Embracing Our Fate (Book 2)

CHAPTER 2

I slowly got myself dressed, with help from Alex.  He chose a dress for me to wear and helped me to shower. It seemed unfair that we hadn’t gotten to enjoy our honeymoon, or to even do what most newlyweds do after their wedding. I was still a virgin and Alex was still waiting to make me fully his. s*x wasn’t something I could focus on right now. Right now, I needed to go to my parents’ funeral and say goodbye. I began thinking about how I would eulogise them, how could I possibly stand up in front of the whole pack and talk about them without breaking down like I had last night. 

Alex came up behind me, I was staring at myself in the bathroom mirror. He wrapped his arms around my waist and rested his chin on top of my head, “Are you ready?”

I turned to look at him and tried to smile, but I was barely able to lift the corners of my mouth, “Do I have a choice?”

He shook his head slightly and bit his lip, “Sorry, no.”

I nodded and made my way out of the bathroom. When we got out to the back yard, everyone was there, looking at us. I felt a wave of déjà vu flow through me. Eyes that had been bright and full of joy for me and Alexander a few days ago, were now filled with sadness and sorrow for my loss. The crowd parted as we walked and opened up to reveal my parents. Their bodies laid next to each other on a wooden platform. 

I don’t know why I expected there to be caskets, maybe because at my old pack, we would bury our dead just as humans did. Things were clearly different here. There were two torches, both alight with flickering flames. I stopped when I was a couple feet from their bodies, the tears already flowing from my eyes. Alexander squeezed my hand in his and pulled me forward. 

He turned us around to face the pack and spoke loudly, “Today is a mournful day. We are here to say goodbye to Johnathan and Sarah Greene. Although they were only a part of our pack for a short time, they will be missed just as any other pack member would be. May their travels to the afterlife be smooth and peaceful, and may they be free of the pain and illnesses that plagued them in this life.”

A loud sob escaped my lips as Alexander finished his speech. He turned and pulled me to his chest, holding me tight. “Do you want to say a few words, Freya?” he whispered in my ear. I shook my head quickly and pulled myself away from his embrace. I picked up one of the torches and looked over my parents still forms. They looked so peaceful, as though they were only sleeping. I whispered goodbye as I lowered the torch, touching it to the bottom of the platform. The wood almost immediately burst into flames and I couldn’t pull my eyes away as the fire spread over my parents’ bodies. The smell when the flames reached their skin was sickening. I covered my mouth and nose and walked back towards the house. I didn’t want to see any more, to be able to smell their burning flesh. 

Once I was back inside, I ran up to the bedroom and went straight to the toilet and emptied the contents of my stomach, or lack thereof, since I hadn’t eaten today. Alex walked in behind me and pulled my hair out of my face, “Are you alright?” he asked quietly. I flushed the toilet and went to brush my teeth. After I was done, I walked out and sat on the bed, crossing my legs. “I can’t believe they’re gone. They’ll never get to see me have children, or be there for me when I’m having a bad day. I thought I had come to terms with the fact that my mother was dying, but then to lose my dad too. What do I do? What do I say to people when they tell me they’re sorry for my loss? How can I be a strong Luna for my pack when I feel so broken?”, I gushed out, hanging my head. 

Alex lifted my face and wiped the tears that were dripping down my face, “You don’t have to say anything if you don’t want to, Freya. Everyone understands how hard this is for you, they’re not going to judge you for mourning the loss of your parents. Anyone who does will have to answer to me.”

His words made me feel a little better, but I still felt like I could cry for weeks. How did I get so lucky to end up with someone who knew exactly what to say to me when I needed it most? 

I reached out and wrapped my arms around Alex’s neck, pulling myself up and wrapping my legs around his waist. I just wanted the pain and sadness to go away, and there was only one thing that could help me forget it all. I pulled my lips to his and kissed him passionately. At first he was cautious, moving his lips gently, but then as the seconds passed, he kissed me with more urgency. I could feel his arousal pressing against my s*x, through his pants and I moved my hips to create more friction. 

He grabbed my hips and held me still, all the while kissing me. He leant forward and laid me on the bed, then hovered over me. “We can’t,” he whispered, his breath coming quickly. I reached up and started to unbutton his shirt, then pulled it off and threw it to the side. “Yes, we can,” I said, pulling his face back to mine. His kisses were calm now, and I pulled back to look at him. “What’s wrong? Don’t you want this?” I asked. “Of course I do,” he said, “But not like this. Not when you’re so upset. I want your first time to be special, and I know you’ll regret it if we do it now.”

I let my arms fall from around his neck and turned my head to the side. The feeling of rejection chased away every other emotion I’d been feeling for the last few days. “You don’t want me”, I said, very matter of fact. Alexander leant down and kissed me where his mark was on my neck, sending tingles through me, “You know that I do, Freya. I just can’t take advantage of you when you’re this vulnerable.”

I sighed and pushed him off, before stripping off into my bra and underwear. “It’s your loss I guess,” I said sadly, then climbed into bed and pulled the blankets over me. I fell asleep quickly, trying not to focus on how crazy my life has become. 

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I awoke to Alexander planting small kisses up and down my neck. His hands were wrapped around me and my back was pressed to him. I could feel his erection pressing into my back. I moaned quietly when he nibbled at my ear and then whispered, ‘Good morning, beautiful.”

I groaned, then turned and put my face into my pillow, I didn’t want to have to wake up yet; I still felt so tired. Instead of trying to get me to wake up, Alexander continued kissing me, but this time he was kissing my back. The tingles felt amazing and I wanted so badly to grab him and finish the mating ritual, but the memories of yesterday replayed over and over inside my head. Harlow was practically purring in the back of my mind, and I knew if she could have her way, she would make Alexander hers right here, right now. 

I turned my head and said, “I thought you didn’t want to take advantage of me in this vulnerable state?” When I opened my eyes, Alexanders beautiful blue eyes were fully black. I realised then, that Enzo was the one in control of Alex’s body…..Crap.