41. Embarrassed - Jacob - Oh God, I had to embarrass myself. I stare at my phone screen, looking at the disaster I created last night. Why did I chat with her last evening? Just a pic and a voice note was enough and perfect. I check my messages once again to make myself feel worse. Me: ‘Wow you look fablous. Where are u?’ Me: ‘Fablus’ Me: ‘Fabulous… sry im dunk’ Such an i***t. Can’t even spell properly. Made a fool of myself last night. Then I see the image she sent me. She looked absolutely gorgeous. I couldn’t help but jerk myself off to her pic last night. It feels odd when I think about it now. I have never done this before, apart from that dream I had when I first met her. Not sure where that urge came from. I read more texts; I had sent her. Jacob: ‘You should hve stayed wi

