My Illicit Hiraeth

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"Blaaaaaiiireee", Annie's scream greeted us when we arrived on the field.

"Blaire hi, how – oh my! You're wearing the same shirt, are you a couple or something?"

I knew it. It will definitely be an issue. I should just change, there is probably a mall nearby. Or even just stalls.

"No no! It's just a coincidence. What are you saying? We just met yesterday". I defended myself as I walked onto the field.

Raxe looks like a stump just walking with us. He didn't talk. He was really just walking. I don’t know what’s going on with him.

"Raxe, you look old! Why are you so grumpy?" Annie asked again, this child really had a lot to ask. I sometimes think it's better to tape her mouth.

"I don't know with Blaire."

I looked at him in shock. Why me? I did nothing wrong to him.

"Are you having an LQ? You look cute haha"

I just ignored them, and went to Jameson who was fixing the camera. Jameson is also a Filipino, like me and gay. He just doesn't show it because he doesn't seem ready yet. Some people thought he is my boyfriend. But we made it clear that we're just good friends.

"Jameson! Wooo you're here already?

"You b*tch! What? Are you already sharing the same love? That couple shirt looks's eiw*

"What are you talking about? I didn't know that I was going to participate in what they were going to do, so I wore corporate attire. He just lent me these! Why are you people thinking we're in some kind of a relationship?"

"Really? Then why do you have to wear couple outfit? He could've lent you other outfits, and that looks new. Besides, who's the fool who didn't read the memo?"

"The thing is, Mr. Henry e-mailed me, he said I'd be here to just supervise, so I didn't read it, what's the point anyway?"

"Okay, so that's why. The boss sends you messages uh-huh. Should I replace Rapunzel's hair with yours? It seems really long, doesn't it?"

"Whatever you butterfly! So are we just gonna capture natural moments?"

"Yes, but you are going to feature it. Just make a brief introduction. "

"Ahh"

"Why? You want it scripted?" he said with a teasing smile.

I rolled my eyes at him and went to Aunt Myrtha.

"Oh Blaire! It's good that you thought of passing by home earlier"

"Yes, I hope I didn't pass by, you're here anyway. By the way,auntie, is there a mall near here? Or even just stalls? I didn't notice on our way here. I fell asleep". I asked her to change the topic. She may have something to say about our outfits again.

"There is, on the next block. Second block after you leave the subdivision. Why? Do you have to buy something?"

"Ahh no,not me, Jameson the cameraman."

My God! I can't believe I have to lie.

"All right auntie, excuse me for a while"

I looked at Raxe on the side who was typing on his cellphone before approaching Jameson. Maybe he's texting his girlfriend in the Philippines. Well, I don't care anyway.

"Jameson, can you come with me to the mall? I have to buy something"

Jameson can't really say no to me, because I'm the only one who knows his secret. Well, this caterpillar is good at keeping his identity, so no one has ever noticed it yet. That's why I'm this confident in blackmailing him, because he has never said no to me.

"Where?" he asked

I told you! He just can't say no to me.

"Just there, outside the subdivision, let's g—"

"Where are you two going? Let's start"

I couldn’t finish what I was about to say because there was a sudden overflowing voice behind Jameson and me. The two of us looked back. I secretly pinched Jameson's waist.

"Uhm sir! I just have to buy something at the mall. I'll take Blaire with me"

"You could've bought it earlier. Why now? We don't have time"

"It's necessary for the filming sir. I'm sorry I was just really in a hurry earlier. I just received the memo this morning"

"Fine! Just hurry. Blaire, I will orient you on what you have to do" he said

"What? We are just going to film natural moments ! I don't need you to orient me. You're insulting me!"

"Do you expect yourself to be natural with me? Come on, the cameraman can buy what he needs by himself."

"Who do you think you are? Why can't I act naturally with you? If that's the case, you shouldn't have requested me in the first place! There are many of my workmates there who are better than me. Why did you ask me to accompany you?"

Freak, this is really what I hate the most. When people question my abilities! You can tell me anything you want, hate me all you want, but never question my ability!

"What are you going to buy?"

"You don't care. Who do you think you are? Why do I have to tell you everything?"

"Fine, I'm sorry. I'm just really pressured. Why are there a lot of them, Blaire? Am I too late?"

"What do you mean?"

"You go now. Come back right away" he said gently.

There is really something wrong with him. Sometimes he's angry at everything and the next second he's soft. Is he bipolar or something?

"Hi viewers from all over the world. This is again Blaire from Line Magazine. Thank you so much for the flood likes and views from our most recent interview with the Philippines' top star, Mr. Edmund Raxe Sevilla. But, the face of Mr.Sevilla in our magazine doesn't end with that.Now you are going to witness Mr. Sevilla's hidden sides. In the first episode of "The Raxe Behind The Stage".

"Cut! Okay Blaire, from here, I'll just shoot natural scenes. You join them for interactions with our magazine"

I just nodded because I'm really not in the mood. I also didn't buy clothes because that damn arrogant man tested my professionalism. Who does he think he is? He thinks I'm swayed by his charms, huh? You wish! What a thick-faced, arrogant, strict and grumpy old guy! He thought I couldn't end the day with these damn couple shirts thingy? You wish asshole!

"Okay so, from this moment until the end of the shoot you don't have to understand the script or anything, just do your thing. I'll take care of everything" Jameson said to all of us...

"What are we going to do?" I asked them.

"Do you play soccer? Or football?" Raxe in a gentle voice

"Do I look like a player?"

He sighed and looked down. What is this man's problem, really?

"Okay, we'll just play hide and seek then and we'll eat after or maybe stroll around"

I just shrugged my shoulders. "The choice is yours."

He just nodded and talked to everyone about what we would do today. Everyone decided to play hide and seek. It's lucky that there are also trees around here.

"Okay guys, so Raxe is the one to seek because this is his idea" I said, so we don't have to waste time.

They all agreed because they also wanted to make him a slave for today, huh! Poor Raxe!

"Okay, close your eyes first, then I'll turn you around three times, then you count to twenty", I told him, then I turned him around.

We talked about where we would hide while Raxe was counting. I said I was going to hide in the stall selling clothes. Annie in the flower shop and then Bryan on the slide on the side. There is something like a dog house up on the slide, just like a small house.

When it turned 10, we ran to our hiding place. I hid under the hung clothes so I could see what was happening to them. I saw Raxe chasing the trees. He hid first before jumping behind the tree as if startled. There was no one in the back, so he just looked like a fool. I really chose to sit there so I could see what he was doing. Why? I no longer want to ask myself.

I saw Raxe approaching my hiding place, so I squeezed to the very side. Jameson also followed him, poor gay.

"Blaire!"

"Blaire, come out, I'm nervous."

Huh? What is he saying? I heard the vendors of this stall giggling, so I widened my eyes and told them not to make any noise.

But I was shocked when I looked back and saw Raxe's face smiling at me. I don't know, but my heart is pounding. Maybe because I was really surprised.

I finally realized that we were staring at each other, so I stood up immediately but I almost slipped. Fortunately, he held my waist. I felt awkward so I distanced from him quickly.

"Hahaha! You quickly found me" I said while clapping my hands I feel like a fool here.

"Pffft" I heard Jameson holding back his laughter.

"Have you found Annie?" I asked him to change the topic. But it seemed like his soul explored somebody else's body, he was left dumbfounded.

"Come on, let's find them."

"Ahh yes" he said, as if he was out of his mind. Why does he have to hide with a smile behind me? He could've just shouted my name when he found me.

We ended the game with both our bodies floating in the air. I felt like I was electrified when we looked at each other, so I just sat by the side and let him look for Annie and Bryan.

"That's enough and let's eat first" Auntie Myrtha shouted from the kiosk. They brought food so we could have our lunch here. We also brought food, because our company usually provides us with a budget whenever we have shootings or even meetings.

"Guys, let's eat first" I shouted at the three of them who were chasing each other. Bryan seems to be teasing Annie and her face looks so defeated.

I approached Jameson who was still filming the three of them.

"Let's eat first, we can continue that later."

"No, I have to film you eating. It's okay, you can go ahead first. I'm not hungry yet."

"Are you sure, I can take over and film for now"

"Then what? They're gonna see me on the camera, and ask who the hell I am, and be attacked by the media again for this very gorgeous face?"

"Maybe it's okay if I don't show up for a while. Besides, I won't show your face either", I convinced him. He has hyperacidity, so Jameson really has to always bring food for him. He can't just let his hunger be.

"You know what will happen to you if you don't eat at the right time, Jameson! Can you not act lik—"

"Blaire, come on!"

I couldn’t finish what I was saying because Raxe’s voice dominated from behind us.

"Wait a minute sir, you go first". I looked at him for a moment and gave Jameson my full attention again.

"All right, Jameson, you eat first. Just prevent yourself from danger. I don't want to clean your vomi—ajisiaudbdgedgdgehiw"

"All right, I'm going to eat", Jameson surrendered before handing me the camera.

I checked it, before following them when Raxe suddenly fake coughed.

"Oh sir! You're still here. Please go ahead sir. I'll take over Jameson for a bit. I'll be there later."

"Drop the sir! It's okay, Jameson can eat first. Let's eat together with mom after him."

Why does his line appear different to me? It seemed like his welcoming me to his family. What am I thinking? Erase ...... erase .......

"Raxe, Blaire! Where have you been? Let's eat, it's late already. You must be hungry."

"Later mama, after Jameson, he has to film us eating."

Jameson suddenly coughed. Oh, poor gay, h choked on his food. Bryan even scolded him because he asked him to reach for the water.

"Sit down first so we can talk."

"Blaire, here you are!" Annie pointed to the seat next to her with an adjacent vacant seat on the other side that was definitely for Raxe because there were no other vacancies.

I just smiled at her and sat down next to her. I felt Raxe following me. I just ignored him because I remembered that I had been mad at him a while ago.

"You're a beautiful young lady Blaire! Your boyfriend is so lucky to have you. Oh well, if you already have one. Do you have someone giving you butterflies, Blaire?" asked Aunt Myrtha

I noticed from my peripheral view that Raxe shifted on his chair. As if my love life is interesting.

"No, I don't have time for that, auntie, I'm too busy with work." I replied and she was so pleased that I don't know why

Raxe moved again, he looked at the other side for a while before facing the front and letting out a sigh.

"You want juice? What flavor do you want? No wait, you haven't had your lunch yet. Maybe you can get some water first. Wait here, I'll get you warm water."

We were all shocked by what Raxe said. Annie stopped typing on her cellphone. Aunt Myrtha smiled and Jameson's eyes widened, he's hands froze from supposedly eating the fried chicken. I, too, seemed to lose my brain for a moment and it flew from somebody else's dimension. What is Raxe saying?

"He's been whipped for the longest time, Blaire. And I think he's got the hint for the perfect time", auntie Myrtha said, and I didn't know what to say or what to do.