After All This Time

I'll wait for you

Dear me,

We've only been in London for 10 hours ish and it's already amazing. It's 4 am right now, Chloe is asleep, but I woke up. Maybe it's a good thing that I'm awake and she isn't because she always gets so annoyed when I write in my diary and don't pay attention to her and she will probably be noisy when I go to the bathroom later today and look in my diary and see what I've written, and she'll punch me again. Chloe if you're reading this, I'm sorry and you shouldn't be reading this. I think everyone is still sleeping which is probably normal, but I've never really needed much sleep. I could sleep for 4 hours and I would be fine. Chloe on the other hand could sleep all day and still would be tired and fall asleep again. I don't get how she does that.

Everyone will wake up in about 2-3 hours so I have some time to kill. I could read Harry Potter until Chloe wakes up but I'm not really feeling like reading right now. I'm in this city I've never been before. I could go outside and walk around for a little and then come back when we're supposed to wake up to get breakfast in the hotel. I decide to do that, I put on my clothes and my shoes and my Hogwarts sweater and I go out of the hotel room.

I walk out of the hotel. I don't know where I'm going because I've never been here obviously. I don't have a phone so it's not like I can call Sherley or anyone if it turns out I'm lost. This might not be the best idea. Whatever nothing will happen. I put my hands in the pockets of my hoodie and start walking down the street.

There's something about walking around in the dark alone that really calms me. I don't know why but it feels nice and it feels like I'm free. You can say I'm weird for it but it's calm and I like that.

By the way, London is gorgeous. Jack told us that we're going to Camden town today. There's like a market or something and I've seen pictures and it seems really nice. I'm excited to go there with Chloe and the others.

I've been walking around for a while now and the sun is already rising so I should walk back to the hotel now. I find my way pretty easily. I'm good with remembering how I walked. In about 15 minutes I get back to the hotel. I go back to my room. I open the door and I see Chloe looking around worried.

"Emma!" She yells and runs to me to give me a hug. "Where were you?" She asks me worried. I should have left a note or something.

"I went for a walk." I say and sit down on the bed.

"Why didn't you wake me up, I would have come with you." Chloe says sitting down next to me.

"I didn't want to disturb your sleep." I say.

"You're too cute." She says and kisses my cheek. "I'm going to get dressed." She says standing up. I grab her arm and pull her close to me again.

"Don't leave me without kissing me." I say and pout, she laughs.

"Usually I'm the one that would say something like that but okay." She says. She's right I've never really initiated a kiss but I love kissing her. She stands in between my legs as I'm still sitting down on the bed. She holds my face with both her hands and she leans down to me and she kisses me softly.

She pushes me down so I'm laying with my back on the bed and she hovers over me. "You're very cute you know." She says and plants a kiss on my nose. I giggle and she leans down to kiss my lips again. We keep kissing when suddenly I feel her hand on my bare stomach and I feel it go up. I quickly push her off of me and I stand up. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to push too far." Chloe apologizes.

"No it's okay I just freaked out a little." I say not looking at her and go into the bathroom and lock it.

I don't know what happened to me. When she started touching me I just freaked out and froze. I like Chloe a lot but I am not ready to go that far. I feel bad for pushing her, I shouldn't have done that but it just happened. I start crying and I'm not even sure why. "Emma? I'm sorry." I hear Chloe say as she knocks on the bathroom door. "Can you please open up I want to apologize." Chloe speaks again. Why does she have to be so god damn sweet.

"You don't have to apologize." I say wiping away my tears.

"Then why are you crying?" Chloe says and I hear hurt in her voice. I slowly open the bathroom door. I look at Chloe with my tear stained face.

"I'm sorry." I say crying.

"Come here." She says and she hugs me. She wraps her arms around my neck and I wrap my arms around her waist since she's a lot taller than me. "Now why are you sorry babe?" She asks me as she gives small kisses on my head.

"I pushed you." I say and bury my head on her chest.

"Yeah because I did something that you clearly didn't want me to do. Listen to me." She says and breaks the hug and looks into my eyes. "If I do something that you don't want me to do, tell me and I'll respect it and I'll wait for you until you're ready." Chloe says as she's holding my face, so I don't look away from her. I nod and smile. "Get those tears away because I don't like seeing you sad." She says and wipes the tears away from my face. "Thank you." I say smiling. "For what?" She asks. "For being the best." I say and kiss her.