary since we became official. This is one of the best days of my life!

"Hi, babe! Happy first anniversary!" I greeted cheerfully. Then I giggled.

I was about to hug him when he stepped backward. I was stunned when I saw his serious face and it gives me a pang on my chest. I know we're not in good shape but I thought we're gonna fix our situation right now.

"Let's break up," he said with his voice as cold as ice.

"What?" I stuttered, shocked. But I still made a chuckle while shaking my head. I don't believe him, you know. He loves me so much.

"Shen, I'm serious," so he added.

My eyes widened while looking at him. I shook my head and not immediately processed that he left those words. He avoided a look. I felt my tears at the edge of my eyes. Am I dreaming? My boyfriend won't leave me. Today is our first anniversary! He's just probably planning to surprise me?

"N-No... Please." I said with hopeful eyes.

"Look, Shen, I love someone else. While we're in a relationship, I have another girl. I'm just afraid to tell you because this might hurt you. I'm confused." He struggled for words.

But who am I fooling? I could see in his eyes that he wants us to end here.

"K-Ken, do you love me?" I asked him instead. I don't need those explanations, I just wanna know if he does really love me.

He cheated, wasn't he? What a fool, Shendaya!

"Yes, but I love her more. I'm sorry." He looked on the ground. Avoiding my teary eyes.

I swallowed hard and slowly nodded. I breathe deeply to stop myself from crying. I didn't expect this day would come, I thought we would be together forever. I love him so much and I don't want to lose him in my life. But what else can I do if someone stole his heart already?

He stared at me. "I'm sorry..." he said.

I smiled. I forced myself to smile to show how I'm perfectly okay. He couldn't see my eyes though, because I'm wearing sunglasses. But I know my tears were shamelessly falling on my cheeks, down to my jaw as it reached the ground.

"Okay," I mumbled.

"Aren't you going to shout at me? Will you not hurt me? Slap me?" Surprised, he said those words. He was just guilty of why he's saying this.

"How can I hurt you when I'm also hurt? I have no power to do that." I said matter-of-factly. "Thank you for every little effort you've done for me," I said as I turned away from him. Maybe this was enough. No, I had enough. I know he was just waiting for me to give up on our relationship. I don't want to leave him so he makes his move instead. No way I could stop him from slipping away from me if he's being held by somebody else.

Before I could go far, I stopped where I was walking. I sighed deeply and looked up the sky.

"Oh, God. I need love."

I come home but the time I arrived at the door I heard a commotion inside. It's not new to me though.

"You get out! You filthy womanizer jerk! Fvck you! Get out of this house!" Mommy's voice was heard around the house. I think it was also heard by the neighbor.

"What are you saying? You accusing me wrong!" It was my Dad.

"How many times have you been in another woman! They say they see you with different women! How could you?!"

The shout was silenced a few minutes. I thought it was okay but I heard a lot of broken appliances, plates and glass after a while.

"GET OUR OF HERE! YOU f*****g LIAR!"

I swallow hard and turned away. I want to get out of here. I want to get out of reality. I need someone to lean on but I only have myself.

"I need love..."

I looked at my cellphone when one of my friends texted me.

"This is so fun! Hope you're here. Well, enjoy your time with your boyfriend!" It was Agatha.

There was a picture included evident that they're in a mall. They were bothering me yesterday to come but I refused. I should be with them right now but I have chosen to be with my boyfriend who only fooled me. My friends... they have been left with me.

So I decided to go to the mall where my friends were. I memorize the places so I can easily found for them. They were in the clothing line, as usual. I was about to show up secretly to surprise them but I heard my name they were talking about.

"Shen is an i***t. She thought Ken was serious about her," I heard Carie stated.

"She's stupid. She's been fooled by Ken for a long time yet she didn't even notice it. She's so full of herself, she deserves it." Agatha laughed.

"What do you think? We're they already broke up?" Rein giggled.

Damn. The only thing I could say was, my friends were backstabbers.

I felt a stabbed on my chest after hearing their conversation. s**t. So this is who really they are. I never waste time to show up to them. I had enough. I was so crushed. I am so tired of all of these. There is nothing left with me.

My boyfriend. Ex-boyfriend rather.

My family.

My friends. Backstabber friends.

They ain't real.

I'm all alone. I don't even know if I can carry on. I'm losing myself. I am so tired of everything in my life.

"Oh, God. I need love. Give me love, please."

I don't know where to go anymore. I whispered to myself. I didn't think twice, I ran out of the mall while crying. I wipe my tears and didn't aware that I was about to bump into someone.

"I'm sorry, miss." I heard a man's baritone voice. 

I didn't give a damn to everything happening around me. I felt so numb. I don't care about my surroundings! I just want to disappear at this point.

I opened my swollen eyes. And with just one snap, I found myself holding a rope. Tied in the ceiling of my room. My eyes were full of tears. Thrilled. Wrecked. Weak. I stepped on the chair and tightened my grip holding a rope. I honor to think that the four corners of my room witnessed this scene. Me, a cold lifeless body. No one knows what I will be doing. When I lost, they would be surely happy. And maybe, when I lost, I would feel the love I was looking for.

I closed my eyes to recall the last line of the man said in a book I finished reading...

"I'm here to protect you, heal you, fix you, love you, and care for you that no one can give. I will always be part of your world."

How I wish he could exist. 

I wiped my tears with the back of my palm before I slowly lift my one feet. I was ready to remove the chair I was standing in. When it fell, I would be gone in this cruel world. I will finally escape from this misery.

"Please, save me..."

That was the last words I whispered before shoving the chair to stop myself from breathing.

But I was surprised nothing happened. The chair I kicked was not completely fell down. It was like it was glued on the floor so my foot was still on. I looked at the whole surroundings. Everything halted. The chair I'm stepping, the rope I'm holding while my neck still on didn't move. Even the dust and smallest particle in my room stopped. It was the most peaceful moment of my life.

Until I heard someone whispered in my ears. "I'll give you a chance to live... with love."

Then abruptly, everything went black.

To be continued...