The Unexpected Wolf

It'll Hurt But It'll Be OK

Ashlynn’s POV

After my talk with Addy and Kayla everything seemed to speed up. Grey came back and told me his parent’s would be here the next day. As I was digesting this information my mom came in talking about wedding preparations.

The only thing I could do was just lay there and go with the flow. It honestly didn’t feel like I had much choice in this. It was going to happen no matter what I say or do. I felt like I was living someone else’s life.

I’m too overwhelmed with all of this so I just lean back and act like I’m asleep. Of course they didn’t even pay attention to me. Just kept on with their planning, never once asking if this is what I wanted.

When does it come to them realizing ‘hey this is Ashlynn’s day we need to ask if she's ok with what we are planning, or I guess we need the supposed bride's opinion on if she’s even ready for this.’ But no they keep going on like it’s their big day.

Well I guess it is Grey’s big day and I’m just along for the ride. When they finally left two hours later I felt relieved. “Addy, is this going to hurt? We’re going to be ok right?”

“What are you talking about Ashes, didn’t we just get done talking about this?” Came Addy’s reply. “I’m just worried about leaving Tucker, I can already feel that he’s going to be so lost without me and Kayla here so he can see us everyday.”

“It’s going to hurt us all, Trent’s also my mate. So in a way I’m leaving a quarter part of me. As long as we are here though he’s not giving his other mate a chance and it’s hurting both of them. By doing this we are giving us all something we wouldn’t have if we were to stay here.” Came Addy’s reply.

“Oh yeah what’s that? I can’t think of what we would need more than keeping the family together. I don’t think it’s right keeping Kayla away from her daddy. She’s already so attached to him it’s going to hurt her the most to not be able to talk to her daddy.” I replied, trying not to get too emotional.

“You can’t think of what we need, but it’s there sweetie. What we all need is a chance. Plus if Kayla wants to tell Tucker anything either one of us can pass it on to Tucker. Kayla is very smart, she talks to me all the time. If there’s something she wants to say but think’s it will hurt you she talks to me first.” Addy told me.

“Wait, you can get a hold of Tucker, how is that? I thought you had to be marked to contact his wolf? Is there something you're not telling me here Addy?” I asked smirking to her.

“What can I hide from you my dear Ashes? I’m you and you are me there’s nothing you do that I don’t know and nothing that I do that you don’t know. I can link Trent because we are mates nothing more.” Addy replied sweetly.

“Ok, I’ll believe you this time. I don’t think that’s the true reason though.” I told her. After talking to Addy for a little bit longer, I decided to lay down and try to sleep. Just as I was about to doze off I felt Kayla kick.

I couldn’t help but cry thinking Tucker should be here for this. Then when I started thinking about how many other first’s he’s going to miss I began to cry harder.

After my crying fit I asked the doctor to discharge me. I couldn’t take being in the hospital any longer. I just wanted to go home shower and take a good nap. He checked me over and said my bruises were healing very well so he saw no reason to keep me there.

I gathered up all my belongings and was out the door as fast as I could. I didn’t want him to change his mind. I snuck in the packhouse since I just wanted to be left alone at this point.

Rushing up to my room I snuck in as fast as I could. Grabbing my booty shorts and spaghetti strap pajamas I went to the bathroom and turned on the shower. I undressed so fast that even I was shocked, I’m not complaining though this is exactly what I needed.

First thing I did was grab my loofa and squirt some of my favorite melon cucumber body wash on it. Lathering up I felt Kayla kick again. I tried opening a mind link to her like her dad does, but I couldn’t. Frowning I finished my shower wondering why I couldn’t link my daughter but Tucker could.

When I got out and dressed I laid down in my bed but couldn’t get comfortable. Something kept pulling me towards Kayla’s room. So I got up and headed in there. To say I was shocked is an understatement.

Her crib was fully set up laying inside was a custom blanket. It had a rare colored wolf howling towards a glowing moon, underneath the wolf was the print daddy’s little girl. Walking to the closet I was amazed.There was onesies from newborn up to two years of age. Little pink dresses up til age five.

Picking up some of the newborn onesie I busted out crying at what it read. “Mommy’s little soccer player.” another read “Daddy’s ballerina.” I couldn’t read anymore. My emotions are going all over the place.

Knowing if I headed back to my bed I wouldn’t be able to fall asleep, I grabbed the blanket from the crib and went into Tucker's room. His scent immediately calming my nerves and I don’t know how but I could tell Kayla settled down as well.

I laid down on Tucker’s bed thinking I’d be here for just a few minutes. I guess I must have fallen asleep. I woke up to Tucker opening the door looking exhausted. “Hey Tuck, sorry I couldn’t sleep in my room and Kayla was becoming restless. She didn’t calm down until I came in here.” I told him not wanting him to think badly of me.

“How long have you been here? We’ve literally been looking for you all day. Your mom said she went to the hospital and found out you left. When she came here she didn’t see you in your room and panicked thinking someone took you again” Tucker replied.

“Really oh my goddess, I didn’t mean to cause any trouble. Kayla kept kicking then there was a pull to the nursery. Thank you by the way I love everything you’ve done. Then I felt the need for your scent so I came in here.” I told him now a little exasperated that I caused everyone to worry.

“Wait, Kayla was kicking and I missed it? Is that why you said she was restless?” Tucker asked. “Yeah it made me cry because you weren't there to feel it. I hate feeling like you’re missing her first’. I don’t want you missing anything when it comes to her.” I told him almost in tears again.

Tucker comes up to me wrapping his arms around me in a tight hug. “I’m right here Ash. I’m not going anywhere. I will be here for almost everyone of Kayla’s first’. We’ll share them together. There’s plenty of them to come around.” Tucker told me kissing my forehead.

“Tucker, I know you came to my room today and heard my parents talking to Grey. They didn’t care what I had to say and are setting the date. They want me to move to Grey’s pack since I’ve been getting shunned here.” I told him, with tears running down my face.

I felt Tucker stiffen then he asked, “ do you want to go Ash.” This is a hard one as I know it’ll hurt him but I have to be honest. “Yes and no. I don’t want to leave you and have you missing anything that happens with Kayla. The yes is I want to get to know Grey and you need to focus on Christa. I don’t want her thinking I’m trying to steal her mate.” I told him holding him tighter.

Tucker doesn’t say anything for a long time, we just stand there embracing each other. Finally I pull him to the bed and we lay down. We don’t say anything, just hold each other. Both of us lost in our thoughts and emotions.

Tucker pulled me closer and I could feel the tear’s he was trying to keep me from seeing falling on my shoulder. “ Please don’t take Kayla away from me. It’s bad enough I’m losing you I can’t lose her to. I wouldn't make it.” He said trying to contain his emotions.

“Tucker, look at me.” I said pulling away from him. “I would never take Kayla away from you. I will tell you everything about her. Somehow our wolves can talk to each other and Addy promised to pass messages along to Trent. Kayla is yours. I won’t keep anything about her from you. I’ll even make sure I’m here to give birth to her so you can be there.” I told him with tears running down my face.

Tucker just nodded then kissed the top of my head. “How’s this going to work? I want to be there every day of her life. The highlight of my day is telling her ‘good morning' and reading her a story before bed every night.” “I don’t know Tuck, but we need to give our mates a chance. We're going to hurt either ourselves or our mates. I don’t want to lose you, but I don’t want to hurt Grey either. I don’t know where to go from here.” I told him.

After that we just laid there still holding each other. The song “It’ll be ok” by Shawn Mendes running through my head. I couldn’t help but start singing it lowly to Tucker.

Are we gonna make it?

Is this gonna hurt?

Oh, we can try to sedate it

But that never works

Yeah

I start to imagine a world where we don't collide

It's making me sick, but we'll heal and the sun will rise

If you tell me you're leaving, I'll make it easy

It'll be okay

If we can't stop the bleeding

We don't have to fix it, we don't have to stay

I will love you either way

Ooh-ooh, it'll be oh, be okay

Ooh-ooh

Oh, the future we dreamed of is fading to black

Oh, there's nothing more painful

Nothing more painful, oh-woah

I start to imagine a world where we don't collide

And it's making me sick, but we'll heal and the sun will rise

If you tell me you're leaving, I'll make it easy

It'll be okay (It'll be okay)

And if we can't stop the bleeding

We don't have to fix it, we don't have to stay (don't have to stay)

I will love you either way

Ooh-ooh, it'll be oh, be okay

Ooh-ooh

I will love you either way

It might be so sweet

It might be so bitter

I will love you either way

It might be so sweet

It might be so bitter (ooh-ooh)

Oh, if the future we've dreamed of is fading to black

I will love you either way.

‘It’s kind of ironic how well that song fits this situation. Almost like it was written just for this scenario of my life that is falling apart around me. It hurts like a b*tch but at the end of the day, we don’t have to fix this, we’ll find a way to make it ok.’ I thought bitterly. I finished singing this to Tucker before we both fell asleep.