Hers

As Good as Death

Joanne's POV

I was taken away from Diana that day, and I was freaking out. Ripped away from what I know. Every time I come close to being used to a lifestyle, I am thrown into another one. It's out of hand, and this time it is far too much for me to handle.

I told Diana that day that I loved her. I didn't do it intentionally, it just slipped out. That night I had the most wonderful dream. It was so perfect, which is why I know it could never be true.

Flashback to dream:

"Joanne! You are not supposed to see this yet!!"

I wasn't supposed to be home yet, and I told Diana I would be out late with some friends. I had no clue that she got me a surprise!

I quickly put my hands over my eyes and said "I'm not looking. I'm sorry!"

She just sighed and said "Just look princess"

When I opened my eyes, I was blown away. I gasped and my eyes started tearing up.

In the middle of our big bedroom floor there were rose petals all over the place. In the center of the floor "Will you marry me?" was spelt out in more rose petals. There was a lot of chocolate and stuffed animals on the bed, and in front of my Diana was on her knee.

"I know it hasn't been too long with us knowing each other, but we have literally gone to hell and back. We did it together, and I plan and hope on doing a lot of other things together. Happier things. You are my happiness, my whole world, Joanne. I have come to trust you more than I trust myself and I can see how much trust you have in me.-"

By this point I was already sobbing.

"-We really make one another complete in the most surreal way. I can count on you with anything and everything. I couldn't think about spending my life with ANYONE else in this entire universe. You are my happiness, Joanne Stewart. Will you please make me the happiest person on this planet and marry me?"

I was lost for words. Or words were lost for me. I couldn't think straight, and it was hard to even comprehend what was happening. I looked into Diana's eyes and she was crying, which made it even more real to me.

I started shaking me head frantically.

"Yes. Yes! Of course I will marry you baby!"

Diana quickly slid the ring on my finger and stood up in record time. She kissed me on the lips very passionately.

Our tongues were fighting for dominance but I gave up because she always wins anyways. I was pushed onto the bed and she crawled up on top of me, taking off her shirt.

She then collided our mouths together once again, and this time it was full with love. It was so gentle, and her lips are so warm and plump.

She took off my shirt and started kissing down my neck and paid attention to my sensitive spot.

End of dream

I was quite upset at the fact the dream ended so early. When I awoke from it, I started bawling my eyes out. It seemed so real, only to be a part of my imagination.

Me and Diana have been here for 3 months now. Time is going by so fast, and the last time I saw her was that day. That was 2 months ago. Maybe even a little more than 2.

He refused to let me see her. He refused to let me even out of his sight. I was slowly losing hope everyday until one day, it was just all gone. I know I shouldn't give up so easily, but what's the point?

I wasn't just losing hope in Diana or escaping, but losing hope in myself.

My faith wasn't there anymore. My soul turned to nothingness. My heart, it was broken.

Today James was bringing me somewhere. Not outside of this building of course, but it was better than nothing. I still have yet to make any progress with him. I have become even more emotionless.

We walked the halls until we reached this one room. It was a room with no windows, similar to my old cell but bigger. In there, there was someone sitting on a chair tied up. I couldn't see who because there was a bag over the head.

I sat in the chair James told me to sit in, and he tied my arms and legs to it. What the hell?

"Joanne. I am about to do something that I plan taking as far as needed. None of this has to happen if  you agree to my terms. You become mine and you act like it. You kiss me, love me, anything I ask."

"f**k YOU! You can go burn in hell James! Do whatever you want to me, I don't care! I would prefer that instead of being with you in any kind of way!"

He got so angry. I thought he was going to kill me, but when he walked over to the chair and dragged the person over to in front of me, I knew I was mistaken.

"My dear Joanne. I would never hurt you, and you know this. Don't act a fool. I may not hurt you, but I will hurt the one dearest to you." He said menacingly.

My mind immediately went to Diana.

"You wouldn't dare. You know that would make me hate you if you killed Diana. I can never love you! you are a monster, James."

"Who said anything about killing? Although I am willing to do that if you do not start cooperating. It is very frustrating when you treat me like I am your worst enemy when you should be thankful. Thankful of the fact that you and your precious Diana are not dead right now, because that was the plan from the start. But of course, you have to be perfect."

"You are my worst enemy, James. Stay away from me and stay away from Diana."

He just looked at me and chuckled, then went over and ripped the bag off of the other persons head. Of course, it was my Diana. She didn't even seem phased. She just looked tired. She looked drained when she looked into my eyes. Her eyes were so sad, filled with sorrow.

I immediately noticed the bruises all on her face and her neck. Her nose had what looked like dry blood on it.

"You should have just cooperated with me, my dear. I don't want you to feel any pain! I really don't. But I get what I want and I want you Joanne. So, this is my last time asking you."

I didn't say anything and just kept my eyes locked on Diana. Her face was so beautiful, but so damn swollen. I slowly felt my heart start breaking a little at the sight.

When I saw from the corner of my eye the knife James pulled out of his pocket, my breath picked up. I still couldn't find my words. I had zoned out onto the wall and couldn't think of anything to say or do.

My answer to James became crystal clear when I heard my Diana screaming.