BOOK 10
Almost two weeks after the party, my life was messier than before. Michael showed up asking me to go out and kept pushing for a while although I refused. Meanwhile Alex called me to tell me that shortly he was coming to see me in New York. A part of me wanted to see him again, but another part wanted to forget about that summer, about him and what happened. That part, the biggest inside me, wanted Dean... only Dean. Despite everything. I know it was stupid, that when I had my chance I ran away, but I couldn’t help it.
I grabbed a cloth and dried my forehead. That morning was really hot, out of normality. It was the end of September and it still felt like being in the middle of August in a desert. I felt robbed of strength.
Rachel said quickly goodbye and went away. She had to wo
