When She's Gone

chapter 8

"What the f**k? WHAT THE f**k DID YOU DO KINSLEY!!" I angrily yelled at Kinsley who is still naked. I don't know what exactly happened. When I woke up, I wanted to remember something and but I am so confused. Why did I seem to have a forgotten memory

"I--I don't know. I don't remember---" I completely shutted her off. What I only remember is, the time when someone knocked me off last night. I saw a blood stain on my blanket and s**t! Did we had a nasty night? Damn it!

"You f*****g planned this, are you? All this time, you're lusting over me? I am your f*****g best friend Kinsley and I consider you as my little sister but f**k you! ALL YOU WANT AFTER ALL IS TO BE f**k BY ME!! YOU ARE NO DIFFERENT TO THOSE f*****g w***e WHO WANTS TO TASTE MY f*****g d**k" I was so mad when I spoke those to her. She's trying to convince me but I didn't believe her. My face was now clearly in crimson red and this was the first time that I yelled at her

"GET OUT!!! FROM THIS MOMENT, WE'RE NOT FRIENDS ANYMORE. I DON'T DO FRIEND WITH A SLUT!" I know, she was hurt but damn this anger issues of mine. I cannot control my f*****g self when I am mad. I never called Kinsley any mean words because she's important to me but f**k this!

"Raizen p--please let me explain!" She tried to control herself not to sob but in the end, she cried in front of me. She's begging me to listen to her explanation. I wanted to but my stubborn little head was so prideful. Instead of hearing her side I did something worse. f**k this mouth!

"I SAID GET OUT b***h!!!" I yelled as I threw her clothes that maybe she wore last night on her face. She tried to stand up to get dressed, but a pain consumed her face while touching the thing in between her thighs. Did I really pop my best friend's cherry?

I saw the blood stain on the bed and she cried even more. I feel a sudden guilt but my pride tried to erase it

"Get out and don't bother to talk to me anymore. I hate you" Nod was her only response that she gave to me after I told here those sentences. I don't know why she had to do this to me. If she had feelings then why does she need to drugged and knock me over something. f*****g me was not a good plan to confess. I hate her for that

I don't want to see her for the meantime, I am different when I am f*****g mad. Kinsley was about to leave my room when the door suddenly opened. It was my mom. Her eyes widen upon realising that I am naked--covered only by the blanket

Her eyes noticed the blood stain on the bedsheet

"Son, do you have something to tell me about that blood stain?" her voice is serious and I took a huge gulp

"Mom... I am gonna tell you the truth. That b***h" I pointed Eley with a disgust on my face. f**k this mouth. I saw pain on Eley's face

"is actually a cunning one. She took advantage of my current situation last night. I wasn't in my usual self but this f*****g s**t did the worse. She took advantage to f**k me" yeah maybe she drugged me that's why I couldn't remember everything last night

"So you two had a s*x?" mom asked me with her serious tone

"Yeah but I wasn't in my usual self-mom. I felt like she drugged me" I said

"Tomorrow, I will arrange your marriage. Son, you took Kinsley's innocence, whether it was intentional or not...you will take responsibility for it" I was stunned to speak when mom mentioned the arrange marriage. f**k no! I don't want to get married yet...

And hell yeah, mother really took her words up. I persuaded Eley, I told her that I'm gonna forgive her if she would not agree to my mom's idea. I thought she would agree but damn her. She also agreed and it made me hate her even more. Dad and mom threatened me that If I would not marry Kinsley, they would not give me the inheritance they had reserved for me

Of course I forcefully agreed to marry Eley. I thought that, maybe once I've got everything, I'll immediately divorce her. Two years of being married to her was boring. I ended being jerk and cold to my best friend Kinsley

Despite being cold to her, I couldn't help myself to lust on her. Kinsley was a pretty and sexy woman, many men wants her and I never thought that I am seeing her now as a woman, not the best friend that I had

One night, I was drunk and I went to her room. I'm still sober and she thought I was totally drunk but she's damn wrong. I told her that I want to bed her, since she's my wife, she's obliged to give it to me and yeah, we f****d each other till morning. I intentionally moaned Selina's name to see her reaction and a guilt attack my heart when I saw the pain in her eyes

There's this day also that she offered me a coffee. I threw it on the floor and I never knew that it was spilled to her feet. I tried to helped her up and asked her if she's okay but my pride eats me again

She was once my little baby when were in our college. I've been protective to her but things changed rapidly when I noticed how I behaved strangely. I get easily mad over little things

Every day I kept on telling lies to Kinsley, like how I wanted to be Selina. I wanted her to divorce me because I am not deserving to her

One night I didn't go home to our house, I stayed at my company's office. There's a secret room in my office so I chose to stay there for one night. I lost my phone too, so I bought another one. I guess she'd called me many times. Whatever I was busy, it's not that I don't want to see Eley, it's because I do have a lot of paperwork. That morning then, Eley kept on asking me where I slept last night. I was tired and hearing her nagging me so early irritated me to the core. I accidentally hit her face with the plate that I threw and f**k my f*****g damn self!

I hurt her physically. I saw how her forehead bleed and I am so guilty. I wanted to aid it but my f*****g self just walked out

I did some hurtful words to her when we were having a meal in my parents'house. I told her another lie again and there I saw that pain again, dwelling on her pretty eyes. I thought I could control my anger and my mouth but then when my dad told me that I need to have a child first to get the company that I've been dreaming, I know that I am in trouble. How could they asked something like that

Kinsley heard our conversation that time and there also, I have said something painful to her again. It was all lies...

I thought I couldn't hurt her again but I just did

I have hurt her jaw so much, I did even slapped her with a bundle of money. I told her another made up lies again. I didn't actually met Selina and f*****g her all day and night? Nah It was all f*****g lies

Tomorrow morning then, I received a photos of Kinsley with two men sleeping with her. The three of them were naked and anger boils my f*****g head. How could she cheat on me? I wanted to strangle those men's neck if I could see them right away. I will f*****g murder them

So when my cheating wife comes home, I automatically grabbed her to my bedroom. There I owned her body a hundred times. Kinsley is mine and her body should only belongs to me but f**k her. How could she cheat on me

two months later, I am on the verge of being able to forgive her but someone sent me a new photo of Kinsley, she's kissing a man. My anger rose again

Kinsley later revealed that she was pregnant. I was excited and happy but as I remembered all the photos, the excitement suddenly disappeared. I told her that the baby is not mine

After that she walked away. I was so confused, should I believed her or not. That time, I've decided to have a visit to my parent's house. I wanted to tell them everything. I want an advice from them

So when I have arrived. Confusion was visible in my eyes when I saw Kinsley walking forward near to the kitchen 's direction. I secretly followed her and I hid my self in the curtains

I heard two voices arguing and realised, it was mom and dad. I was totally in nuts when I discovered their secrets. They knew Kinsley from the very beginning. I just can't believe that they did it.Now it sums it all, they're being nice to her because they are guilty on crashing Kinsley's parent's car and f**k!

I saw Kinsley walked away. She's silently crying and her cries are different from the usual. Her eyes were in pain, she looked tired too. Damn I almost forgot that she's pregnant

At night then, I called my private investigator. I told him to trace the location of the person who sent me the photos. Morning, I went immediately to a digital photo expert. I showed them the latest picture that I received from someone

I wanted this to be over soon. I don't wanna hurt Kinsley anymore...