The Invisible Mystery

Chapter 27: Liana's Decision

The day after the talk that I had with Abigail over the phone, I immediately went out of my room as I tried to find someone to speak to. I wanted to answer them right now, because what Abigail had said to me the day before had made me realize something - it had given me a reason to really think about this because it seems as though they have been waiting for my answer for too long.

I figured that Abigail was right with everything that she had said to me. I figured that she was indeed right when she had said that I should think about accepting it, because if I would not do so, I might regret it later.

I might blame myself if something wrong would happen to any of them. I might not be able to forgive myself if ever I would refuse to accept their requests and something would happen to them afterwards.

I did not want to think of the regret that I would feel once that happen. I did not want to think of the what ifs afterwards, if ever I had refused their requests. I never liked the idea that I would drown myself with guilt and regret, because I have never done anything for them, even though I knew that they would do the same for me if ever I had the problem.

Above it all, each one of them had already grown on me. I have already learned of caring for them, even though it has not been that long ever since we met. I have already learned of worrying about them, because I knew that they were nice people who would also get worried about me if ever something wrong would happen to me.

And what Abigail had said the night before was left inside in my mind as I think about it over and over again. I kept on thinking about it all night, to the point that I did not even get enough sleep - though I must say that I did not care about it any longer because all I really wanted to do was to analyze everything so that I would be able to know that I have chosen the right thing - so that I would be able to know that I would never regret this choice of mine in the end.

She was right when she said that I should trust them. She was right when she said that I should accept their requests, if I really thought that they were trustful people - though I must say that I have already proven it over and over again. She was right when she said that I might regret every single thing that I was not able to do if ever I had refused to help them, and that left an impact inside my mind as well as in my heart - though I must say that I had sensed that something was wrong when she had said those words.

I even remembered that she had said that she had experienced this kind of situation too, though I did not know what exactly that situation was. I remembered that she had said that she had also once asked by someone to help them, but then again, based on the tone of her voice while she was saying that, I must say that she did not agreed to help them and up until now, it had left her scarred and regretting every single thing that she was not able to do.

I wanted to ask her what was wrong. I wanted to ask her what had happened, but I figured that there would be another time for that because I have already sensed that she was still not ready on opening up about that topic - though I must admit that that was the very first time that I have ever heard that she had a story like that.

After all, I have always thought that she, as well as Dad, had never kept a secret to me. I have always thought that they were always telling the truth and never kept a secret to me, but then again, I should have already seen this coming - I should have already seen that something like this was bound to happen, because I already knew that they were not telling me something.

I already knew that they were keeping something from me. I already knew that they have some secret that I really did not have any idea on what it was, and I figured that it has something to do with that call when they had suddenly acted so different from the people that I knew - from the family that I have always thought had never kept anything from me.

Anyways, I think that I should just keep those thoughts for later because I literally have something at hand. I still needed to focus my attention on what I needed to say to all of them, because I really wanted to help them in some way that I knew.

I wanted to help them in any way that I would be able to do so, though I must admit that there might be some things that I would never be able to do for them - but I had already made amends to myself that I would still try to help them and when I already knew that I would never be able to do it, I would just openly say those to them as I have already knew that they would understand it.

I have already known that they would never do something that would make me regret my choices, because I have already known that they were not those kind of people. They would never act like that kind of way towards me, because I have already known that they were very understanding when it comes to people they were with.

They were always mindful of what they were doing whenever they were with someone else, and I have thought that must have been the reason why I could not seem to turn my back to them even after all this time.

I could not seem to turn away from them, even though I knew that in just a call away, I would be able to do so. I would be able to run away from them, but I have never done something like that because I knew that they would also do the same when I was on their situation.

I knew that they would never leave me, even if I was so different from them. I knew that they would never turn their backs to me, because I knew that they would do the total opposite of that - I knew that they would even f*rce themselves inside of my life, and I knew that I would never regret that I have accepted them because they were those kind of people that would always be there for me when I needed someone to talk to, and someone to lean on.

I let out a sigh as I continued to walk on that path, until I have came across this old woman that I was so familiar with. After all, I knew that I was not mistaken when I think that it was the same old woman who talked to me that day when I had accidentally received that call from Evo’s Mother.

She stopped on her tracks as she looked at me, intently, and that also made me do the same towards her as I bowed down to show some respect, before I had continued on staring at her as though I was waiting for her to say something towards me.

“You have a different aura today,” she said, as though she was so sure about it, which made me subconsciously nod my head even though I did not mean to do so. “Well, I guessed that it must be because you had already made amends with yourself.”

“I did,” I answered her, truthfully, because it seems as though even if she was not saying anything at all, I knew that she have an idea about the true identity of the people I was with - I think that she knew something about them, that was why she had asked me those questions on that day but I never get her, but as of this moment, it seems like I already had an idea that she knew something about all of them.

She just smiled a little after she had heard my answer, before she had shrugged her shoulders as though she did not care about it any longer. It was as though all she wanted to do was to act as though she did not know anything at all - though I have already known better than believing that she did nto really know something about them.

“Well, I guessed that I must say that I hoped you will never regret anything later on,” she said to me as though she also knew about the thing that I had as of this moment - It was as though she knew something about the decision that I have made after days of thinking about this over and over again.

She was about to leave right after she had said that, but I did not let her as I asked, “What do you mean by regretting something?” because I have always thought that I would only regret this if ever I refused to help them.

I thought that I might only feel that guilt if ever I had never done something for them. I thought that I would only feel that regret once I had refused to help them, even though I have already known that I was able to do something for them - even though I knew that there would something that I would be able to do for them.

She turned to look at me and smiled mysteriously, as she answered, “Regretting is not only because you did not do something for them.” I frowned as soon as I had heard that because it seems as though I did not get her at all. “Because you might also feel regret along the way, but then again, I must say that you might be different from that child and you will still be able to stand up with your own and you will still be able to stand up for your decisions until the very end.”

I did not have any chance to ask her more than that, because she had already walked away from me. I also did not try to run towards her and ask her more, because I left on that path, all alone, thinking as to what she wanted to point out as she had said those words.

I did not bother to go towards her as I figured that she would not say more than that, and I have already decided to go and find everyone because even though I have gotten that warning from that mysterious old woman, it still did not change the fact that I still wanted to help them in a way that I knew.

It still did not change the fact that I have already decided on what I should do. I still wanted to help them, and I knew that it would never change. I knew that I would hold onto this decision of mine, and even though I have already knew that there might be some problem along the way, I would bravely face it because I knew that I was the only one who decided for myself - and no one f*rced me to make this kind of decision.

No one had pressured me to agree, so I guessed that I should just suck this up and accept the reality that I would help them cross the afterlife, even though there was still a minimal in denial feeling inside me because I still think that this was too absurd to be true.

I let out a sigh as I shook off that thought, because I have already known that I would just change my mind in the last minute if ever I would think about it once again - and I must say that I did not have any time for that.

I did not have any time to change my mind for the last minute, because I had already decided that I wanted to help them. I wanted to agree with their request, and that would also mean that I should believe them now, because all of our efforts would just be gone to waste if ever I would not completely believe them.

It would only look like I was f*oling myself, as well as them, if I did that, and I never wanted to do something like that. I did not want to make them feel like I was only doing this because I did not want to feel the guilt if I would not. I did not want them to feel like I was only f*rcing myself, even though I genuinely wanted to help them in a way that I knew.

I let out a sigh once again as I took that path once again, and this time, I was really all alone while I was walking down that path. I did not even met anyone along the way, and I figured that they might be on the same place, as usual, while they were talking to something that interest all of them.

I figured that they might be together once again, just like how it always been while they were laughing around with the s*lly jokes that they would make up - and that put a smile on my face as I had already knew that I would really witness that once I was able to find where they were.

It seems like I did not have to look for them for a long time though, because even though I was still far from them, I could already hear their voices while they were laughing around. I could already hear the way they were acting as though nothing was wrong, which made me let out a grin as I started to walk towards the path where I have heard their voices.

And there they were, sitting on the circular bench that was located on the area where there were so many trees. It was almost as though they were only sitting around while they were talking to a topic that they could think of, and that made me grin even more than before as I started to approach them.

They must have sensed that someone had went on their side, which made them look at my direction and saw how they immediately grinned as they realized that it was me who went on their side. I even almost laughed when I had seen how their eyes almost twinkled as though they were really glad that I was already here in front of them.

After all, it has been days when I had came to them without any sense of awkwardness. This was the very first time ever since I have decided to lock myself up once again because I thought that I would be able to find something that I could do for them - though I must admit that it never really helped because I was still confused up until yesterday while I was talking to Abigail.

I looked at them and smiled as soon as I had heard that they had greeted me as though I did not lock myself up to avoid them. It was as though it was just alright for them, and they never really cared about it, which made me know that I would never really regret this decision of mine.

With that, I did not hesitate anymore and smiled at them as I had said, “I will help all of you on fulfilling your one final request.”